Beth is re-watching Stranger-Things

she/they ✮⋆˙ 21yrs ✶⋆.˚ History student {3nd year} ✶⋆.° certified rock weird girl 🎸

[cowboylikeghost]

No matter how bad winter gets there will always be that sunny day in january to make you feel better

[cowboylikeghost]

crying while watching mlp why can't we all just love each others like those fucking ponies

[cowboylikeghost]

robin's speech really touched me in a really deep way.

I used to be...so amazing, in middle school man i was at my prime. I had so many interest, I loved so hard. Yes, it was hard getting bullied, having only two friend (one was long distance), knowing I was different. But it was worth all the fun I was having, the drawing, the writing, the editing, the movie nights, the staying up late playing with Legos, playing star stable for whole fucking days.

I didn't care what people thought, i didn't even care what I looked like. I was unapologetically myself.

Now ? I'm only always on my phone, and...i mean i got what i wanted, i'm fitting in. I have normal friends who do normal things and i'm...not happy. I'm not happy with who I am. I actually kinda hate her right now. I miss, being weird. I miss when everything about me was weird. Not in the "quircky weird girl" no i mean i was genuily ugly weird. I was so free. Can i be her again? If I apologies would she help me find her ? Would she allow me close again?

I feel like i lost her trust. I want to gain it back. Even if for it i have to abandon so much of what i've gained.

[scarysanctuary]

I may just be a FREAK, but I don't want The Ghoul to be super macho, confident or dominant with Lucy, I want that man to be pathetic for her. I want him to turn into a groveling dog for her, following her around, sniffing after her, looking at her like she's the last drop of water in the desert, I want him to see every last morsel of hope and humanity he has left, mirrored back at him in those big beautiful eyes of hers, I want her to be his salvation, and I want him to be terrified of her because of it.

[morastfrck]

commission for @ladysakurascout (tysm!!)

[epiphainie]

i would die alone and have my carcass be eaten by vultures before i talk to chatgpt like it's my boyfriend

[cowboylikeghost]

why the fuck does my sister buy so much shoes. She's got 16 pairs. She's got two feet. I didn't even count the summer shoes. What is wrong with her.

[cowboylikeghost]

you're brain really does do anything it wants because i could nerd out about the show as a whole but instead I have to get weirdly obssesive about fucking jonathan byers for some reason

[cowboylikeghost]

i don't really know who i am all i know is that i'm not trully a girl and it feels like i'm pretending

[caspercryptid]

The really unfortunate thing about mental health progress is that sometimes you realize you've made it in the form of "wow, I haven't felt this bad in a fucking while"

[caspercryptid]

On the one hand it's a bit of a pick me up in a dark place to know that this will pass because it has passed before on the other hand sometimes it isn't entirely a pleasant thought to go "wow, I used to feel like this all the time. That was pretty fucking bad. It's pretty bad right now too also."

[caspercryptid]

Someday your current baseline will be the sort of thing you consider A Really Bad Day. It does get better.

[strangeronance]

i love my crashout son

[flickeringgate-deactivated20251]

locked in (making a stranger things oc)

[bylrlvr]

you may love the main character will byers who can control demogorgons with his fingertips, but did you have the same amount of love for the neglected s3 will byers who broke down at castle byers

[noihavenosanitythanksforasking]

if you dont love him at his

you dont deserve him at his

[cowboylikeghost]

people who didn't grow up weird can't fully connect with the show, they're not use to having a full main cast of weird characters bc there should only be one weird character. They're not use to be a minority and they're not use to watch media centering queerness.

[cowboylikeghost]

when i think i'm having a good day but my brain decide to make me remember my 16 years old self crying in the shower asking my mom why people don't like me

[cowboylikeghost]

i hate when people try to make you understand what they want instead of telling you so when that happens even if i understand what they want I act so clueless you would think i was in fact born yesterday :)