Creative Fluid

This is where I chose to express myself in a digital form until I can express in a way I actually wanna share.

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I think I might be addicted to having things to fill my emptiness inside.

I feel so lonely sometimes.

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Ideas.

Where do ideas come from? Are they all in the back of your head trying to find a way to get your attention. 

I think I need to go out and look for ideas to come out.

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sometimes I feel so intrinsically desolate.

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Crushes.

I think I have to come to the realization that it’s okay to have crushes.

Crushes for random people that make you want to talk to them but also want to not meet them because the magic will go away.

It’s okay to have crushes even if you’re in any kind of relationship with someone.

It’s okay, it’s part of me.

Also,

accept that people you love can have crushes on other people.

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Leave Me Alone.

I think you’re going to leave me and I’ll be alone and lonely. 

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If you can’t find work, create your own work.

Not sure how I feel about this.

“Quest for a Meaning” 2015

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I tried to move out

But you said 

I was on your way of things

and our views don’t combine

but you said

its just fine

I’m trying to get out

of your way

of my mind

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Sometimes I have nothing to create, and I feel like my existence doesn’t have a meaning.

Sometimes I have too many things on my head and I can’t even feel anything else.

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I don’t wanna be like other girls

But other girls are cool

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Overrated.

Creating things that are super different, original, no one ever done, is overrated - and a lie.

Allow yourself to be influenced by other artists, recreate what they make and add yourself in it.

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Stop Criticizing!

Why do we judge so much? Why do we criticize people for what they want, what they wear, what they post, what they eat?

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Goal

I am not my own body

I am not my own soul

Am I my own person?

Is this my own goal?

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Saying Goodbye is Now Harder Than Ever

saying goodbye is now harder than ever

you have to keep going

and have to keep knowing

but going away.

I’m going to try to write some ideias. I plan to write everyday in May. Probably gonna fail (maybe I shouldn’t say this, am I setting myself to failure?). But I’m going to try! It’s not even supposed to be good it’s supposed to give me ideas!

x

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Why are people congratulated for getting married?

Wow, you managed to find someone who is able to put up with you! Congrats!

Wow, you tricked someone into liking you!

Wow, you like each other so much you want the government and the church or whatever to know it. 

Not judging! It’s just funny how this is meant to be such a life achievement but it never really felt like one for me!

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I think I hate my course.

I’m writing this because I spent the whole day trying to work and failed. I always have something else to do. This course is making me not do things because I have work but also not work because I basically don’t want to.

Most my tasks are boring, but maybe it’s because I’m not meant to do this. I like to do all the creative choice but not the real thing. I don’t like to think how logos should go with these photos. I just like to take the photos, direct and arrange the photoshoot. I like to move and not sit in front of a computer doing boring stuff. I’d rather do pretty much anything else.

But hey, next September I’ll start a new area!

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Birthdays. (364 days to fuck up)

Everybody wishes you a happy birthday, but if your birthday doesn’t go well, don’t worry, you still have at least more 364 days to fuck up and do well with that new age of yours.

I always cry on my birthday but in the end of the day, I’m fine with it.

It’s my birthday but I’m feeling kinda dead.

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Bisexuality.

You know the worst thing about being bisexual/pansexual/polysexual? You are never fully accepted as one. If you’re with someone from the same gender as you, everybody assumes you’re gay; if you’re with someone from other gender everybody assumes you’re straight. If you’re not in a relationship, or you have multiple partners with different genders, you’re probably just experimenting. 

Frustrating.