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[codependoncy]

hi !! this is my vent blog !

i try to keep my main blogs pretty positive + negativity free , to the point in which i’m a lil bit anxious to post vents , so i made this blog instead as a solution !!!! this blog won’t WHOLLY be negativity , i’m also going to use it to try to spread awareness and speak to my experience with mental illnesses and try to give advice on that topic , but DO expect this blog to be a lil bit on the debby downer side , so make sure to read all the tws on my posts and dni if those are triggers for you ! for your own safety , if you’re not in the right headspace to deal with negativity , i’d suggest blocking my acct ( i won’t mind ) ! remember , your health and safety is #1 priority at ALL times , i will NOT be offended if u need to click off - PLS take care of urself !!

if ur still here, here’s a bit abt me ! :

╰➝ i go by many names - you can call me charlie if you’d like , and i’m open to any nicknames/alt names you might prefer to use for me , too !!

╰➝ i’m biromantic ( + questioning arospec ) & genderfluid ! pronouns are she / he - preference fluctuates but idm whatever you use ( currently masc-leaning ! )

╰➝ i’m a ⚠️ MINOR , asexual , & an age permaregressor (mentally stunted/underdeveloped ) !! NSFW and sexual blogs of any nature please dni and keep to your own space , thank you for your understanding & respect !!

╰➝ i have generalized anxiety disorder , separation anxiety disorder , social anxiety disorder , dependent personality disorder , avoidant restrictive food intake disorder , depression , selective mutism , trichotillomania , & onychophagia . expect these topics to discussed and pls click off my blog if you might think they could be triggering for you , thank you !!!

homophobes , queerphobes , fatphobes , pedos , racists , xenophobes , misognists , terfs , ableists , anti-agere , anti-recovery , anti-coping , nsfw , kink , fetish , maps , pro-ed (even only self!!) blogs , pro-self harm (even only self!!) blogs , pro-suicide (even only self!!) blogs, etc !!

[goofstep]

everyone get unemployed. i will provide for us.

[throughfearandtrembling-deactiv]

I love how safe everyone in the comments feels about being entirely dependant on a potentially psychopathic benefactor 😁

[goofstep]

im nice…..

[junglejim4322]

He’s literally nice

[dpdcultureis]

autistic DPD culture is never feeling like an equal around other adults, always feeling like a little kid who needs to be told what to do

♡

[butchdykekondraki-moved]

i think when some of you say "neurodivergent" you just mean adhd and autism

[butchdykekondraki-moved]

schizophrenia makes you neurodivergent. ocd makes you neurodivergent. ptsd (and c-ptsd) makes you neurodivergent. bpd makes you neurodivergent. npd makes you neurodivergent. anxiety makes you neurodivergent. depression makes you neurodivergent. even the "scary" mental illnesses make you neurodivergent. i'm going to start killing

[codependoncy]

i want to stop biting my nails so bad :(

[codependoncy]

when everyone else in the friend group is making the "i'm gonna kms!!! LOLLLLL" jokes whenever there's the slightest inconvenience but the second YOU make a "AUGH i'm gonna kms,," joke it's all "you cant say that!!!!! that's not funny!!! they'll send u to the psych ward!!!!!!" bc ur the active suicide risk of the friendgroup 🙄

[codependoncy]

“you were a wonderful experience.” “you were… everything.” is such dpd core audio

[mizusjawline]

I will heal from my dependent personality disorder and channel it into loyalty to the people I love, rather than dependency

[plyr456]

looking into dpd right now and i can’t seem to get any confirmation on anger with dpd. a lot of sources say anger isn’t shown due to the inherent submissiveness and dependency on others but i want people with dpd to provide actual info/your own experiences with your anger and how it manifests. reach out if you can it would be really helpful!

[codependoncy]

hi ! person with dpd here !! in my personal experience , i DO feel anger on occasion but i have a tendency to repress it when i do feel it so i don’t show it often . and the only times i get really angry is when i’m told i SHOULD be angry - being told “hey , what that person did to you was kind of awful” makes me realize “OH yeah . that WAS kind of awful . really awful actually . why’d i let that happen ? why’re they such a bitch ??” i just tend to simmer rather then explode !! don’t take this as gospel , tho -- many people experience mental disorders and the emotions that come with them in different ways , so i defintely can’t speak for yours or other ppd experiences , but i hope my own personal experience and insight helped !! again , could be totally wrong as i don’t know anything about you or your experiences , BUT if you feel like you experience a lot of dpd symptoms but also experience other symptoms ( such as anger ) that “contradict” the disorder or don’t fit the disorder’s listed symptoms , it is worth mentioning most personality disorders have high comorbidity rates !! ex. a symptom of bpd is a short temper and explosive anger , and despite the fact this might seem “contradictory” with dpd given ppl w/ dpd are often characterized as having passive tempers , bpd and dpd actually have a 30% comorbidity rate , which is pretty high !! AGAIN , this is just as an example as i can’t speak for you or your symptoms because i’m not you and don’t know you , but i hope this little infodump on pds helped !!!!

[m-grouped]

MILLON'S SUBTYPES [ DPD EDITION ]

Note: all definitions are taken directly from Millon's writings, which are quite old, with only a few edits and rephrasings to make things more digestible to a modern audience.

📃 The Disquieted Dependent — Restlessly perturbed; disconcerted and fretful; feels dread and foreboding; apprehensively vulnerable to abandonment; lonely unless near supportive figures.

▐ has avoidant traits

📃 The Selfless Dependent — Often merges with and is immersed into another person. They become engulfed, enshrouded, absorbed, and incorporated, into others, willingly giving up their own identity. They will try to become one with or an extension of another person.

▐ has self-defeating traits

📃 The Immature Dependent — characterized by being socially or psychologically stunted, unversed, and childlike. Act undeveloped, inexperienced, and gullible. Often feel or truly are incapable of assuming adult responsibilities.

▐ variant of the "standard" dependent

📃 The Accommodating Dependent — appears gracious, neighborly, eager, benevolent, compliant, obliging, and generally agreeable. Tends to deny any and all disturbing feelings. Readily adopts a submissive and inferior role in most situations.

▐ has histrionic traits

📃 The Ineffectual Dependent — often appear unproductive, gainless, incompetent, and meritless. They typically seek an untroubled life. Often refuses to deal with difficulties. Generally untroubled by shortcomings.

▐ has schizoid traits

More of Millon's subtypes:

[ASPD] [AVPD] [BPD] [DPD] [DPPD]

[HPD] [OCPD] [PPD] [NGPD] [NPD]

[SAPD] [SDPD] [STPD] [SZPD] [TPD]

[dependencypersonality]

Childepense - Child DPD Archetype

ID: A 5-stripe flag with its stripes angled downward toward the bottom in a V formation. Coming down from the top-center is an arrow, with the top containing a downwards obtuse triangle with an icon inside. The icon is rubber duck, colored a fairly dark yellow. The arrow is a slightly lighter dark yellow, and the triangle inside is light yellow. The stripes, from top to bottom: Dark mint, dark yellow, yellow, mint, dark mint.

Depense are labels that describe one's relation to DPD and their dependent identity. It may be a gender experience, orientation experience, or any other identification: even its own category altogether.

Childepense, or the child dependent archetype, is a dependent identity related to children, considering oneself childlike, and/or being seen as a child. It may feel beloved, chaotic, and curious, but may also have other interpretations.

The modifier symbols are: 👣🌷

The tulip as a symbol for DPD is representative of how gardens are dependent on their gardeners and often lovingly tended to in turn.

Depense coined by @epikulupu. Also tagging @cupidcoining and @revenant-coining.