i tried to be the good guy.

𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆   [  ．．．]   𝖆𝖘𝖍𝖊𝖘

[commandied]

so i know i’ve been so inactive here and i want to just word vomit for a little about my thoughts and feelings and whatnot

so i’ve been watching the show since the beginning, and writing clarke on and off for a few years, and over all these years i really connected with her, i was comfortable with her from the get go in a way that doesn’t always feel natural, but not only did i connect with her for writing purposes, but personally, she was a character i didn’t even realize how important she was to me for awhile, she was a character i not only related to, but one that helped me accept myself, that made me feel like it was okay to just be me

this entire season has felt different, i just kept watching her become less and less like the girl i knew, the girl i grew up with, the girl that was important to me, i’ve felt that the writing was prioritizing plots and quite frankly views for a few years now, but this felt different, this just felt like they were using her, like she’s just a means to an end now

it just feels like they gave up on her, and because of that it’s been hard to find her voice, which is why i mainly stuck to modern here, it was easier and modern clarke feels like mine, she’s the one i put years of thoughts and headcanon into, the one that couldn’t be impacted by views or shock value, she just was who she was, and i still love her

i’ve always been someone who liked being canon compliant though, not just in this fandom but all of them, and i hate that i lost so much of her that doing so just feels off to me, but i really can’t relate to anything this season, the writing has just given me a completely different atmosphere than the show i fell in love with initially, the one where there was still hope, the one that had a purpose, and with a single episode left, it feels pretty clear i’m not going to get that back

this isn’t like a goodbye, i don’t think, but more of a simple i don’t know, i’ve loved clarke for years and it feels like such a waste to let the writing take that away from me, and maybe i’ll be more at ease once it’s all over and i’m not being dragged in different directions, i truly hope so, but i just needed to let that out i guess, a form of closure maybe, i still do want to be here, but i guess i never really got to speak about this, about how much she means to me and what this season has been making me feel

anyway, i appreciate all of you and i hope you’re well, stay safe, stay kind, stay you <3

[hp-selfcare]

self-care is ignoring canon

[commandied]

no one:

me: what if i rewatched l.exa’s death to depress myself even further

[commandied]

so it’s been a while since i’ve been writing over here, and i’m not sure who’s still interested in clarke, or even who’s still around, but i’m going to try to pick up the pace and see if i can’t get some things going, i love my girl and i really don’t want to drop her

[commandied]

appreciation post for @roseguided, because i love zandie and i don’t say it enough, we’ve been friends for over a year now and she’s always, always there for me. she’s one of the most kind, thoughtful, caring, talented people out there and if you’re not following her you really should be!  ♡

[commandied]

i was going to try and get back to writing here tonight but the amount of things that have pissed me off today is unreal, i’m gonna go listen to folklore and unwind, be fucking kind my friends ✌️

[randomwpsd]

[livingthegifs]

Just please don't make a scene.  [Requested by selenethedeathdealer]

By: thejennire

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[commandied]

@roseguided

[commandied]

psa     ┈┈     'go float yourself’ translates to go fuck yourself, it does not mean go kill yourself, i’ve seen some discourse about this line after last night and people questioning clarke because of it, and while i think the line was generally pretty ooc, clarke had plenty of other ways to convey her pain and anger and using this line was pretty lackluster imo, clarke griffin would never tell someone to kill themselves considering her past ( and current ) relationship with mental health and self harm, i know other characters have but clarke just wouldn’t

plus, the phrase has also been used as ‘float you’ which pretty much debunks the kill vs fuck debate, it’s just a curse that the writers love to throw in for their ( mainly ) skaikru characters as a callback to the old days

thank you, have a good day

[commandied]

i think my dash on this blog is flipping out? i’m not seeing posts on here that i see on bell and then it’s showing me posts that i saw days ago? idk what’s going on so sorry if i miss something, pls lmk if you have a post you want me to see bc who knows if i’ll see it

[taur]

[commandied]

reminder that clarke griffin is a canonically bisexual woman and she’s beautiful and valid no matter who she may ( or may not ) end up with :)

[commandied]

pour one out for all the aus and canon divergences that i’ll never end up writing 😗✌️

[museinspo]

possiblybpd:

loving me must be so fucking hard i am so fucking sorry

[commandied]

˗ˏˋ          @oceanblood​   radioed,            i want you.              intimacy / non—cringy nsfw prompts.

it  takes  her  a  minute,   for  his  words  to  sink  in,   most  likely  due  to  to  what  is  most  definitely  going  to  be  a  mark  right  above  her  collarbone.    she  doesn’t  particularly  mind,   but  at  least  she  had  the  forethought  to  leave  hers  in  a  more  convenient  location,   the  fading  bruise  hidden  from  sight.   well,   mostly.    but  then  his  words  do  sink  in,   her  brain  wrapping  around  the  intention,   and  the  distraction  of  his  mouth  against  her  skin  is  diverted  slightly.    her  fingers  curl  a  little  firmer  in  his  hair,   pulls  him  back  up  to  her  so  she  can  kiss  him  fully,   firm  and  sure  and  deep.

when  she  pulls  back,   she’s  no  longer  on  her  back,   but  instead  her  knees  are  planted  on  either  side  of  his  hips,   and  she  sits  up  to  look  at  him,   eyes  dark  but  soft  as  they  flick  over  his  face.     ‘   you  have  me,   ‘     clarke  says  after  a  moment,   her  voice  dropped  to  a  soft  but  serious  tone  she  doesn’t  use  often.    she  watches  him  quietly,   the  light  in  his  eyes,   the  curve  of  his  lips,   features  she’s  always  been  fond  of  but  knows  different  now.    she  knows  the  exact  shade  of  his  eyes  before  he  kisses  her,   she  knows  the  shape  of  his  lips  when  he  does,   she  knows  the  feel  of  his  jaw  beneath  her  fingers.     ‘   for  real,   ‘     she  cuts  through  her  thoughts  to  add,   reaching  out  to  lace  her  fingers  through  his,   a  faint  smile  at  the  way  they  fit  together.     ‘   no  pretending,   no  games,   just  me.   ‘

[commandied]

the 100 fandom pretending to care about men of color and then immediately ‘unstanning’ gabriel at the drop of a hat really says a lot

[sagamemes]

send a symbol for my muse to be playing a cliché party game in a group with your muse.

🍾  for  SPIN THE BOTTLE. 🤥  for  TRUTH OR DARE. 🃏   for  STRIP POKER. 🥂  for  NEVER HAVE I EVER. 🚪   for  SEVEN MINUTES IN HEAVEN. 🎲   for  MUN’S PICK.