A Quick Note
Last year I was diagnosed with Gladular Fever (that’s a saga I’ve gone over 100 times before on my previous blog). My depression worsened to the point I now have to be medicated. And my coping mechanism became self deprecating humour. A lot of it. All the time.
I hadn’t realised the effect this was actually having on me until I watched an episode of Queer Eye S3, in which the nominee was doing exactly what I was. Self deprecating humour to cope/deflect. And the Fab 5 were shocked, almost angry, that he would treat himself like this. And that’s when I suddenly became aware that what I was doing wasn’t helping me, no matter what I thought. But worse than that, it was having a genuinely negative effect on the people around me. Who were trying to love and support me.
I’ve spent the last week or so clearing out my social media accounts etc, clearing out my room, and becoming more aware of when a joke is a joke and when it’s not.
I created this blog to replace my old one - computersimulationofme. I won’t delete it because there are too many memories and posts that I don’t want to lose, but at the same time it’s full of a lot of toxic shit that I’ve poured out over the years that I need to distance myself from. That account will go silent once the queue runs out, and I’ll be on here from now on.
I’m also learning to tag properly.
Reblogging from the new account. If you randomly get followed by this account, hello it me 👋❤️
Quick reminder that this is the last post in my queue so I won’t be using this account anymore.
Come find me over at 7billionneedles (OP account where you can still call me Simmy)
