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Vent/rambles blog. Main - @ssenograph. Apologies if I accidentally reblog/comment on here. TW: csa & sa, abuse, trauma, suicide, sh, disordered eating and probably more, be careful!

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Why r people so mean and cruel and why am i excluded and out of place everywhere

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I am going to cut all the excess fat off my body

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Bruh HOW am i getting asked abt why im NOT wearing shorts no one ever asks why ur NOT wearing smth

THIS IS SILLY!!!!! EVERYONE SHUT UP AND DIE

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I HAVE NEEDED THERAPY AND MEDS AND TREATMENR FOR EVERYTHING MY ENTIRE LIFE BUT NO ONE GIVES ME IT BC IM ‘TOO SEVERE’ OR THE WAITING LISTS R FUCKED OR BC OF MY AGE OR WHATEVER FUCKASS REASON IDC ANYMORE IM NEVER GOING TO HEAL I WILL JUST SPIRAL FOREVER SND DIE

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I WANNA DIE I WANAN DIE I WANNA KILL MYSELD I WANNNA DIE I WANNA DIE

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I am doubting all my memories again and the whole plurality thing again

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Everywhere i look online it’s like ‘recovered memories are fake’ but i very much experienced recovered memories am i just insane hysterical

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I am doubting all my memories again and the whole plurality thing again

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I’m so filthy disgusting gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross

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I HATE YOU I HATW WHAT YOU DID TO ME THE TRAINING THE PROCEDURES I HATE HATE HATE WHAT YOU MATDE OF ME I HATE HOW YOU BROKE ME

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Every minute im notthinking abt studying or studying i immediately start planning my suicide omg i am so tired of. Haaving this brain

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I HAVE TO PURGEE EOMFG I THINK I AM GEMUINELY FUCKIGN OBESE NOW

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I will never stop feeling so guilty my life is so good i am so lucky and privileged but im too mentally ill to enjoy it. I wish i could just appreciate what i have and be happy but i am so miserable i try very hard to be grateful and it doesnt do anything

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I need to starve sooo fucking bad it kills me

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I want to die so fucking bad

Ive been trying to kms basically non stop for the past 4 years i am so tired

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I think i am too filthy and broken to experience love or human connection

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I wish i could open up

Im scared things r ‘too much’ ive always been considered ‘too much’

I dont want ppl to be scared or disgusted of me

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Damn eyebrow razors r overrated