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🖤 ❛ sammy 22 . he/they mostly here to ramble, feel free to dm me if you wanna be friends ! 18+

have to be up in 6 hours for my very important dental exam and i cannoooot sleep oml

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th1n l€gs ♡︎

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getting ambushed by my friends parents w offers of food and them figuring out my new name lol

#i’m such a little mouse in their home #they don’t like hate me for it either and it’s so weird #i just never told them i changed my name cause i was like ‘eh not their problem’#but they’ve evidently seen own of my college letters and figured it out lol #so ig they’ll call me sam now lol #and they offered me stew #which i should probably have said yes to but #nuhuh #they’re very nice people and i feel quite bad for being so anxious in their house #and i get worried they’ll think i’m like not appreciating them enough #but i cannot defeat the very large part of my brain that is like Hide Because They Are Doing So Much For You #You Need To Be As NonExistant As Possible #and i think they kinda get that and aren’t that upset about it ??#idk #they’re nice :)

I feel so gross today, I’m actually hungry and it’s making me feel like an insane person. My bag o chips was way too high cal and I don’t even get to be fun starving about it cause why am I still fcking hungry !! I might end up eating more and just call it a maintenance day but I feel so gross and I also want to starve forever and ever. I’m just gonna smoke a cig and drink more soda and hope this goes away…

#it’s also just so hot out I feel gross regardless #I hate summer </3 #I wish it was winter #I miss the cold :(

soundcarvings

it’s a beautiful summer for disappearing

I do not like hunger! Why has my appetite returned ????

#I'm so annoyed

coffeefeuledangel

me after starving, smoking 3 cigs, listening to depressing music, and scratching gashes into my arms everyday: why tf am i so sad

coffeefeuledangel

I've been in a very weird headspace where I'm like actively avoiding things I know will make me feel too much better. I think I'm doing that thing again where I just want to be actively suffering because then maybe someone will notice and do something about it, but also I know if anyone actually asked if I was ok I would say yes and freak out about being a burden so it's kind of of a pointless endeavor. I also think I'm being cagey about "feeling better" because I know it will probably just lead to me switching and forgetting the past month and feeling like a completely different person again, and I don't want to like.. completely disappear and stop existing for months.

#I want Me to feel better not like.. Charlie to front and feel fine cause he always feels fine. I would like to feel fine for once ty.#And all of our hacks to feel fine are really just Getting Charlie In Front hacks and I don't want to deal with him #DID posting

me after starving, smoking 3 cigs, listening to depressing music, and scratching gashes into my arms everyday: why tf am i so sad

gloomyraincloud-deactivated2022

welcome to my blog im annoying

survived my trip to the store AND finally got an SD card for my camcorder so I can actually record stuff on it now !!!

#I got this thing like 3 months ago and kept not wanting to spend $30 on an SD card but I've done it #I love it tho its such a cheap and shitty little thing and all the footage is so whimsical #I need to shoot some found footage style horror nonsense on it #required filming if you own a shitty camcorder I think

wehidthebody

I need it to cool off outside so bad, I miss walking and I miss nature but I cannot handle this heat

#83 degrees and humid </3

just me and my fucked up ocs against the world

food stamps kick in tomorrow. i will be omading Entire Bag Of Chips because real food has betrayed me

#and cuz i want to

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