The Attic In My Mind @coldtears - Tumblr Blog

I try to see signs of happiness on my body, but I have no scars to show for it. Pain has it easy.

It looks you in the eyes and smiles. This body is lifeless. You don't notice. You smile back.

You're still here

Maybe you still talk about it like it wasn’t a big deal. Maybe you laugh when you tell the story. Maybe you change the details each time, depending on who’s listening. Maybe you say “it was weird” instead of “it was wrong.”

Sometimes, survival looks like contradiction. Like forgetting on purpose. Like trying on different words until one of them feels safe enough to hold.

You don’t owe anyone a neat version of what happened. It was messy. You’re still here. That’s the truth.

Koexistenz

Die Sonne scheint, es ist warm

Alle sind einbisschen glücklicher

Aber nicht automatisch weniger traurig

Der Mond ist da, es ist kalt

Ich bin alleine, aber das ist okay

Nichts ist für immer

#gedicht #eigenes #poem

It feels like the ocean should be bluer, the grass should be greener and there should be less clouds in the sky, but all I see is gray.

I put all the love I had into you and the hate it caused stayed with me. Without you that's all there is. It seems almost logical, but I think it makes me sick.