06.02.2024
After I went to the psychiatric clinics I was staying at home for like 3 months. When I left I was very unstable and felt sad and depressed and I had issues with my friends. They left me a few months ago and now I am in contact with new friends who are very kind to me. I did some theraphy outside of the clinic but I still stood at home for months.
In October 2023 I had a severe mental breakdown and had to go to the emergency room and get some emergency medication for psychotic situations and sleeping since I was awake for several days. I went to my sister's apartment and slept for 7 days straight.
After that incident I slowly got better. I started to read again and met my friends and talked a lot. I kinda found a peaceful way of living. It was still hard but I got better. I also started taking the 5th antidepressant in a row and this one actually worked. It works for me since I don't feel depressed anymore - there is not a big range of emotions but at least I can live peacefully.
In December, my sister got sick. She had to go through procedures and was in a lot of pain. Since I was involved in helping her and the holidays were quite near, I got really stressed out. When Christmas was over and my sister was healing, I went to sleep. And I slept for 3 weeks straight. Idk, it was really some kind of winter hibernation.
In January I had some stage presence with my dance team and got socially active. It's a lot of fun and we're still doing this. I also wrote my first application for a new education. So life is getting slowly but for sure a little bit better.
I survived my last severe episode, I didn't feel depressed for months now and I got through the winter. One month from now, spring is coming. I'm continuing my therapy and it works. I'm single right now and this is for the better.
See y'all🤍















