I would give anything to talk to you again
I know it won't happen. I don't even send asks, anymore. I know why you don't want to talk to me. I know I'm the monster under your bed. I know I've damaged everything far beyond any repair that I could ever achieve. I never meant for things to go badly between you and Em. I asked her to reach out to you because I was worried. I didn't expect her to act as a bridge for us, nor did I expect things to boil down to an ultimatum. I didn't understand the extent of the damage I'd done until that rift occurred. Had I known that I had affected you so detrimentally I would never have stepped like that. I wouldn't have become close friends with her. I wouldn't have asked her to reach out to you. I wouldn't have spoken to her about the things I'd done or the things I've been doing to try to repent in my own mind. She would have heard you out when you were ready to talk about it. Things would be different. I never meant to hurt you the way I have. I'm so sorry.
