Vodka Aesthetic

Writing side blog for someone who can't stop loving with their whole self 18• Bisexual • 50% lost

[tullipsink]

i would have loved you, you know? i would have loved all of you. i would have loved the drool on your cheek and bad morning breath you. i would have loved the “just one more minute” you even though we both knew you actually meant five. i would have loved the snow in your hair and rosy cheeks you. i would have loved the messy hair and tired eyes you when you’ve been up all night again. i would have loved the sad “i don’t want to be here anymore” you. i would have loved the random dance with me in the kitchen you and i would have loved the energetic let’s go for a hike at 3 in the morning you. i would have loved it all. i would have loved the insecurities and the doubts and the fears. i would have loved all of you.

[222manythoughts]

Do you ever get in weird moods where everything feels mixed up and you’re sitting there trying to figure out what’s wrong, bc same

[wnq-writers]

“You have loved too much and have not been loved enough.”

— N.M.Sanchez, from Initial Meeting

[sleepin]

[fvcked--waves]

The sad part it’s that I thought you were different

[arabwife]

the saddest thing i’ve ever done was beg someone to love me the way I loved them

[s-unberry]

“Stop breaking your own heart by trying to make a relationship work that clearly isn’t meant to work. You can’t force someone to care about you. You can’t force someone to be loyal. You can’t force someone to be the person you need them to be. Sometimes the person you want most is the person you’re best without. You got to understand some things are meant to happen, but just not meant to be. Some things are meant to come in your life, just not meant to stay. Don’t lose yourself by trying to fix what’s meant to stay broken. You can’t get the relationship you need from someone who’s not ready to give it you . And you might not understand WHY NOW, but I promise you your future will always bring understanding of why things didn’t work out. TRUST ME. Don’t put your happiness on hold for someone who isn’t holding on to you.”

— Trent Shelton (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[tejianasky]

I like that “morning baby” kinda relationship. The no games, great communication, lots of sex, lots of kissing, lots of cuddling, lots of flirting, lots of being goofy kind of relationship. That makes you want to run 100 miles, read books, clean up your bad habits kind of love.

[s-unberry]

““So what happened?” He asks after a pause. “What always happens,” I reply. “I fell in love and he didn’t.””

— Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #88 (via blossomfully)

[the-s-o-u-n-d-blog]

I am scared to get attached to someone again because of you.

I am scared to fully trust someone again because of you.

I am scared to put all my time and effort into someone again because of you.

It’s all because of you, because you used me, played me and made me look like a fool for actually catching feelings while I probably should’ve known better.

[sadshreddedthoughts]

“I need to know if you pushed me away to see if I’d stay or because you thought I couldn’t love you because I knew about the darkness inside your mind. I need to know if you pushed me away because I was too much or because I wasn’t enough. I need to know if you pushed me away because you stopped loving me or because you never did to begin with. I just need to know why.”

— 2:07am 23.04.2018

[theworldisoursdear]

“You shattered my self-esteem. That’s why I’m crying. Not because I love you, not because I miss you, but because I have to wonder everyday if everyone will stop caring about me the way you did.”

— No explanations, just goodbye

[theworldisoursdear]

“Relationships suck. They’re great until they’re not and suddenly it’s over and every bit of happiness is ripped from your life. They say not to put your worth in the hands of other people but it’s hard not to when they leave you with the words ‘you’re not good enough anymore’ echoing in your head.”

— S.R.

[yourehappywithoutme]

“Back then, I didn’t wanna look at another boy. Yet now, I’m falling asleep with his top on, smelling his aftershave rather than yours.”

— I never knew I’d be over you this soon.

[theworldisoursdear]

“For once I just want someone to be straightforward. To just say what they what they mean and stop hiding behind excuses. For once in my life could someone just look me in the eyes tell me the truth?”

— Done playing games with cowards

[apikaliaa]

“How can I move on when I never wanted to walk away?”

— wishesmessages.com

[bargainbarbi3]

“letting go of you was painful. I will never forget the way you made me laugh or the way you set my body on fire with the slightest touch. but I also have to remember how you stabbed me and kept pushing the dagger in deeper with no regrets.”

— you loved me once but not again (the art of letting go)