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The Peter Greenaway collection

The Cook, The Thief, His Wife & Her Lover (1989)

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Город Зеро Director Karen Shakhnazarov

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Karen Shakhnazarov - Zerograd (1988)

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karen shakhnazarov / nikolay nemolyaev : zerograd (1988)

#what a movie.

me as soon as I come to a horrifying understanding about how fundamentally fucked up my relationship to sex is: okay but what if it was shane hollander

#will I be writing some insane porn to explore my own sexual crisis soon? yes. yes I will

the fact that there's not a proper hollanov btvs au is a tragedy. like shane and ilya with buffy and spike's s5-7 dynamic would be so good...... shane as the slayer trying so hard to be perfect hating himself for his attraction to this vampire...... ilya as the vampire who find himself obssesed with the slayer he wanted to kill originally...... ugh

#I could also see them as buffy and faith #like ilya becoming the slayer after shane briefly dies #showing up antagonizing him.... showing him how to have fun but maybe enjoying the darkness a bit too much #there's so much potential. should I write this #hollanov #I'm starting to have ideas for a fic like this this is dangerous #like set during their s6 equivalent #with shane being depressed after coming back to life and sleeping with ilya to feel something #and ilya bring genuinely obssesed with him #with flashbacks to their earlier interactions......

I miss my parents (axmurph)

#haven't listened to naddpod in ages...... I will be back someday

a fic I read just hit me with the jew-ish shane hollander.......... I love you

thinking abt ilya canonically having sex with his brother's girlfriend. kinda wanna write a fic where his niece finds out she's his biological daughter and comes to the us to escape her shitty dad

#I just saying..... it's plausible #hollanov #heated rivalry

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i dont even care about getting “high” i just really enjoy coughing so fucking hard

people make ilya and shane cry way too easily in fics. these are two emotionally repressed hockey players they would not cry so easily and shamelessly

#ari didn't you just write a fic where shane breaks down crying like three times- ilya literally killed himself in that one okay

pastry chef shane and sweet tooth ilya fic is coming along 🫡🫡🫡

#hollanov #hollanov fic #heated rivalry #writing this fic is making me wanna bake again. it's been a while since I made anything complicated #might go back to my parents early to take advantage of their kitchen #make some fancy tart or smth

people are showing interest in my pastry chef shane fic however what if instead I wrote. the antidepressants induced erectile dysfunction ilya fic no one wants

#I'm just thinking abt how often antidepressants kill your sex drive.....#ilya spiraling abt it cause his and Shane's relationship is so based on sex and if he can't give him that would shane still want him #and shane telling him they could never have sex again and he would still want to be with him. but also just go talk to your psychiatrist #abt changing pills you dumbass #do you see the vision #hollanov