hi! you can call me dima, oliver, sylvia, adam or whatever else you want! although, people usually say dima
i use he/him and neos
sometimes i use leetspeak (0 = o)
i usually make stuff for danganronpa: lapse (fangame) and my own AUs/OCs because im a little bitch!! i also like other things like vocaloid/utau/synthv, greek myth (not hellenistic myself i just study their myths), 13 cards, 17776, ZATO/ferry in general, dandys world and whatever the hell my friends are up to!
i also tend to reblog things kind of a lot
ask/request rules
no NSFW! i am a MINOR and the blood will be on YOUR hands . i am ok with mildly suggestive content tho
nothing hateful or anti-human (homophobic, transphobic, ableist etc)!
nothing proshippy (like inc*st or p*dophilia) i am a HARD ANTI!!!!!! FUCK YOU
no paranoia-or-anxiety-inducing messages! i am very sensitive to those, especially in a breakdown
if you want art, do not rush me!! its stressful
also if you want art, please ONLY request from stuff im interested in (this can also include AUs of mine, or yours IF IVE HEARD OF THEM)! i wont draw things for stuff i havent heard of or dont like! nothing personal i just prefer creating out of passion!! unless u commission me... >:)
no being mean to me and/or my comfort characters it makes me sad . im a piss baby so what
everything else is fine i guess!
misc
carrd, including my other socmeds and comm details: https://comospite.carrd.co/
strawpage (not much different, but you can send me gimmicks there): https://comospite.straw.page
rentry that describes my artistic boundaries (important read if u plan to use my creations for anything at all): https://rentry.co/thecoreofmydesign
tags
#dimAUs — the AUs i make (usually DRL). most of the time therell be an extra tag with the specific AU name (if not, then that just means its currently unnamed) :3
#save — things i save for myself, like certain color palettes or graphics. feel free to peruse if you like my aesthetic
#suryo — my little darlings . ouguhgouh (there are more than what is actually tagged, im just lazy. try #cyrus suryc and #forte solo instead if you wanna see more)
if your pride month post doesn't include men + man-aligned folks (while highlighting/explicitly including genders that aren't man-aligned or smthn idk. I realize the following sentence comes off *way* more extreme than I intended and I don't feel like re-writing the post) you are a hop skip jump away from TERFism btw just so you know. hell if you actively exclude men even as a joke I'm just calling you a TERF. we are flat-out not entertaining this shit not this year or any year after that ok? ok
I love u men apart of racial/ethnic minorities I love u disabled neurodivergent and mentally ill men I love u queer men of every flavor imaginable. In fact butches and studs I love u too regardless if ur a man also or not because anti-men talk is often hand in hand with anti-masculinity rhetoric that harms all masculine queers too. Obligatory special message to love intersex men for this blog especially if they're cis men and *especially* if they're a cis man in a way that breaks the norm of what "cisgender" might mean
"youve already written that trope" yesss. i like it a lots. i will be writing it again. 1000 stories of the same trope over and over again for ten million years
Character duo where one *remembers I don’t like fitting characters into trope boxes* is a completely fleshed out and realised person *remembers treating characters as real people and not story devices written with intent is bad* who is written by the author and *remembers death of the author* uh. And *fumbles and drops my pile of queue cards* ah fuck wait no *the menacing horse* what was that.
This pride month! If you've been questioning identifying with the intersex label for however long, this is your sign you should consider trying it out seriously. Btw. Or perhaps dip your toes into it via microlabels like extersex (link) or perintersex (link) or perisexn't (link). tldr to describe your situation Not Being 100% Perisex Typical! all if you prefer. It should also go of course without saying if you never questioned it A: this is also your sign you're allowed to B: even if you aren't inclined you should consider learning about us this pride month too anyway.
One explicit rule for this post !!!! No doubting yourself in my notes because "well my doctor hasn't said—" Shaking your shoulders!!!!! medicine is wildly intersexist!! They often lie to very "obviously" intersex people sometimes to the point of harm by ignoring their variation! I know too many horror stories sadly!! Medicine and doctors CAN help you with numbers and images and hard information about your body to lead you to a more clear answer if necessary that much is all true, but you know how your body feels and looks best because you're in it all the time! And ultimately, I will say it infinitely, intersex is first and foremost a social & political label!!!! Medical diagnosis of any variation is NOT a prerequisite to identify with being intersex, and anyone who says such is intermedicalist (link) and not worth listening to, much like transmedicalists!!!!!
Oh by the way. Sliding this in real awkwardly for a pride month post but anyway check out An Intersex Jam 2026 they're running this year too make it big go go go !!!
A game jam from 2026-05-30 to 2026-07-01 hosted by versegm & Prae Obscura. About the Jam The aim of this jam is to promote & encourage the c
i simply do not have the TIME!!!!!!!!!!! nor public speaking confidence to say EVERY SINGLE ONE of my headcanons. youd have to DM me for more specific things. but i WILL say my headcanons for everyones race/ethnicities, sexuality/gender and other trivial bulldung if i have some. perchance i might mention their body types/any defining features?
(note: underlined is clickable for more information. these are phrased matter-of-factly for brevitys sake, but they are indeed just my headcanons.)
art campopiano
heritage: 1/2 colombian, 1/2 italian. born and raised in italy; dunno where, but southern region for sure
body features: i actually draw him with a slightly darker skintone than in canon. he also has freckles; he spends a lot of time outside so hes sun-kissed. otherwise hes fit/athletic but not super buff, though he has particularly broad shoulders
LGBT: hes masc-aligned but definitely not 100% cis. maybe boyflux, and some sort of xenogender too? asexual panromantic is canon
random: dyscalculic as freakkk
ash westbridge
heritage: just white british... though i would Definitely fuck with a POC ashley. if you have a headcanon like that pls lmk. also presumably she was born and raised in weston-supermare or whatever it was called!?!?
body features: she must be athletic!!! in fact i envision her as bordering on buff!!! why not!!!
LGBT: some sort of multigender. often fem and androgynous presenting, but her actual gender is more like a little bit of all. uses any pronouns. asexual demiromantic is canon + sapphic on my part
random: surprisingly loud snorer
cyrus suryc
heritage: hes Extremely mixed to me. in essence, 1/2 irish (1/4 white irish, 1/4 black irish with southern african bantu roots), 1/2 asian (1/4 south chinese/cantonese, 1/4 iranian). but he is a spitting image of his white/iranian mixed mother. IN ANY CASE he was born and raised in dublin
body features: fatty!! because i project!!! its a public tumblr post so its not a place to be vulnerable. i'll just say that my weight has been a very troubling topic for literally my entire life. so i tried projecting my body type onto cyrus because hes my favorite and maybe itd help me feel better about myself... (bonus: mild cellulite because i said so)
LGBT: i have no preference on if hes a cis man or intersex trans man and i tend to oscillate between both. otherwise, aceflux gay. he/they/it pronouns?
random: very allergic to pepper, to a comical but not deadly extent. also, left-handed
echo pine
heritage: 1/2 chinese, 1/2 african-american (nigerian roots). born and raised in america, probably?
body features: vitiligo ! i get that echo is meant to be the most boring mundane person to ever exist but i want their Appearance to at least be notable
LGBT: intersex because fuck you i win‼️ also asexual demiromantic canon + pan on my part
random: injury prone/clumsy. i would say dyspraxic because i REALLY wanna give someone dyspraxia, but they DO have shoelaces. grrr
forte solo
heritage: 7/8 comorian, 1/8 saudi arabian. born and raised in italy, in a rural town near milan
body features: sleeper build type deal going on? like hes rather muscular but most of his body is covered so you cant really tell at first (unless you noted his broad shoulders). but he also has kind of an hourglass figure going on because hes GNC af and you cant convice me otherwise (bonus: curly/afro hair but he HATES taking care of it in its natural state, so he straightens it)
LGBT: like i said GNC. male-aligned and usually perceived as male but actually apagender. uses any pronouns. aflux gay specifically
random: gets nauseous from the smell and taste of seafood. (unfortunate considering hes italian, but at least not venetian!) also, has dad sneezes
kanon ota
heritage: primarily native japanese, though there are some distant bits of european and african in her ancestry. born and raised in japan, in some sort of less populated city (like, not tokyo level or anything). also draw her with a darker skintone than in canon
body features: i.. dont know? she reads as flat and slim to me in all aspects. perchance wears those baggier clothes to cover it up out of dysmorphia
LGBT: trans MtF and asexual greyromantic canon + lesbian, or at least sapphic, on my part
random: AUTISM BLAST AUTISM ATTACK
lyle termina
heritage: 1/2 black canadian (kenyan roots), 1/2 white canadian. born and raised in canada, probably not in a city but instead something town- or suburbia-like? i also draw him dark skinned
body features: honestly i dont know but hes probably dysmorphic about it either way. pear body shape maybe
LGBT: trans FtM and asexual demiromantic canon + gay on my part
random: you know what. fuck it hes dyspraxic. i dont care anymore. honestly maybe EVERYONE who doesnt have shoelaces should be dyspraxic HOW ABOUT THAT HUH HOW YOU LIKE THEM APPLES
missy vesper
heritage: 1/2 african-american (cameroonian roots), 1/2 native american (navajo). born and raised in america, likely a city girl
body features: surprisingly fit. she exercises sparsely but mostly just eats healthy. also curly/afro hair :^
LGBT: fem presenting but in fact multigender. dont know what kind, maybe genderfluid. otherwise asexual lesbian is canon
pandora espère
heritage: just white french. very sorry . same case as ashley though. POC pandora would be awesome
body features: also fat !!! in fact i think her and cyrus are somehow related (genetically speaking) so theres that + that sugar from the pastries will stack up eventually. also has a bunch of other beauty marks scattered around, especially on her arms. surprisingly clear skin otherwise
LGBT: asexual lesbian is canon. and i think thats it? shes just cis? maybe a nature-themed xenogender at most?
random: uses sweet perfumes and cannot STAND floral ones. few things make her angry in this world, and floral perfumes are one of them
sei konno
heritage: just native japanese, however i would still envision her as pale because i doubt she goes outside often. itd be funny if she were born in the same city as kanon but neither of them would know
body features: i think i also gave her a pear body shape? flat chested but wider hips. as well as a thigh gap !!‼️
LGBT: demigirl or librafem, they/she. and asexual hetero lesbian is canon
random: she is colorblind ! (specifically tritanopia)
these were chosen specifically because they also show up in my fanart, so i thought theyd be the best introduction to my headcanons :^)
Hello hi can I ask about if you have any headcanons for DR Lapse characters? I love hearing about people's headcanons and this fandom is so empty I need ANY sort of content 🧍♂️🧍♂️ also love your art btw your artstyle is very cool!! :33
thank you! and i have a LOT of headcanons regarding all sorts of stuff, so youd have to be more specific. gender/sexuality? race/ethnicity? backstory? ship headcanons? random trivia?
i could talk about any and all... ESPECIALLY cyrus and forte. obviously theyre my most developed since they are my favs. please clarify in a new ask!...
hi not sure if ur doing requests for dr:l character dynamics still but i’m VERY interested in what u have to say about kanon and forte’s interactions and dynamic. he is my fav character and i love kanon so any individual things u have to say would be awesome too if u have any. anyways thanks bye!!
dressed in white
my psychoanalysis/character analysis on kanon ota and forte solo.
(@teddeybee sorry it took so long for me to get to this request... ive been extremely busy this month with all sorts of things, especially school..)
SPOILER WARNING: this will go very in depth about major plot and character moments.
OPINION/THEORY WARNING: this is just how *i* interpret the characters and youre free to think otherwise. i'll phrase it matter of factly just so i dont have to say "i think" 20 thousand times, but it is indeed, still just my opinion.
so please dont take me as some kind of authority on the matter; of course it wont be written super professionally, since i am merely a hyperfixated teenager...
i already analyzed forte by himself in my cyrus/forte analysis, so you can just read his part there.
this post especially focuses on forte and kanon Together, but i'll also give some analysis on kanon for context.
kanon is also cagey about herself, much more than any of the others. but it becomes clear eventually that she actually feels A LOT, and just feels the need to hide it. since shes rather socially isolated in general, it could suggest an emotionally abusive/neglectful childhood, where her emotions would get questioned, mocked or outright shut down. if she witnesses something impactful/traumatic, she either hides quickly (flight), or stills and insists not to be bothered or engaged with (freeze).
her specialty being rückenfigur is also symbolic- photographers are, naturally, artists, who feel a lot. but she prefers to stay withdrawn, taking pictures of the subjects back rather than their face (and sometimes plants too, it seems like); a complete subversion of the "photographer who shoves their camera in everyones faces" trope.
(side note: she also gives in rather easily. she comes across as very cold and secure, but she is actually easily swayed- like when art asked her to take the group photo, or when she was essentially begging lyle not to destroy her camera.)
at the end of the day theres nothing explicitly malicious about her. she obviously wants to help her peers in some way, and we see this with echo but especially forte!
forte seems to be kanons complete antithesis/foil. hes loud, chatty, charismatic and doesnt mind helping others directly. its hard to imagine them ever getting along, but they do anyway!
whats in it for forte? honestly, its hard to say.. hes just naturally drawn to helping any and everyone. for kanon though, forte clearly means a lot, or at least his mere presence and behavior has made her contemplate things. seeing someone being so naturally fun and outgoing and with so much love in their heart is hard to grasp if youre someone like kanon. it makes you think if you could be like them too one day, because ultimately, everyone just wants to be happy. how could someone still be so kind-hearted despite the situation were in?
kanon seems to get easily attached. one example is the aforementioned camera, who she claims to have "complicated feelings" towards, more hateful than not, but she still wants to keep it and wouldnt want it destroyed. (its also important to note that in that scene, forte is the one who gave her camera back. though, maybe he wouldve stepped in either way, regardless of who it was.)
my idea is that she developed some sort of emotional attachment to forte too. her monotone front is indeed also used to make people keep their distance, but forte is insistent yet understanding. he doesnt chase (force kanon to open up), but he doesnt run away (consider her completely unimportant) either; and that kind of person is all kanon really needed in the end. she probably feels safe with him, and thats why theyre usually paired up too.
regarding their "parley" in the garage, its hard to say how exactly the conversation went, other than "[forte] told me i shouldnt try to forego attempts to escape this game" (to be honest, i dont even fully know what this means, since english is not my first language... im guessing its essentially just "try to be more cooperative"). kanon seems frustrated about this, but notably still takes his advice in the end, since, again, she gives in rather easily.
and in the late game, kanon says that she shot forte by accident, when really she was aiming for sei in order to defend him. suddenly, shes pulled out of her freeze/flight responses and is now holding an actual weapon to protect her friend, which must attest to forte clearly changing Something within her. in any case, if kanon were to pick one person from the killing game to be in her company, itd probably be him.
thats my analysis! it was shorter because kanon sparsely talks, and she is unfortunately not the protagonist... forte/kanon also doesnt spin around in my head nearly as much as forte/cyrus does
(side note: i understand how people might see them romantically, but ive always interpreted them as sibling-like. older gymbrother hyping up his younger autistic sister? you know?...
this is also just because i wanted an excuse to mention that kanon is VERY autistic to me. you see what i mean right. ok bye)
my psychoanalysis/dramatic analysis on cyrus suryc, forte solo, and their relationship/dynamic.
extremely long post (3k words/18k characters). be super warned
SPOILER WARNING: this will go very in depth about major plot and character moments.
OLD VERSION WARNING: a few things from the 2019-2020 version of the game will be mentioned (its ambiguous if theyre still canon, but presumably so?). in any case, if i bring something up that makes you go "when the hell was this mentioned", its probably that.
OPINION/THEORY WARNING: this is just how *i* interpret the characters and youre free to think otherwise. i'll phrase it matter of factly just so i dont have to say "i think" 20 thousand times, but it is indeed, still just my opinion.
so please dont take me as some kind of authority on the matter; of course it wont be written super professionally, since i am merely a hyperfixated teenager...
^ 12 seconds of dead air at the start so it would actually let me use this song, sorry!
ROLE: ANTI-HERO
(some points in his section will just be repeated from my psychoanalysis video, but not really explained in detail.)
my impression of cyrus is that he is selfish, yet in a way thats painfully human and at least partly understandable to all of us. besides that, cognitive dissonance and internal conflict is a core part of his character.
i think its best to tackle it in chronological order?… based off the way cyrus generally is, it is very unlikely he had a good home life; if he did, id be a fish. in any case, the preservation project found and hired him eventually. the reason behind cyrus' acceptance to be hired is something that should be questioned, because he knows how the work goes, and he doesnt approve of it; in fact, it makes him feel utterly disgusted with himself to be in that position, but he took it anyway. considering this stance, he mustve been seriously enticed by Something, and when it comes to being an informant, it was probably the pay (or they just threatened him into it, but i highly doubt theyd resort to it that early on). in the modern american capitalist society, money is the most valuable thing a person can have. perhaps cyrus was in a very desperate financial situation, and this opportunity wouldve saved his life in that regard. (or, maybe it was an art situation where they also provided cyrus with a personal living space, but thats a bit of stretch.) aware that he WILL come to hurt others, cyrus still ignores his morals for the sake of acquiring his needs. at its core, its most simply just self-preservation, whether right or not.
(or, he saw the job offer as an opportunity to dismantle the industry from within. this is my friends idea though, i dont take credit for it, so i wont mention it otherwise. ask humbugg to tell you more. hes awesome)
while working for the project, it basically entirely consumes him. everything else that happens in cyrus' life from this point forward, is because of the project. at this point, we'll start discussing his mental state a bit more.
the most important event to note is the assassination of the 6 missing students before the killing game (which, with the current writing choices, is unfortunately a little muddy in regards to who did it). either A) cyrus did not kill them, but he was forced to watch as someone else did. my only commentary on this is that it may have been done in an effort to desensitize cyrus to murder, and beat it into his head that human lives are worth less than they actually are.
or B) cyrus killed them directly, most likely because the projects staff made him do it (and probably with serious threats to cyrus' own life because im not sure anything else would convince him to do such a drastic act). this is what the old version of the game implied and what i still believe today, so we'll go with this one.
murder is something that, regardless on how experienced you are- if youre already a long time serial killer or otherwise, it WILL cause lasting effects, especially psychological ones. your body knows that you just put an end to another persons life, and it will GRAVELY fuck you up, whether you redeem yourself or keep going after.
at this point, cyrus is still young and figuring everything out- all of them are. this makes him easier to manipulate and easier to damage, which the project knows and uses to their advantage. cyrus hates what hes done, he hates the scuffles hes gotten into, he hates the fact he works for the project, and he hates the fact his body and mind were used to have power over 6 other peoples'. he never wanted this, and he couldnt back out now, because the project is constantly holding him at (metaphorical but also maybe literal) gunpoint to stay with them. so because he cant escape, and because hes being forced to wholly murder people at this point, he tries to rationalize it away.
cyrus cannot handle the gravity of his own actions. in a fucked up sorta way, he believes hes "spared" the 6 students. he knew they were gonna die either way- either in the killing game, or by cyrus' own hand, and with the latter, it was just the "easier" way out for them all. cyrus wants to make himself believe he is NOT this, he is NOT what the project wants him to be; surely theres a morally just explanation for all these horrible things ive done! surely i can still be a good person if i try! the guilt still weighs extremely heavy on him- hes just in denial. in fact, a lot of his duelling characteristics are due to denial and repression of his feelings. its not like a depressed ~19 year old will handle all of this "properly".
in any case, the killing game starts. throughout the prologue-ch1, cyrus has a generally kind yet stilted demeanor; hes inoffensive, but you can probably tell hes trying too hard at times. youd just assume hes hiding something, or simply lonely.
resuming theory A) from before, we can see some of that "cyrus was forced into thinking human lives are worth less than they really are" with pandora. unlike echo or ashley or somebody, cyrus isnt utterly devastated to see her corpse. rather, he grits his teeth in some sort of anger, and then quickly surpresses the same anger to focus on investigating. otherwise i honestly dont have much else to say about this particular persona of his.
ch2 is where it gets kooky, since at the very end of ch1, zero rats cyrus out as the informant. (side note: cyrus and zero have a very interesting dynamic too i think, but thats for another day.)
cyrus expected immunity however. he truly believed he meant SOMETHING to the preservation project staff, seeing as they specifically chose him, implying hes valuable. and i think this is when he discovers he is well and truly, no longer safe. the project and its staff have never cared about cyrus or his life; to them, he is easily disposable. they couldve picked anybody else, and nothing would change. he finally gets it now. and at this point, its clearly not going to get better, so he decides to just give up. it was never going to go in his favor. and to be fair, maybe thats been in the back of his mind the Entire time, and the charisma persona was just him being in denial.
if i had to guess, as a clinically depressed person myself, its likely cyrus had depression even when he was still a kid, way before any of this. (with the potentially awful childhood, it only makes sense.) and based on how the preservation project is, just in general, it very likely only exacerbated it further, despite cyrus' continuous desperate attempts to find hope and connection. zero exposing cyrus' true title was probably just the last straw that broke the camels back, pushing him to commit (assisted) suicide.
and so it gets even kookier… the reason cyrus tricked ashley into killing himself is because he couldnt kill himself, he couldnt summon the courage to do so. if he did it by himself, the act would be over in about a second, but the prelude would be unbearable.
and perhaps, cyrus applied the same "logic" to ashley as he did with the 6 missing students. she was going to die too, he knew this very well. it would be incredibly selfish to bring another person down with him, and suicide alone is already considered selfish by some. so the only reason i can think of, as to why he still went through with his plan, is because he thought he'd be "sparing" ashley too (or again, hes just been conditioned to think human lives arent worth that much). better for her to die sooner than later, maybe. and although its also ashleys fault that she actually fired the gun, cyrus still apologizes to her. not with "im sorry, ashley", but with "im sorry", in general.
hes just sorry, for all of this. maybe sorry for himself, but certainly more sorry for everyone thats had to suffer or even die because He Was There.
if cyrus were to tell Any of the other participants Anything about the killing game that could help them escape, he would surely get his head blown off. so he decides to say it when hes already dying, and the job has been done. its weirdly poetic that cyrus couldnt get any of his true sentiments out, until his literal dying breaths. its pitiful to witness, and thats why ashley tries to stop his bleeding, but again, cyrus knew it just had to happen this way. he tried for his entire life to preserve himself, to keep trying for what would make him happy, it might even be considered hedonistic; but he realizes it simply wasnt meant to be, so he throws it all away in the span of just a few hours. perhaps he even "spared" himself by doing so.
its harder to analyze forte, and thats probably by his own design. so, a lot of this will be guesswork on my part. in any case, forte is hardly ever vulnerable, and has not really mentioned his past. all we can infer about him pre-killing game is that he had a pet dog who recently died, and is still grieving heavily.
i find it fascinating how forte is one to preach "talk about your feelings", but virtually never follows his own advice. we can argue he talks to echo and art about his dead dog, and yes, he does so at length and with an ultimately happy resolution- but i, at least, still found it something to be questioned. this is the only time hes THIS open about his feelings, and even still, he uses a lot of big theatrical words to paint a scenic picture.
of course, he remembers his dog fondly, but considering the fact hes been with forte for 13 years and clearly meant the world to him, it comes across as rather forced. i believe this might be fortes first time with grief this heavy, and what hes feeling is simply too abstract to convey; but he still tries to understand himself, through the lens of these artistic flourishes, because art is all he knows, though it might come with the risk of not getting full closure with his feelings.
opera is clearly a core part of fortes character; its easy to say, because hes clearly passionate about it, even using it as a metric for his mood (cant bring himself to sing = depressed/grieving), but i believe it runs even deeper.
its revealed in ch4 that forte is specifically a bass-baritone, meaning a low baritone or high bass. for the sake of this analysis, the former works better (though there are a few words to be said about the latter too). this is important to note because, typically, baritones in opera are the sidekicks of the tenor protagonist. baritones tend to just have supporting roles, that are there mostly just as a counterpart to the tenor, or with an even less important role, just a character with few lines to fill in the plot.
it fits fortes character a lot. when you really think about it, a lot/most of fortes character moments revolve around the others, and not much on himself. in the prologue, hes hastily asked by kanon to care for echo while theyre unconscious, and he cant find it in himself to refuse despite probably not having any first aid knowledge. in ch1, he shines out a little bit more but still, also feels the need to supervise sei when she faints. in ch2, he gives a motivational speech to the others (once again trying to artistically and verbally explain away abstract emotions), another pep talk to kanon, and once again supervises ashley when SHE is unconscious. all of this while grieving a dearly loved pet.
he always jumps at the opportunity to uplift the people around him, despite his own turmoil, which he either fiercely hides or communicates inefficiently. maybe he even finds it a need to fulfill.
he is secondary, he is supporting. what HE is feeling doesnt matter; what matters more is what the OTHERS are feeling, and how he can circulate AROUND that.
if i were to guess, maybe this means forte has been made a parentifie younger sibling, or just overall suffered emotional neglect from his parents/guardians. in any case, hes clearly trying to compensate for Something. and this might be WHY art/opera is so important to him- it found him at a dark time, and gave him the ability to funnel his sentiments into a performance, to the point that the only way he knows how to express himself now IS through art of any kind. (there is also something to be said about fortes dog helping him mentally and emotionally too, seeing as he would be physically incapable of judging and neglecting forte.)
anyway, ch3 is clearly where forte shines best, and actually primarily for himself this time. (theres a difference in how he acts towards lyle specifically- he went from childishly arguing with him over a painting to physically seizing items out of his hands with force, and speaking much more assertively to him. otherwise, the rest of the cool stuff happens in the courtroom just before forte dies, so lets talk about that…)
contrary to hiding away from the gunshots in ch2, forte is now feeling brave enough to face danger head-on. once sei assaults missy with the dagger and proves herself to be a threat, forte is convinced to step in and "take matters into his own hands", despite, at least by gaeas words, apparently knowing full well his own life would be on the line in the process. this does not deter him however- if sei had assaulted forte instead of missy, he mightve not been nearly as aggressive. but once again; forte sees it as his goal to keep everyone ELSE alive and well, so as long as hes able to defend THEM, it doesnt matter what happens to him in the end.
"a stage where every man must play a part, and mine a sad one" as fortes final words is what makes you realize, this was just his destiny. hes been the baritone/supporting role to his own life for as long as he can remember, and he definitely knows it. theres never been any upside to it- its sad because of how it ends tragically for him, sure, but its also sad because, even along the way, hes mostly just existed for other people, and hardly for himself. he knows this.
in opera, basses tend to be intimidating/authority figures, such as fathers, kings and villains. how i see it, forte thought to assert himself a bit more in ch3 (honestly unsure what couldve triggered it, maybe some introspecting off-screen), analogous to a usually-baritone man wanting to slip into the role of a bass. however, he found himself in the wrong place at the wrong time (with sei and zero around), and got quite literally pulverized for trying to deviate from the path laid out for him; "taking matters into his own hands" was clearly never going to happen, certainly not without consequence.
perhaps fortes mention of the butterfly effect applies to him too. if he didnt choose opera, if he went down a different path, would everything have gone differently? would he be able to break away from his destiny to be secondary? much to think about..
now i warn you in advance that most of this section is shit from my ass because cyrus and forte have only directly interacted in canon twice, with 2 more mentions of cyrus from forte. of course i counted, who do you think i am?
my idea of a relationship dynamic between cyrus and forte is that they both parallel and foil each other. they sometimes do the same things, but executed in their own ways/for their own reasons. other times, they just oppose each other entirely. i think its very interesting, and it couldve been explored more!
when you really think about it, both cyrus and forte were meant to be a very specific person- although, in cyrus' case, that would be imposed by the preservation project, while in fortes case, i guess just some sort of cosmic law? either way, it causes them both to have a very complicated relationship with their own feelings, and to have an aversion towards being vulnerable (until they find it absolutely necessary to do so). theyre both very distanced from themselves- cyrus because he hates to associate with himself after all hes done, and forte because thats just how he was raised to be.
their deaths were both rather suicidal in nature- although, cyrus' was one of cowardice. too afraid to stand for what was right for himself and others, and ultimately, too afraid to even kill himself. contrary to this, fortes death can be argued to be a display of acknowledged risk/bravery, deliberately sacrificing himself in the face of protecting and saving his peers.
their motivations overall are at odds with each other. cyrus mainly does things out of selfishness and self-preservation, often abandoning what is moral in the process, since the end justifies the means in his eyes. meanwhile, fortes actions are very selfless. he always keeps the others in mind, even when its to his own detriment, and will even give up his life to keep the rest of them alive and well.
and yet, neither of them can deny the idea of Something working out between them. forte cant deny it with cyrus, at least. he is at first wary of cyrus and likely perceives him as a threat, but once cyrus is gone, forte seems to want to understand his situation better, like he tried to do with art. he reckons cyrus was probably just "a pawn in the overall scheme", and even comes to apologize to his spirit when he must break into cyrus' room to find clues.
in any case, when has cyrus ever been even a little understood before? forte may as well be the only one thats thought about it.. and despite a stubborn mutual distaste between them, they seem willing to talk out more serious matters (like when cyrus got defensive over being labelled an accomplice in the 1st trial, but still went to explain why it wasnt possible, with forte reluctantly accepting his words. this also shows cyrus can still have patience for him).
its this stubbornness/cagey-ness yet mental fragility they both have that would really bring the two together, i think. BECAUSE theyre so fragile within, that same stubbornness can be shattered, and maybe theyd start telling each other a thing or two. if they come to hate the other, its because they just see themselves in him. "i hate you because i hate myself" kinda deal. or, if not "hate", at the very least "have really complicated feelings about". or, who knows, maybe they come to love each other deeply and profoundly because theyre delighted to see they arent alone after all.
they just cant decide if they wanna cooperate with the other or not.. so it could go either way! at the end of the day, forte knows cyrus' morals should be questioned, rather than immediately disregarded as unjust. like a brutus and antony situation.
i shant mention the fact cyrus' surname just being "cyrus" backwards represents his internal conflicts and duelling characteristics caused by extreme denial and repression. or that "forte" also means "strong" in italian, which is exactly what he felt the need to be. or that even their signature colors are complementary, green vs purple, and theyd make grey when mixed together, which can also represent the constantly fluctuating nature of their relationship. they just make me sick, can you tell? thanks for reading.
im in the process of writing my cyrus and forte analysis right now! therell be a cyrus section, a forte section, and a section for both. so you can read about forte there, in the meantime.
afterwards, i'll respond to your ask properly with something abt forte/kanon, once i get around to it.
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