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She decided She was going to be Her own sun Her own moon And her own stars

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Twenty-Nine: The Turbulence

Twenty-Nine: The Turbulence

I once heard that your life would be set once you hit thirty. If you could settle before the age of thirty, you could do anything. Otherwise

Still hot on the link! Four minutes reading is up now

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Merry Merry

Merry Christmas, happy holidays and happy new year to you and your family!

Firstly published poetry zine Christmas edition by me! Thinking about making more poetry zine in the near future. Stay tuned.

xo, its1o1

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Wednesday with Lica in Lembongan

Reminiscing the meaningful talks with my stranger to friend in Lembongan. Happy reading :)

Wednesday with Lica in Lembongan

Let’s reminisce about all the conversations and recollections I had with the new buddy I made in Nusa Lembongan. Even though this is merely

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midnight thoughts

What if turns out there will be no one sitting next to me?

To see the sunset and the orange sky

And enjoy a little talks and more of pleasant silence

What if turns out there will be no one to sleep with at night?

Will I sleep really well or awaken until dawn

Will I get a nice dream or just simply dreaming about someone in the darkness in my room

What if turns out there will be no one to grow old together with?

Just to sit and holding hand together in the morning

And dance to favorite songs at night

What if turns out I will be here all alone?

Well, I can imagine it.

But I can't feel it, I don't want to.

And what if turns out I really enjoy the time I will spend alone with myself?

Will I still need somebody, a man?

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What if I am the problem?

What if I am the problem?

I feel like the easiest way to make everything right is blaming someone. The good thing about that is, it would make me feel better after do

Reflection on what if they are not the problem and what if turns out I am the problem. Plus the take out on what we need to do. Happy reading ;)

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It' s about the moon that shines brightly at night

Pitch black sky

Smokey 

Small thing shines 

In a bright yellow color

It shines 

through the mirror 

In a window

Where there lay a girl

In her pitch black room

Admiring its beauty 

It looks like she sees herself

Where the only time she shines 

Is when the dark time comes 

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Trapped

It comes like a cycle.

The super positive me emerges by the time I write my resolution, always by the end of the year.

Months passed by, and now it is March. I feel like everything is going to be as I planned. Optimistic me.

And June comes; that's my birthday and my favourite month. Full of hope, the hottest me.

By the end of July, everything had slowly blurred. I think it's because of the Mercury retrograde, the pessimistic me, my failure, or my mindset.

Me being sad, feeling unworthy, feeling left behind, lonely, desperate—you can see the worst version of myself on August.

September through December is the time to heal myself. I was burned out. Yet I don't want to be there for a long time. So I need to heal my inner self.

Then back to square one.

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Space in Between? Do I Need It?

Space in Between? Do I Need It?

I was sitting on my desk on Saturday morning after having a zoom class with my student. It was so quiet, my mind is anywhere but not here. F

For the one who always feels bad to take step back after decided something big, here's a shoulder to lean ;)

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Barbie movie really inspires me to look deeper into my relationship with my female best friend. Happy reading!

What Makes Female Friendship Beautiful-From Female POV

I believe that every female friendship builds in a very different way from each other but always beautiful. Despite from all the dramas, tea

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Which one today?

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I Don’t Watch Instagram Story Anymore

If you no longer see my name is in your viewers list, that’s correct. I am no longer watching your Instagram story. I got so much things hap

I put myself to write several reasons why I don't watch Instagram story anymore and how it's beneficial me and my mind. Go read more on my blog!

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There is a reason God limits our days. To make each one precious.

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Poetry

To write again,

I need

To type again,

I need

To tell again,

I need

To be left

To be broken

To be happy

To be missed

To be strong

Enough

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Spotify

To all those next button

You press on your playlist

To all those happy song

You sing when you sad

To all those fake smile

You show to everyone

They don't work, honey

Your heart still hurt

No matter what

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Instagram

Tell me that you don't need something like:

"It looks good on you"

"I wanna be like you"

"You,

Are beautiful"

"How lucky you are"

"You look better now"

To convince yourself that you are loved.

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Hi there

Can I talk to you there?

A story that I need to share

To someone who seems care

Perhaps you would be there

Perhaps we could linger

For a while

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Why?

Why do I have to know you

Why do I have to get closer to you

Why do I have to think about you

Why do I have to like you

Why do I have to adore you

Why do I need you

Why do I miss you

Why do I kiss you

Why do I love you?

Can't answer

Can't explain but

Can feel it.

Why do I need a reason then?