December 31 last year I was at Jeff’s cabin.
In January, I was in love with Noah, I had pink hair. I remember always wanting to be high. Smoking was my everything and the basis of my relationship with Noah. I dropped out of highschool. Elena and Sierra George and Brian were my bros and I was living with them. I was sick all the time. I got a job at MAD Greens. I was planning to move out and get a job in Boulder. Right before February I dyed my hair purple silver and then blue. Noah and I broke up and I began dating Ollie.
In February, I started smoking even more. I got accepted to CSU and declined the job in Boulder, hoping to stay with mom until college. I became friends with that scary girl and spent a lot of time in her gross dark room, I saw a possible future version of myself in her.
Friday March 1, I threw a huge party.
Saturday, I tripped on Molly and had my first spiritual experience. I was in distress and lost after my experience with Molly.
Thursday March 7, I tripped on acid and saw the potential for greatness inside me, the potential for change. I began outpatient therapy and medication.
Summer flew by, it was filled with working and therapy and relapse.
In July, I got herpes and damaged my relationship with Sierra.
In August, I came to CSU.
In September, I met Jason,Mason, Sam, Kate, and Maja. I had found my family and my husband.
I moved to Braiden in October, ending my ties to Sierra and Bridget.
In November, Jason and I broke up due to different lifestyles.
In December, I realized that although Jason was the deepest love I had ever had to this point, he was not the deepest I would ever have in my life.
It is December 18. The semester ends in 2 days, the year in 12.
Although this year was the most difficult I have ever had, I reflect on how far I have come, and I can’t imagine the positive growth 2020 will bring.
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