Watching the cat eat because we shouldn’t

18+ plz! • Planet Pluto System • 🫧❄️🍎 £D blog, MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING ! 🪸☔️🦌 Posting calories, venting and documenting our weight loss. 📱⛲️🎠 Recovering addict so TW for mentions of substances or urges occasionally. 🪼🪽🌊 Main tags: #calories tag #weight tag & #words from pluto

[costofeuphoria]

Welcome to my fucked up blog ~ !

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This page is so that we can document our £D symptoms and we!ght løss progress. Our page is also strictly 18+ !!

We are a system and have a variety of different mental and physical health conditions, we are 25 years old, and we have been dealing with disord3red eating since 2013.

We also have §elf h4rm & add!ction issues so we may occasionally make posts related to those as well, but we will never post anything super triggering like §H or svbstance pictures.

We are PR0 RECOVERY! We don’t want fatphobes or anyone who considers themselves pr0 in the opposite way to follow us! This is a safe place for people to express their d!sordered thoughts without feeling like they will be shamed if they decide to leave and recover. We ALWAYS want you to recover!! Please do what’s best for you and don’t let anyone on here encourage you to get worse. We care about you <3

Our stats:

Height: 5’2 // 157cm

HW: 193lbs // 87kg

LW: 102lbs // 46kg

CW: 175.4lbs // 79.5kg

GW 1: 160lbs // 72kg

GW 2: 140lbs // 63kg

GW 3: 125lbs // 56kg

UGW (for now): 110lbs // 50kg

[costofeuphoria]

Kinda not safe, kinda doesn’t matter. I’m gonna end up hurt if I don’t do something about these thoughts but it is what it is idk

We were called a jvnkie by a (now ex) internet friend today, that was great. 🥲

Sorry I don’t condone you harassing our 19 yr old friend who is like a younger sibling to us when you’re nearly 27 ig?? Also weird af to call the recovering addict a jvnkie when your the one still using but hey you do you boo. 🙄🫥

[costofeuphoria]

Ended up with an intake of 1,080 :( I’m so fucking upset. I guess we are gonna have to start the diet we made another day. We’ll stick to the under 1000 for now and figure out a good day to start the diet so the high calorie days line up with our partner’s time off.

We took two doses of stronger lax and if nothing happens by midnight we are going to take 2 more. We already had 5 of the weaker lax so… idk what to do at this point. I’m just praying this works. Idgaf how much pain it causes I just need to get all this food out of me.

Feels like I fucking poisoned myself, and I’m not talking about the lax.

[costofeuphoria]

I am so devastated. We!gh in today was 156.2lbs and that’s up .8 from our last we!gh in which was literally Monday so 6 days ago.. I don’t understand?? We haven’t b!nged and we’ve been under 1000cals every day since then WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON WHY AREN’T MY EFFORTS PAYING OFF ???

I’m praying it’s not real weight and it’s just because i haven’t been able to go to the bathroom in well over a week. I couldn’t even give you a date, I have no idea. I’m kinda scared it could have been two weeks by now but I couldn’t tell you because Idk. I just know it’s been a long ass time. We took two laxatives yesterday and they didn’t work, so we are going to the store and getting stronger ones today. Lowkey tempted to just take a bunch of the ones we already have in desperation because I don’t want to wait till I have a ride to the store. We’ll see what happens.

This fucking sucks. We better be down to at the very MOST 174lbs once we can go but… I’m just really really scared this is actual weight I have no idea how it could be since I’ve been so far under my tdee. It doesn’t make sense but nothing ever makes sense so I won’t be surprised if I actually gained. K!ll me. K!ll us. Whatever. (It’s not whatever I’m going to fucking lose my mind even further)

[costofeuphoria]

Final intake for today is 710cal ❤️🩷🩵

Big TMI but we have been hella constipated for over a week now so we are very scared to weigh. We took lax this morning but nothings happened yet so we are gonna take another now and just pray something happens before we have to weigh in tomorrow 😭 wish me fucking luck I guess 💀

[costofeuphoria]

WE MADE SOMETHING!!!!!

Gonna start it tomorrow :) !!! Yippieee it feels so good to have an actual plan after just winging it with a 1000cal max goal for like 3 weeks lol

We’ll post progress on it every day and I guess we’ll weigh in the morning so we have a start weight for it. We might try not to weigh again till we finish it.

I’m praying we can get through it without eating over any of the goals!! And if we mess up on any of the days we will do it again once it’s finished.

[costofeuphoria]

We took a trip to the mall :D got two w33d vapes and ate dinner! (160cal, it was a 5pc chicken nugget lol)

Also found some motivation on a directory sign and took a picture of some mannequins to go with it lol ⭐️🪶

We probably burned a few calories too but it’s not many at all because we tried to keep the walking as minimal as possible so we’re not gonna bother logging it.

[skinscals]

I can't stress this enough.

If someone's actively ⭐ving themselves and goes from 260lbs to 220-200, THAT IS DANGEROUS AND THAT IS SICK. No they're not ✨skinneyy✨ but they're severe disordered and it scares me cause are they getting help? NO.

So let's get this straight, someone weighs 145lbs, loses 45lbs = You're now sick and deserve help.

And someone who's 260lbs, loses 90lbs = "you're at normal weight you're doing good."

YOU.CAN.DIE.AT.ANY.WEIGHT.

It's not a weight disorder.

EVERY POUND YOU LOSE FROM DOING THIS TO YOURSELF SPEAKS FOR YOUR DISORDER. NEVER QUESTION IT.

You're valid, I see you and I really do hope my plus size sufferers are safe... Stay safe, ALL OF YOU.

[costofeuphoria]

Intake today was 590cal! Met the goal for today of 600!

Haven’t eaten 300 of it yet though, saving that for when our partner comes home so he sees us eating. Just glad we finally had an intake we are happy with :D

We also fasted for almost 21 hours so that’s cool!

We are gonna get a shower in the dark to unwind and then maybe we’ll do our makeup just for fun :)

Sending love to anyone who reads this!!!

[liteness]

what do you mean the fda allows for a 20% error on calories on the nutrition facts. i need that to be 99.99% accurate.

[costofeuphoria]

Final intake for today is 445 calories :)

It’s 155 under today’s goal so I’ll take that. Also we still haven’t eaten our late night snack so we will be at 375 if we don’t end up eating it, we’ll see what happens.

Finally had an intake that makes us feel okay weighing the next day, last two days have been over 800 and anything over that we are not willing to weigh out of fear we will gain 🥲 So expect a weigh in tomorrow!!

Hopefully we’ll be down to 173lbs or at the very least 174lbs since last weigh in we were 175.4lbs and that was three days ago, all of which were atleast 1000cal under what we burn in a day. Might work out tonight too just to be safe.

Hope everyone is okay today and being as safe as possible <3

[costofeuphoria]

I. AM. PISSED. Our partner came home early and it was bad timing because my stomach would not stop growling… he asked me what I had eaten and I couldn’t make up enough fast enough for him to believe me. He lowkey called me out on not only lying & said that even if I was telling the truth it “still wasn’t enough”.

So he made food and I had to eat way too much of a meal. Added an extra 430cal instead of the planned 70, so we are still under 1000 at least but we will not be we!ghing today because of it. We should have thought up an excuse to get out of it but we are so weak when it comes to him worrying about us. It doesn’t make me feel good, it makes me feel guilty and like a POS. Especially when I’m still fat.

Idk why he’s up our ass this soon… we’ve only lost 18lbs and we are still quite literally obese lmao we might have been wrong about being able to get down to the same we!ght where he got frustrated and shit with us before it starts affecting this relationship… I hate that he’s more aware of the symptoms now.

We will re-try for the goal of 600 today so we can we!gh tomorrow. Fingers fucking crossed because this was the 3rd day in a row over 800 😢🥲

I KNOW ITS WITHIN OUR GOAL BUT ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH FUCK FUCK FUCK

[costofeuphoria]

God I missed the physical feeling of hunger. For awhile I’ve felt like I’m not doing this right because despite successfully restricting we barely felt any hunger pains.

It just hit me though and we are soooooo motivated now 🥳❤️

[costofeuphoria]

Final intake for today is 445 calories :)

It’s 155 under today’s goal so I’ll take that. Also we still haven’t eaten our late night snack so we will be at 375 if we don’t end up eating it, we’ll see what happens.

Finally had an intake that makes us feel okay weighing the next day, last two days have been over 800 and anything over that we are not willing to weigh out of fear we will gain 🥲 So expect a weigh in tomorrow!!

Hopefully we’ll be down to 173lbs or at the very least 174lbs since last weigh in we were 175.4lbs and that was three days ago, all of which were atleast 1000cal under what we burn in a day. Might work out tonight too just to be safe.

Hope everyone is okay today and being as safe as possible <3

[costofeuphoria]

Ended up at 1,015cals today :(

I guess it’s okay because we were not over 1,500 but we are sure as shit not weighing tomorrow morning.

We were too scared to weigh this morning since yesterday’s intake was 890. Goal for tomorrow is 600, no excuses. I’ve planned out what we are going to eat already so going to do our best to stick to that, but if not we’ll stick to the under 600 goal.

Than maybe we’ll feel okay enough to weigh in Thursday morning 💔

[costofeuphoria]

Forgot to post intake from yesterday but it was 890 cal which is… okay I guess. But today BETTER be lower, swear to god. I wanta keep it under 700 today so that sounds manageable!

[paperweightfeatherlight02-deact]

I’m way too trusting it’s actually embarrassing

[costofeuphoria]

WE!GH IN AT 175.4lbs TODAY?!? HOW TF?? WE WERE 177.2lbs YESTERDAY??

I guess it makes sense because we re3tr!cted for two weeks while only loosing like 3 or 4 pounds in total. It was SO frustrating but then we ate “normal” for a roughly day and a half, then went back to r3str!ct!ng. Now all the sudden we are loosing like 2lbs a day!?!!!! Must be from all the progress that didn’t show up on the scale for some reason in the two weeks prior.