Trigger Warning

Not pro-anything I'm doing this blog for me, really If you want to follow, that's great If you don't, that's great too If you need anyone to talk to, I'm here I reblog a shit-ton so sorry haha

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i’m not gonna kill myself but, man, i wouldn’t mind dying. i really don’t wanna do the rat race for the next 40 years or deal with the stress and responsibility of being alive. it makes me sad that dying is generally looked down upon.

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IV XX :(

my life is going to shit:) i don’t have any friends anymore because over time i ended up losing all of them because i was overly focused on the lie that is friendship. everything is short lived and i fucked up my life. at this point, i don’t want to feel. i don’t want to know what my life has become- so i don’t.

and that’s a problem.

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prestigious school? lmao more like dropping out and starting a 2 year bender

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sad ramblings of a depressed chick

i wrote on here one time about the way my ears rang after blasting music into them. the ringing never really stops but the silence of that moment is fleeting. it’s a continuous loop of numbness, a ringing, but never a moment of silence in my head.

i’ve also written that i’ve gotten better, and that’s true, but my head still likes to fuck with me sometimes and i’m still getting use to that reality.

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hello all,

since i’m now in a much better place in life, i feel i should try and help other people reach that point. if any of you need anything, my inbox is always open. please feel free to message me if you’re struggling (or even if you just wanna talk !)

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A HAPPY UPDATE! FINALLY !!

Hey, guys. Haven’t posted on this acc since I was in a really bad place in life and I’m sorry about that. I hope none of you really liked it or relied on it. Anyway, I’m doing better. Certain things still suck, but that’s how life goes sometimes. It can still be good. I hope all of you are doing well.

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an update i suppose

No one really pays attention to this account anymore and I’m kind of glad because I was afraid that I was unintentionally triggering/encouraging people. I promise I’m not, I’m just super sad guys. Idk. Anyway, a little has changed in past months. I got better, then got worse. Now I don’t eat a lot at all and smoke too much pot. It’s a super fun life.

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I'm starting to write an abundance of poetry Which is good But that's when I know it's getting bad again

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well, I’m back. I was hoping my ‘bye’ would be my last post on here. I was hoping I would be done with this page- and with that, my extremely depressing part of my life. But I’m back, I’m sad, and everyone hates me. glad to be back, guys.

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bye

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i was clean for 6 months...

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Hey! I know i haven't been on in a while, I was just going through some stuff and I've been pret busy. So anyways this really, really helps me when I get anxious and get hella anxiety about whatever. It's very calming and slow and just over all a really lovely song.

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Don't kill yourself, please.

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If you’re suffering from depression and are looking for a sign to not go through with ending your life, this is it. This is the sign. We care.

If you see this on your dash, reblog it. You could save a life.

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You just saved mine.

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It's okay not to be okay

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I'm sick of wanting to die

But I'm sick of living

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I just purged for the first time in a month, and just so happens, my boyfriend asked me if I was okay *like he usually does* and I wasn't about to lie to him so I said 'nah man, not really' so long story short, I told him. And we had a 2 hour long convo about it and how he's worried about me and how he doesn't understand how I can think that no one loves me etc. I hate my life lol