Insanity

Poetry & Recovery

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Sobriety... Is a drug of its own.

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I really just wanna be high Numbing the feeling's I hide and push Away another day into sobriety Leaving me lost and empty inside I really just wanna smoke a joint And be ok Pushing the drugs away To find myself one step closer To the sky

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43

The heavy clouds lifted off the ground. He is all that's on my mind today. The evening news holds no attention to my heart's galaxy, wishing on a starlit fire to Conspire my freedom to live happily ever after. Scared and no where to go this time, and I don't have a way out of the raging Storms, but I have hope, that maybe i'll find my own anchor to save my life. Or go under with a knife and strife Whatever the outcome I've learned You can't control life and I am thankful Anyway.

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42

Depression lurks in my mind, Sinking my soul and wishing The pain would all just go away. I still won't give into Using and abusing Substances. Conspiring thoughts I watch pass by, To stay sober Just for one more today.

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My day started off good And now it's a flood of rain Pouring on open wounds With burning asphalt. When will this all just Fucking end.

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I became his drug he uses and abuses, I started cutting myself to hurt him and than I liked the pain. It released anger and I can’t fall back into that mentality.

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He got so mad at me today and I didn't react. The worse it got and it made my oldest son cry. I just play it all off and I need to find a fucking way out before all our spirits die

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Buttons trigger, With lips zipped up, to pass by life And live an Addict's life.

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No one can handle all the chapter's in my life and that's why I'd rather rant on found and unfound pages for the rest of my life.

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I Gave myself away for free and now I come with a high price.

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He sobered up and is maturing. I admire him for that.

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The demon in him scared me to silence him out, and I pulled the plug on the tub to drown him out. He reminds me a lot of myself and I tried to genuinely help him and instead I destroyed my life and it will take years to recover from that wild run.

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I won't change my perception to do anything morally incorrect anymore, but I can look at the view and melt inside and drool. I can't act out on my feelings, but I can acknowledge them and understand that I am human too.

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I am not ready to fully face the world just yet and I am still healing my mind. I wanted to get back to doing things that I use to love to do (healthy addiction's). So, I actually left my house and I noticed people in a different light. I was less angry and more understanding. I watched them come and go. I looked at their clothes, their shoes and I imagined what their addiction's, strength's and lives we're like. I thought to myself instead of always worrying about what other people think of me; what do I think of them... I earned my place here in the world. Just like anyone else. My 12 step program is really working for me mentally. The craving's come and go and when they pass by I truly enjoy my life.

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Love can be scary, when you've been hurt. Sometimes you drive by and catch a view of him or her. Either you run from it your entire life or you come down to facing that person one day and embracing what you have looked for in every person since you lost each other.

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You touch someone's soul just once and they seek you out, and I honestly hesitated on the approval, but if they can handle honesty; that my heart belongs to some place and someone else; than who am I to deny or decline their friend request.

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The day’s intertwine, Like syrup and mustard, Eaten on a stupid and lovely stick, The bird’s chirp, I’ll be ok, but I still just want to be high.