what can i say it's complicated

am i out of my head am i out of my mind if you only knew the bad things i like don't think that i can explain it what can i say it's complicated

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cntrlsayler”

“that’s what i hear is supposed to happen so hopefully that’s how it goes. i’d hate for the pain to be something i remember.”

“If it is. You could always hold it against him for the rest of his life.” Elijah teased. “I’m joking of course.”

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"i'll just hold it over his dads head."

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cntrlsayler:

“now that you said that you’re gonna end up knocked up at some point.”

“Well, let’s hope birth control stays on my side, and that doesn’t happen.”

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"there's always that one percent that it doesn't cover. but i hope things go the way you planned them. it sucks when plans have to change."

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cntrlsayler:

“terrified, but ready for him to be here. i can’t stand being pregnant, it sucks.”

“Remind me never to get pregnant because honestly it sounds horrible, and this just confirms that notion.”

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"now that you said that you're gonna end up knocked up at some point."

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cntrlsayler

“preschool. i don’t have much experience with kids any older than like, seven. and elementary schoolers drive me nuts so i went with something more my style. i worked at a daycare center through my last two years of high school and we had a lot of preschoolers there after they got out of school and i fell in love with them,” she said. “i can’t deal with the gross factor. i would be a horrible doctor. i’m too big a baby for all that.” sayler nodded with a small smile. “thanks. me too. i’m hoping for painless, but i wouldn’t count myself so lucky.”

“That’s extremely admirable. Most people don’t have patience for kids under the age of seven.” Elijah commented with a chuckle.  “I don’t think I could handle preschool kids, or babies. Babies make me nervous.” They seemed so fragile to him. “I guess there’s a reason not everyone is cut out to be a doctor, and the gross factor probably has something to do with that. “I’m sure after a few weeks of having him in your arms, you’ll forget all about the pain, and any grossness that comes with childbirth.”

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"that's what i hear is supposed to happen so hopefully that's how it goes. i'd hate for the pain to be something i remember."

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cntrlsayler:

“i think my cat has super powers,” she said out of the blue as she tapped her pencil’s eraser against her notebook. “like, i keep the baby’s room closed all the time, but i always find gizmo in his crib. you think he’s like, a jedi ninja type cat and opens the door with his mind?”

brooke laughed at the other, shaking her head. “honestly, sayler. i doubt that. maybe you just don’t shut it all the way when you think you do. you have to be tired by that time, right?” she asked, suggesting something other than worldly powers.

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"i'm always tired. my boyfriend's mom is always like "the baby isn't even born yet how can you be tired all the time" but growing a human takes energy."

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cntrlsayler:

“i could never be a doctor. being a teacher is stressful enough, i could never imagine being a doctor that like… heals and brings people back to life. the street cred would be lit, though,” she said. “i wanted everything completely natural. hospitals freak me out a little. but i’d be more comfortable in my own house, my own bed, my own surroundings. and the only hospital that takes my insurance has this policy that says if the baby’s head isn’t out within five minutes of pushing then they do an episiotomy whether mom wants it or not. it’s pretty bullshit. so that really drove me away from having a hospital birth. i’ll be damned if anybody tells me how i have to have my baby unless it’s an emergency c-section.”

“What grade do you teach?” Elijah asked with a soft smile. “You’d basically be treated like a modern day god if you were able to heal and bring someone back to life. Maybe in another life I would have been a great doctor, but in this life i’m far more interested in starting a non-profit.” The ginger male shrugged. He listened carefully as she explained her reasoning behind wanting a home birth, though he knew he would never personally give birth, he admired her wanting to have the best for her son. “That’s amazing. I don’t know how many people who would fight for what’s right for their child. I hope you have a quick, and safe delivery.”

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"preschool. i don't have much experience with kids any older than like, seven. and elementary schoolers drive me nuts so i went with something more my style. i worked at a daycare center through my last two years of high school and we had a lot of preschoolers there after they got out of school and i fell in love with them," she said. "i can't deal with the gross factor. i would be a horrible doctor. i'm too big a baby for all that." sayler nodded with a small smile. "thanks. me too. i'm hoping for painless, but i wouldn't count myself so lucky."

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cntrlsayler:

sayler nodded. “yep. i’m almost forty-one weeks, so pretty much any day now.”

“Are you scared? I would be shaking in my boots if I was about to have a baby.”

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“terrified, but ready for him to be here. i can’t stand being pregnant, it sucks.”

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@saylerbaker: i wish he would come out. i almost don't fit in selfies anymore.

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 xsofiaxmartinez:

“I guess if my eggo was preggo I wouldn’t feel like leaving the house either.” Sofia mused softly. “You’re almost ready to pop, aren’t you?”

sayler nodded. “yep. i’m almost forty-one weeks, so pretty much any day now.”

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 elijahdaviesxwalker:

“For the longest time I wanted to be a doctor just because of that show, until my moms explained to me that some of the show might be scripted for dramatic effect.” Elijah chuckled. “Why did you decide to go  with having a home birth? I mean I applaud you for going a non-traditional route, I’m just curious.”

“i could never be a doctor. being a teacher is stressful enough, i could never imagine being a doctor that like... heals and brings people back to life. the street cred would be lit, though,” she said. “i wanted everything completely natural. hospitals freak me out a little. but i’d be more comfortable in my own house, my own bed, my own surroundings. and the only hospital that takes my insurance has this policy that says if the baby’s head isn’t out within five minutes of pushing then they do an episiotomy whether mom wants it or not. it’s pretty bullshit. so that really drove me away from having a hospital birth. i’ll be damned if anybody tells me how i have to have my baby unless it’s an emergency c-section.”

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 savvyxholt:

“That sounds absolutely adorable to me. Does he cuddle with the baby all the time too? I’m not too sure how he’s getting in the room, but it sounds to me that he has chosen the baby as his new best friend.”

“the baby’s not here yet, but i’m sure he’ll be attached. he likes to lay against my stomach. he like... plays with him. when he was kicking, gizmo would bat at my stomach because he’d get kicked. cutest think on earth.”

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 elijahdaviesxwalker:  

“I love ‘untold stories of the er’, when I in middle school I used to rush home after school just to watch it.” he confessed with a smile. “Wow, you could literally go into labor right this second. I’m sure you’ll be a great mom.”

“same. my parents told me i was gonna have nightmares cause i was kind of a hypochondriac,” she said. sayler nodded. “i sure could, i’m hoping it’s a smooth labor, but he’s my first, so i probably won’t have such luck. i’m having a home birth, so i know it’s gonna be rougher on me.”

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 xsofiaxmartinez:

“I would get bored out of my mind if I was stuck in my house all the time. I mean there are so many cute boys and girls out there to kiss, and so many adventures to be had.” Sofia shrugged. “Call me dramatic but i’d rather choke.” 

“i’m pretty much a homebody. i’m not very mobile these days because it’s hard to get around, so i wouldn’t mind it, but i’m sure i’d get tired of it eventually.”

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@saylerbaker: i have never felt fatter

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 elijahdaviesxwalker:

“You laughing until you give birth is a worthy of winning afv.” Elijah chuckled at the thought. “If you don’t mind me asking, how much longer until you welcome your little one to the world?”

“it’d be a great edition of ‘untold stories of the er’ too,” she said with a small laugh. “i just hit forty weeks, so literally any time. i get more and more nervous as the days get closer.”

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 xsofiaxmartinez:

“Wait, didn’t the house in the disney movie end up turning on the family, and like locking them in their house? Being trapped in my house, and never being able to see the world is my biggest fear.”

“okay, good point. but i honestly wouldn’t mind being trapped in my house. i could totally order postmates. i just won’t get a smart house named p.a.t.”