I haven’t physically felt pure, raw Loveee like this since the time I took Shrooms. Before I even found out about you, you hit me like a wave. Never had I randomly got dizzy like that, I blamed it on the pasta I had for lunch. I prayed I wasn’t catching food poisoning. In all actuality another prayer was being answered. A prayer that I intended to have manifested in like 3-7 years. Not at 25. Speaking of which, I used to say ( age 16 and under) by 25 I’d want to be married and with a kid. Maybe cuz subconsciously I knew your Grandma had me at 24 & at the time was married to your Grandad. Anyhow, as I got older & I got a taste of the real world & discovered my passion I was like “Nahhh, I want to master my mind, body, soul & my passion before I bring life into this dimension”…Especially an energy, a Being as profoundly evolved & paradigm shifting as you.
Well….you had other plans for me obviously.
Between knowing there’s timing with everything & not believing in coincidences & the fact that there’s definitely been times where I could’ve/should’ve been pregnant & nothing happened. I had gotten to the point that I thought I just couldn’t have kids, like something was wrong with my ovaries.
I would never say it out loud even if I was completely alone, never told a soul that b/c I didn’t want to speak it into existence. (Besides you couldn’t tell men that, they’d be tryns shoot the club up at every chance.)
So it makes my mind melt when I try to figure out why you chose now & the man you chose as your father, not that you didn’t make a good choice. Can’t help but think of that saying I heard years ago when they said “Children pick their parents.”
You were basically waving a big ass sign in my face saying, “MA……I’M HEREEEE!!” when my period came on for a day (that lil mf said “Hi & bye”) & my breast were still sore..even now. Took a test at work & felt my body go tingly all over as I saw the plus sign appear.
Astrologically, you were concieved under a Cancer new moon. (Apparently Water sign new moons are the best fertile times. Found this out, wayyy after the fact doing some research cuz I wanted to know if we created you under a New or Full moon.)
Discovered you were inside me on Friday (the day associated w/ Taurus (Me), love, & fertility). You’d been vibrating inside of me for 3 weeks…3 is one of my favorite numbers. Your Dad is an Aries & you’ll be one too if you don’t pull any more unexpected stunts. There are 2 back to back New Moons in Leo (we’re under the 1st one, the next is in August) and this is the year we have 2 solor eclipses next month. Gucci mane is getting married 10/17/17 & Beyonce had twins last month, now making her a mother of 3. On a dot connecting level, you were aligned & destined to come into this world when you were ready. Lol I see now how you move, P.
First song I played for you was Lauryn Hill’s “To Zion.” And ofcourse Al Green’s “Simply Beautiful. We gotta get some head phones for my second trimester so you can CLEARLY hear the music. I’m sure you barely heard a thing at 3 weeks in the womb.. but I heard it so I know you felt the energy of the notes playing through my veins lol.
To me, you are divine immaculate conception. I have loved you since I first found out about you. You instantly changed my eating habits, my thought patterns, my views, even got back heavily into yoga & cut off anything & anyone that did not come from a genuine place mentally, physically, energetically, or spiritually. I absolutely did/do not care who you were/are. Any hint of bad vibes, Im keeping them 1000 feet or greater away from me.
It’s funny that before I knew of you I felt myself drifting into a cacoon where I wanted to go within myself & do some self-healing & self improvement. Like I could feel it on a spiritual level that I was, by choice, preparing to evolve into the next level of woman I’m destined to be. Lol from the looks of it you turned that sand of an idea into concrete. Now I damn sure am about to fall so deep within myself, I just very well may drown & come back reborn…emerging from the waters a whole new Being.
I’m glad I lived my life to the fullest, wild as fuck and all. Lmao anyone who knew me before age 25 can vouch I was a mf'er with myself ( & thats an understatement😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂💀💀💀💀💀💀💀☻☻☻☻)
So I don’t feel like you cut my younger years short & because I happened to be so aligned with the Most High lol, you fit right in with me painting. I just know I gotta buy your own paint set so you don’t mess up my stuff.
I went from Creme De La Art to Creme De La Art & Co.
If anything, you’re enhancing the F out of my life. And I look forward to all of our adventures, I already know you’re going to be funnier than me. Every move I make I’m putting my all into it so you have a sensational example of a woman, a mother & a role model.
Between my art & you, I am for sure leaving my mark & I know my bloodline will further itself another generation & this time taking our bloodline to places our Ancestors prayed for.
As private of a life as I live, I had to announce you to the world, this time & this time only. The next time anyone outside of my circle sees you, they’ll for damn sure be looking into the eyes of one of the most powerful, profound, balanced, creative, influential, mentally, financially, physically, spiritually, energetically healthy & wealthy Beings this dimension has ever met.
The seeds I plant in your mind will see it so.
Between your parents, family, friends, co-workers, even Ex lovers, it’s been nothing but love for you, you cool ass kid to be.
I should be scared but I’m not.
I should be nervous but Im not.
There may be hard times but last i checked sandpaper only helped a 💎Diamond💎 shine brighter.
I know the Most High has us & I thank you for choosing me( though you were beyond unexpected & unplanned) & thanks for choosing your Dad 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾b/c the guy I had in mind turned out to not be shit with his self or life 😂😂😂😂
We’ll be waiting for you at the Do’, P.
See you soon, Love. 😚
