why am i like this

Against all the odds, still on tumblr in my 30s. Queer, they/them. Mental, ND, spoonie etc. Multifandom, some aesthetics, way more than your RDA of salt

[cogito-ergo-amo]

in the psyched ward straight up “losing it”

and by it…hahaha, well

let’s just say my marlborols

[cogito-ergo-amo]

Outta my way, queuing-for-eclipse-glasses gayboys, I’m gonna stare directly into tomorrow’s blotted-out sun

[cogito-ergo-amo]

Oh my stepmother did NOT just text me to passive-aggressively scold me for not sending a separate birthday card in addition to the bouquet (which came with a fucking card) and treat hamper I sent because I couldn’t make it to her actual birthday over the weekend

Because I am

IN HOSPITAL

With a fucking

LIFE THREATENING ILLNESS

Like yeah no shit I’ve not exactly been able to pop down the shops and to the post office

Spending almost an entire month’s wiggle-room budget on gifts but none of it counted for anything because I didn’t include a three quid piece of cardboard

The last couple of weeks have been terrifying and unbearable, this evening after hours of effort I managed to feel okay for maybe five minutes then the fucking text making me feel like utterly worthless subhuman trash all over again.

[galaxywarp]

[powder--blue]

you can't kill yourself you've gotta blog tomorrow.

[blemgoid]

I want a game that uses Disco Elysium's same insanely well crafted narrative system and wonderful writing but it's about a young witch trying to solve the disappearance of her neighbor's cat in a small village in the Alps, and also Measurehead is there.

[blemgoid]

[amuseoffyre]

One of my favourite photos from my trip to Warsaw in 2006

[chestnuthorse]

[boomer-mythology-destroyer]

[apatheistlesbian]

Anyway this disability pride month I would like to shoutout disabled folks whose creativity has suffered because of their condition. I’m talking people with hand tremors and pain that stop them from drawing, knitting, and playing instruments. People whose thinking has become so disorganized that nothing they write makes sense to other people. People with chronic pain who can no longer dance. People so over medicated in a fruitless attempt to maintain stability that the wells of their imagination have run dry.

I see you and I love you. You are more than your creative output. You are not a shell of what you used to be. You are a whole, complete person, regardless of what your creativity has been, is now, or will be in the future.

[torstherapy]

[riverpiracy]

[thottistani-deactivated20220220]

No gay has all 5:

- A job

- Good relationship with father

- Neurotypical brain

- Ability to top

- Driver’s license

[garbage-empress]

this is a fun post because people will say how many they have in the tags then you get to figure out which ones.

[sufjansjoy]

does anybody know how to get out of bed. or be a better person

[sufjansjoy]

wow

[cogito-ergo-amo]

Getting a Hamilton earworm while on the psych ward and idk if this is the venue to be walking round singing “look around look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now!”

[cogito-ergo-amo]

The ward does not have butter or margarine for toast at mealtimes

THE WARD DOES NOT HAVE BUTTER OR MARGARINE FOR TOAST AT MEALTIMES?!!

Um excuse me I came here to NOT want to kill myself why are they trying to turn breakfast into my 13th reason

[cogito-ergo-amo]

There was butter at supper tonight and I’ve gained an even deeper understanding of The VVitch

[fairycosmos]

t shirt that just says WHATEVER YOU’RE READING INTO MY FACIAL EXPRESSIONS AND BODY LANGUAGE YOU’RE MISINTERPRETING