Coconyan🪽

ultimate guide to fail in life ◌⑅⃝*॰ॱᒄᵒᵏⁱ(꜆˘͈ෆ˘͈꜀)ᒄᵒᵏⁱ◌⑅⃝*॰ॱ Your favorite Nekomimi! ♡ॢ₍⸍⸌̣ʷ̣̫⸍̣⸌₎ ᵖᵉᵗ ᵐᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵐᵃᵏᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵖᵘʳʳ!~

[coco4nyan]

[coco4nyan]

Hello everynyan! Tell me why people always lie about the make up tutorials they post? ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ!?!??!

Anyway for a little context..

I’m going to my home country soon, and my mom asked me (in a very harsh and critical way) not to wear any or go out in jiraikei stuff/makeup.

Okay (๑′°︿°๑) I guess it makes sense, people there are very judgmental.

So I start browsing the web and I come across this girl I’ve seen a few times now doing real good douyin makeup- HELL YEAH I CAN TOTALLY DO THIS!!!

impossible ( °̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥˟°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ )

Ive bought the same products as her, same brushes same everything— even followed her tutorials to a T but nothing ever seemed to look as good as hers  ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ there is no saving me— either I have no skill or my face is so weirdly built that it’s impossible for me to look cute in douyin makeup?? ORRR third option.. she was leaving something out?????

Man.. (꒪⌓꒪) I give up I’ll be an ugly chud for the whole summer I guess _(-ω-`_)

[coco4nyan]

ε-(´ｏ｀;A

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♡ॢ₍⸍⸌̣ʷ̣̫⸍̣⸌₎

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Some cute pictures I made of my fav sakura miku figure!~ ´͈ ᵕ `͈ ♡°◌̊

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(*ﾉ∀`*)..~

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RANT

Fuck this stupid fucking app for not letting me post. Like?..

Doesn’t matter. Anyway.

Why is it so damn hard to find clothes that fit me? I mean seriously, I’ve already lost 25kg there’s no way that no brand makes clothes for my size. I’m so over this! I just wanna fucking binge eat and gain it all back because there’s CLEARLY no fucking difference from me w 25kg and me without.

It’s even more frustrating when you’re into jirai kei like me. I still feel hideous with the pien makeup because I don’t have any clothes that match my aesthetic- the best I can do is wear short black shorts and a baby pink oversized T-shirt. Not even that helps BECAUSE MY BIG FAT ASS IS OVERSIZED.

All of my progress seems so.. useless? I get it, I look a little better but mentally I feel worse. The only difference that I can clearly see is the fact that my double chin is smaller. That- and one pair of shorts finally fit me! Wow! What crazy good progress! I totally don’t want to fucking kill myself!!!

You know what’s even worse tho? I’m a horrible fucking attention whore! I’m starving for a sliver of attention from a real life person- just a random person finding me attractive, someone to show me that I’m still somewhat FUCKABLE.

I’ve never been called pretty by anyone ever that isn’t family or my closest friends.

Am I really that ugly???

I hate this, I want to rip my guts out

At least my shoes are cute, even if they’re too small and hurt.

[coco4nyan]

[coco4nyan]

[coco4nyan]

[coco4nyan]

Hi everynyan!~

This will be a rant post..

It was my birthday yesterday!! Wooo! I’m 19!

Of course I had a party with all my friends.

But before that i only wanted to invite my best friend, because i genuinely thought my other friends didn’t care about it. (I didn’t get asked questions about what id want, mostly got ignored when talking about my birthday etc..) and that made me feel a little invisible- like oh there not even asking me— they might as well not even care you know?.

But I did end up inviting them! We had a fun time! Three of my four friends had gifts for me and the only one that actually made an effort to buy me stuff was my best friend o(^o^)o (stuff for my ita bag/cosmetic stuff) but tell me why.. my one friend got me a kiddie diary and cookies???.. (￣^￣)ゞ lol… I’m.. almost two years older than you… why would you get me this? But okay I guess more stuff to fill my already full drawers. She’s always gotten me such horribly childish gifts :( I’m not a kid and I don’t want to be treated like I’m as incompetent and dumb as one. “It even has a lock!” There’s no way you’re getting me shit like this when i literally bought you huda beauty shit for secret Santa💔

It just makes me feel really looked down on, stupid and to be honest really unimportant, like it’s not worth it to spend money on me.

Everytime I make someone a gift I always try to get them what they want the most, for example my best friend really loves bakugo from mha so I got her a 50€ figure of him and some other stuff that totaled up to 80€ all together with the figure as well as some handmade pins of characters she loves and adores.

It’s really easy to get me stuff, I just feel like they don’t care. Like.. take a look at my room.. I love joost Klein?.. Marin Kitagawa?.. Kangel?

One friend just didn’t bring shit- she’s been doing this ever since she met me (not bringing shit and buying me stuff months later that cost like 5€) and the other one was chill as hell and got me my Yuri manga I love her.

The only ones I’ll most likely invite next year are the chill one and my best friend (〃ω〃)

[coco4nyan]

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[coco4nyan]

₍₍⚞(˶>ᗜ<˶)⚟⁾⁾ Hey Yukari! You have so many sinocos, any others you have your eye on? Cuz i rlly want a pochaco figure, i think shes stunning, but theyre so hard to find...

Hello Anon!~ ♪(๑ᴖ◡ᴖ๑)♪ I literally love this sonico right here! She’s on the more expensive side ( 80€ with shipping) so I’m not sure if I’ll be able to even get her >.< because again— I don’t see a point in wasting so much money on one figure when I can get two perfectly good looking prize sonicos for the same price or less! ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡

⑅✩♡ᵗʱᵃᵑᵏઽ~for the question!*♡♬＊°

Please ask me more questions!~

[coco4nyan]

AHGH your room is so cute I WISH MINE LOOKED LIKE YOURS! ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა with such a nice cohesive theme~ but figures are soooo expenssive...

☆〜（ゝ。∂ ) thank you so much!~

I know figures can be super expensive— especially if you’ve got a whole collection like me!!

That’s why avoid scale figures... they’re so damn expensive for no damn reason ..(°_°) and prize figures look amazing in my opinion ♪(๑ᴖ◡ᴖ๑)♪

⑅✩♡ᵗʱᵃᵑᵏઽ for the question!~*♡♬＊°

Please ask me more questions!

[coco4nyan]

Would you guys be okay with me talking about my feelings?.. or is that a no? ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡

[coco4nyan]

New figures! All for super cheap!~ ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡