NOW WITH ALL YOUR WIRES FRIED-- TELL ME, DO YOU FEEL ALIVE?

eli, adult, hobby artist & writer, professional nerd // icon: 2020knives

[colorful-cataclysm]

wearily crawls in and places this down. my favorite weird lil guy... i really like animal hospital rn, its getting me out of art block again lol

[yuyuuyuyuu-deactivated20230726]

if I say “huh” like 7 times, don’t say never mind. please don’t give up on me, I’m trying my best

[mr-vanhellis]

In the Heat of Battle 🔥

[molabuddy]

having ocs is so fucked .... i miss them so bad but im the guy who has to create new content. but im sleepy

[2020knives]

getting really into ultrakill

[2020knives]

this thing wont leave my house what do i do with it

[stephexmachina]

proposing a new genre of fiction called an anti-romance where u r presented w a couple at the start & the story is about their emotional journey towards a catastrophic break up

[stephexmachina]

will they won't they (end this farce). there's only one bed (but for some reason they don't really want to share it). out of context eavesdropping (that paints the relationship in a better light than it deserves). chasing after them to stop them getting on that plane (and stopping them from finally being free)

[stephexmachina]

nobody understands my vision i don't mean any old story where a relationship fails and it's tragic or w/e i mean a story where the intention is for the audience to root for it failing the same way u root for it succeeding in a romance. & when the relationship finally implodes at the climax of the story it's all very cathartic & everybody cheers.

[stephexmachina]

like have u never wanted a fictional couple to break up so badly it hurt?

[vanglaggle]

u need to draw fatter arms it can't all go to the butt and thighs #SORRY

[crystalcanis]

in relation to my last reblog, as someone with pretty bad OCD (harm and moral +magical thinking) with really poor insight, I've really found most mental health spaces online to not be welcoming to me in the slighest. Other than people with *similar* OCD symptoms, really the only spaces I've felt safe discussing my symptoms in full with in a way that didn't feel like judgement or like I'm some kind of "interesting" performance for others to watch and learn from, have been people with schizospec disorders/psychosis.

I will always fight for my friends and people with schizospec disorders and psychotic symptoms because a lot of you wil see a hint that someone experiences the slightest bit of unreality or bad insight of reality and start shitting your pants.

I've been in spaces where people are discussing the harsh symptoms of their adhd, autism, depression, what have you, in active conversation. But the moment I walk in asking if I can share my own experiences with false beliefs, intrusive thoughts or moments where I couldn't tell reality from truth, almost without fail I'm met with someone saying "actually can we not." "I dont want to hear that." etc etc. It's always written so fast and frantic too. Because it's a fear responce, you're scared of what I might say or do if you dont shoot me down fast enough. You're scared of me. You're scared of them and you're scared of us and we can tell.

[colorful-cataclysm]

old spud drawing i did a while back :] hes probably not my fave, but i still like him #spudnation

[colorful-cataclysm]

one of my personas, shatterbot!! the guy currently in my icon :] it's kinda funny, i feel like i locked in super hard on this drawing and have struggled to reach that peak again since LOL but that's fine

[colorful-cataclysm]

old twisted vee concept from 2024… i don't play dandy's world much anymore but, i do still enjoy the characters >_>

she's a semi-stationary twisted that attacks via spotlights that turn on and off around each map!! although not mentioned in the drawing, she probably still has ad pop-ups too lol

[2020knives]

we're in different rooms but we're connected by the noise

[2020knives]

xanafalgue birthday doodles

[2020knives]

i guess i never posted this for some reason ?? go my freak

[donniehaspronouns]

this might piss some people off but I don’t think some of you actually ever tried to unlearn your hatefulness. you just came out as queer and decided your new targets really truly deserve it this time.

[donniehaspronouns]

you. you get it.

[status-quo-hater]

I think one of the funniest abortion stances I've heard was from my parents neighbor. He's a like, hard-core libertarian viking larper guy who is very tall and very fat and very bald.

He believes a fetus is human with a soul, but also its "basically attacking the woman's body" so if she wants to get rid of it, that's "basically self-defense". He compared it to shooting a home invader. So he supports abortion not as healthcare, but as killing a baby in self-defense

[status-quo-hater]

Y'know I'm so glad someone reminded me of this. Because this was also discussed.

My stepmother did NOT like the way her Libertarian Viking Neighbor framed pregnancy as the fetus "attacking the woman". She incredulously told him this was extremely disrespectful to expectant mothers to portray pregnancy as so violent and negative.

Libertarian Viking Neighbor's response was that people consensually hurt each other all the time, and "there's like a whole community about that, with the acronym the one that starts with a B" And his reasoning was that if the mother was consenting to bring attacked by the baby, it in fact wasn't violent and negative because there was consent.

He brought up people consensually hurting each other, didn't go for one of the obvious answers like boxing or body mods or something, no he went STRAIGHT TO BDSM and he DIDN'T EVEN REMEMBER THE ACRONYM