31 Weeks Pregnant
I've been so lucky to be having such a nice pregnancy. The only thing that's happened is that I had some weeks where I had high blood pressure (140/90), but for whatever reason, that has evened out and I'm back to normal (120/80) now, without having to take any medication. It's this point in pregnancy that gets a bit hard. There are no comfortable positions at all for sitting or lying down. Lying down on my back makes me feel breathless. Lying down on either side isn't great either, but the best has been lying on my right side, which is not recommended (lying on the left side is better for some reason). Also, there's nothing like waking up gasping for air with sour, acidic liquid stuck in your throat making breathing impossible. Yes! I love that. Acid reflux is in full swing because there is no room in my stomach and all of the stomach acid gets pushed up my esophagus. The truth is, it's really fucking scary when you wake up not being able to breathe right away. It takes a moment to realize what's going on, then you have to calm yourself down and figure out how to breathe again and cough up whatever sour, nasty juices have come up from your stomach. As for the baby, she, yes, SHE is growing and healthy and measuring a little bit ahead of 31 weeks. I feel huge. I feel as though my stomach is stretched out to the max. We just need for this little girl to stay inside for at least 4 more weeks, or more would be even better. I'm studying Hypnobirthing. It's not some quacky hippy movement, but rather a way to keep me as calm as possible to ensure the best birth experience I can possibly have. My son's birth was traumatic in that it had to be a c-section. For months after he was born, I never felt as though I "gave birth". I had a very hard time with that. I couldn't say "I gave birth" because he was literally taken out of me. That's how I felt. I actually felt like "less" of a woman and I felt like a failure. Yeah. Pretty deep stuff there. But it's the truth. This time, I'm sooo hoping I can deliver naturally and vaginally. That would be amazing. So I'm actually going to stop typing now, and I'm going to put on my hypnobirthing track to listen to, so that I can practice for the big day. Wish me luck!