the lop-eared hare

| Ry | 18+ | they/it | ☽⛥𓃹⛥☾ | 29 | minors DNI | ⚠︎ 𓌉◯𓇋 ⚠︎

[thelittlelurker]

| 18+ blog | minors/ageless DNI |

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hey, y'all i'm Ry (REE)

| they/it | 29 | 18+ blog |

| witch | veiled eclectic pagan |

| demisexual | panromantic | polyamorous |

— Ry

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[thelittlelurker]

it's a good thing i poured out the rest of my vodka cuz i would be fucking licking the bottle right now just trying to feel something else...

( it was less than a shot so it wouldn't even do anything anyway )

[thelittlelurker]

i just remembered my mom telling me "well there are days i don't want to go to work, too." and me desperately trying to explain the difference between having a panic attack and "not wanting to go to work." like, i wish with everything in me that i could go to work and not feel like i'm in immediate danger. please understand that if i could i would have never stopped working. who wants to live like this? fucking no one.

it's not fun having to sell nudes and my body and beg for money for every little expense. it's not easier to lose sleep over the next $20. it's not a fucking choice i would make willingly. fuck, i even forced myself to work and drive through active panic attacks just to make sure i could make less than half of the literal poverty line before i broke fully and couldn't do it anymore.

fuck this stupid life.

[sloopybones]

"But you don't have to see them anymore-"

So there is this thing called flashbacks

[thememedaddy]

[redstonedust]

you're disabled? oh youre so brave, i could never imagine living like that! youre so strong for continuing to exist while disabled. it could never be me. i would seriously hate my life if i was in your position. yeah i straight up wouldn't want to be alive if that were me. have you thought about how i feel about your condition? how i wouldn't wanna be alive if i were in your shoes? im just saying. you're so brave.

[thelittlelurker]

i fucking hate not having money or an income or a support system that isn't also broke as fuck. like, i need a new vape and if i had a job that wouldn't be a problem, i'd just go get one. fuck me, man this sucks.

[thelittlelurker]

i'm sorry i haven't been liking everyones posts as usual. i have been a bit more present irl and the consequence is not logging on here as often. i still love you all and am interested in what you have to say, i will probably be on more often in a few days🖤🫂🖤

[thelittlelurker]

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[thelittlelurker]

y'all wanna see my new shirt? it was half off at the thrift store^-^

[thelittlelurker]

it doesn't go with these shorts really but here it is^-^

[thelittlelurker]

i'm so godsdamn tired of ai ads.

[thelittlelurker]

y'all wanna see my new shirt? it was half off at the thrift store^-^

[thelittlelurker]

i got a pint. hopefully i can actually feel something from this. i'm gonna be pissed if i don't actually feel anything. if i don't, then it's not worth it and i'll double down on not buying more alc for the house. i just wanted to feel something other than antsy and anxious.

[thelittlelurker]

i really want to buy some vodka. i won't. at least i don't think i will.. but i really want to. maybe if i promise to only have [x] shots... i think that could work. and i know i'm capable of limiting myself to only that many. i'm going to ask R what he thinks.

[thelittlelurker]

ramble about the kink event below^-^

y'all. it was amazing! our friend who bought our tickets also knew a ton of people there and got us VIP bracelets! being up there was super cool and i had a clear view of the lighting technicians' booth (?) set up thingy and that was really interesting. i could have dressed way sluttier, i saw some furries, i could have worn my hooves lmao next time i'll definitely approach it all with a different mindset. there was a part where like ten people in pup hoods got on stage and everyone howled with them! it was weird and dark and grungy and there were vendors and a fire dancer and firey whips. we met so many cool people and it all feels like a dream. i got compliments on my hair and R got to talk to a very tall lady which was great to see. he flitted around while i clung to our friends and we both had an awesome time.

we almost got tboned on the way home by a car with its light off so that got the adrenaline pumping, but if that's the only hiccup of the night i'll take it!

it felt so good to be around people who were comfortable being themselves and being loud and weird and proud again ^-^ it's been so long since we could attend any kind of kink event and like, it's always the most welcoming and safe space, honestly. everyone followed the rules and security was ever present so i never felt uncomfortable.

i'm almost sad that it is over already. i took anxiety meds before we got there which i think was the right move because there was a ton of people, but outside in the smoking area was less crowded so there was always a place to escape to if I got overwhelmed but i didn't! i'm so proud of myself ^-^

[thelittlelurker]

almost time to go!^-^

[thelittlelurker]

oh and i decided on different shoes

[thelittlelurker]

almost time to go!^-^