Undefined Thoughts

Heyeyeyyyy! This is Jainee. You can call me Jai or Ainee or whatever you like. LOL. So yeah.. This is my Online Diary. I am materialistic and I have a special charm when it comes to getting what I want :D I have a superfluous charisma that helps me get what I desire. I hate people who are pretentious in any way. I talk whenever I want to but I do know my restrictions. :P I am a bookworm, it helps me with vocabulary issues. JK Rowling and Nicholas Sparks are my favorite authors. I dig for music.

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It was the kind of kiss that made me know that I was never so happy in my whole life.

Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower (via feellng)

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Everything Love

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Reading, she tells me, is what she does best. She loves it because it uses the whole of her, the right and the left, the hemispheres of reason and imagination. She discovered as a child that a closed book is a darkness anyone can enter, not a scary darkness like a basement or a storm, but a comforting one that wrapped her up neatly inside a world she could control.

Jenny Hubbard, Paper Covers Rock (via tabipoststhings)

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Hey guys. I never thought I’d be doing this but it’s gotten to the point where I’m so desperate for help, and I have seen people raise money on tumblr before. I’m so sorry to subject you to this but it would mean the world to me if you could just read my story.

In the above picture, as you may recognise, is me, with my beautiful sister Skye. This picture was taken last year on a cruise with our grandparents. It was one of the happiest times, just Skye and I with no parents.

When I was 9 my parents divorced. My sister and I lived with my mum and the years that we lived with her we spent fearing for our lives. She had a severe drug addiction and a boyfriend who would abuse us in a number of ways. She was never sober enough to stop it even if it happened before her eyes. She would deny it happened or assure us that he was a nice guy, even after he pushed her down the stairs. She also lives in an area that has been broken into many times and is known for fights, I was once chased down the street by two boys threatening to rape me, and a man who had been stabbed burst through our door in the middle of the night covered in blood and asking for help.  To escape all this, my sister and I moved in with our dad, but things are no better. He is out every night with women and coms home drunk and abusive. He manipulates and humiliates us for our “failures” including not stacking the dishes and not matching the peg colours on the washing. He screams that he hates me because I’m just like my Mum. He has OCD and anger management issues. Furthermore he is stealing money from my sister and I and using it to buy alcohol and cigarettes instead of food. We don’t have enough to eat and when we ask for food he will call us greedy and fat. He is so good at manipulation that nobody we have told, including our grandparents (his parents), believes that this is happening. I am now 18 and can legally move out, however in order to take my sister with me I will need emergency housing that caters for young women and students in need. I have never lived away from home before and do not know of the costs, not to mention the bills and furniture I will need to buy. My sister is 16 and I will need to put her through school while supporting myself at university. I have two options, move out and take my sister to a safe and caring environment, or stay and let her suffer even more abuse. Frankly, I’m terrified. I don’t even know if I’m doing the right thing. All I know is that I want to get away and I have nowhere else to go, and I want to become my sister’s legal guardian and give her a better life. But we need help. Even a few dollars or an old appliance or piece of furniture that you no longer need. Every little thing helps. If you can’t donate, even just knowing there are people out there who support me will help a great deal.

Also reblogging and spreading the word will help greatly, but I ask that you please do not share on facebook as I cannot risk my dad seeing it. This is for the safety of my sister and I.

Here is my GoFundMe link, and once again I’m so sorry.

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this girl is top A+ check out her story

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Someone can be madly in love with you and still not be ready. They can love you in a way you have never been loved and still not join you on the bridge. And whatever their reasons you must leave. Because you never ever have to inspire anyone to meet you on the bridge. You never ever have to convince someone to do the work to be ready. There is more extraordinary love, more love that you have never seen, out here in this wide and wild universe. And there is the love that will be ready.

Nayyirah Waheed  (via thunderpopcola)

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