the taylor swift happiness theory
so, theres a song happiness on evermore as track 7 and ive been obsessing it over lately (shotout to my roommate who helped my ass when it cried to a song names happiness nate ur the best) and like i love the song. its so gut wrenching really. so this is how i think of different lyrics that really got me s c r e a m i n g.
"showed you all of my hiding spots" - i do take things wayyy too literally so my first idea was taylor under a table showing the guy that he can be there with her cuz she trusts him. and then i was like what the fuck why am i thinking this, but then i realized that she showed the guy all the places she goes to when shes quiet, all the stuff she doesnt usually tell people or hide and it just hurt me in the best way.
"i was dancing when the music stopped" i again took it too literally, but then maybe it is that. yk in movies when music stops and they feel embarrassed? maybe its that. like she was dancing or thinking its all fine when the relationship became just platonic.
"and in disbelief, i can't face reinvention" and this just hurt me. i cried. as a teenage girl who keeps reinventing herself every once in a while, its like taylor ran out of idea what to do cuz she spent all this time in the relationship, being happy oblivious, putting effort and then it all was over. and she just cant reinvent yet, and she cant believe it anymore. cuz the person made her feel so safe that she didnt have to think of reinventing again...and then its over. and shes like in between.
"haunted by the look in my eyes that would've loved you for a lifetime, leave it all behind" this is the point where i lose my shit. cuz i cant. its so cryable. like she remembers how her eyes looked when she saw him how she felt it could be forever and she hates it now that its still the same. but she left it behind. and its still there.
"when did all our lessons start to look like weapons, pointed at my deepest hurt?" every oldest child can relate. as well as me. so, like she showed him every single bad thing that hurts that happened to her, and when they were ending it, he used it as leverage.
"and i pulled your body into mine every goddamn night, now i get fake niceties" another one that wrecks me. it basically means that they were so incredibly close like saw all of each other, and now they just greet like "hello" and "good morning" pretending like they werent the closest. and taylor sounds mad here, like shes mad that she gave him everything and now its just hellos and goodbyes.
"there'll be happiness after you, but there was happiness because of you too" and here taylors saying that she was happy with him but that she'll be happy after him one day.
"and now my eyes leak acid rain on the pillow where you used to lay your head" and here i was physically sobbing so hard, nate literally came to check up on me and ask if i was okay, but like it just gets me a mental image. imagine her on the side of bed that was his and it still smells like him, but shes crying too hard it actually hurts but she cant stop. so taylor alison swift, i just adore how your lyrics hurt me.
"after giving you the best i had, tell me what to give after that" just leave me to cry at this. like she cant give anymore and she still feels like its not enough and i cant with it, it just hurts me. i was crying so hard at this point.
so thats it really.
at this point im screaming