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       the wallet that comes into view is held by a hand with bruised knuckles,  a redness that poorly fades against regular skin tone.  noah recognizes it immediately.  his chest relaxes for all but one second because the next his brain is realizing that the stranger handing it to him mustâve looked inside in their attempt to return it to its rightful owner.  everything is happening so quickly that noah doesnât even have time to panic about the photograph, it becomes apparent that this stranger knows more than he should when he begins talking.
noah doesnât think he has ever tried to hold an expression with as much strength as heâs currently using to keep from falling apart.  he wants to fall apart,  he feels a surge under his skin,  urging him to use force and break out in violence.  his blood is boiling,  his fingers shake when he takes his wallet back.Â
the name clare doesnât sound familiar,  and while it presses into his skull,  all he can think of are ben and harper and some stranger with them.  he feels dizzy.  he wants to throw up.  noah isnât even sure if he can talk,  or if he can move any more than he already has without snapping. Â
jesus,  how did it get this bad without anyone noticing ?Â
he needs to force himself to talk.  noah feels like heâs taken a stab to the chest,  hearing the man speak made his ears feel like theyâre bleeding,  but they need to see the end to this,  just a glance of it,  if theyâre going to get back to ben and harper.  he has never felt such a desperate urge to save somebody.  heâs willing to die right here one-hundred times to make sure that theyâre safe.  it seems that itâs too soon to die,  though.  thereâs a party to go to,  which sounds a lot like dying anyway,  but it also looks like a glimpse of the end.  noah squeezes lenaâs hand tightly.Â
  â would it be too much to ask, â  his voice is tight,  he knows itâs too much to ask.  theyâre using ben and harper to force them into doing anything.  still, noah thinks itâs worth getting information,  â  for one of us to decline this invitation ?  we donât trust just anyone with our children, â  his eyes are icy cold,  nearly penetrating.  his hands are still shaking.  being forced to remain collected feels a lot like going insane.   â our hiring process for babysitters is rather thorough,  you see.  âÂ
the man reacts with limited emotion. something like a flicker of remorse or perhaps a flinch crosses his stoic features. but then he falls back into that statuesque and distant stare. thereâs something lost about him, something hidden the eyes, like a child alone in a store after being separated from their parent. he seems to be searching the horizon for some point of tether.Â
but he manages a simple smile and repeats, âsheâs already sent over a fantastic babysitter.â the words ring exactly the same in every aspect of intonation and pace. as if they were rehearsed again and again until no distinction could be heard, âif youâll come with me then,â he says, completely ignoring noahâs polite question about whether or not the offer could be declined. which in some way was an answer in itself. he holds a hand out, directing the couple to a door at the edge of the foyer.Â













