Crimson

https://www.quotev.com/Thalia2035 just a teen bi ace girl looking for friends

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so like new intro post cuz it's long over due!!

hey folks, i'm crimson (or rose, idc)

i am:

13-16

bi(romantic) and ace

i like reading, writing, and any fine art

i am an overall shy person, but like obviously around my friends i am the oposite

I am strangely (ya'll are strange for not being the same way) obsessed with owls

I love Romeo and Juliet

I have a dream to be in Romeo and Juliet (sue me), Heathers, Hamilton, Six, Mean Girls, Next to Normal, and/or Hadestown (aka my favourite musicals)

Um, yeah, reach out if you please <3

also my lovely moots consist of: @poet-queen12 @silly-camera-official @cranberry-branflakes @yukamoonlover @averageao3enjoyer @bisexual-kitkat-offical @rinz0ra @finnwolfhardeatingchocolateishot +more (love ya'll)

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look at him

look at jack wolfe

aka jack wolfeous

im like lowk obsessed with him...

AAAKUVHEKUVRCHYJUBRYIBKUVAWHBWEIJYHKUERIUVYJ%BKUEWVYJNWERKGSEVSHRIVHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH

im in LOVE with him as orpheous

and in N2N

OH MY LORDIE LORD THIS MAN CAN SING

AND IDFK WHY BUT HIS NOSE????

AAAAAAAAAAH I LOVE IT

TOP TEN HOTTIE MC HOT STUFF PERSONS

HES IN THE TOP 5

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rip out my heart and tear it in two, why dont you?

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please no one respond to this in any way shape or form pt 2, because we loved a fucked up sequel

im pushing everyone i care about away at this point

its killing me

hurting people...

i just cant do it anymore

i'm just fucking myself up for the future

its not my fault though

i've never had lasting relationships

with anyone

i always leave them

or they leave me

or make me wish i never met them

the longest friendship ive ever had was 2 years

and by the end we were falling apart already

my longest relationship was 2 weeks

and it ended with me getting fucked over, cheated on, and accused of fucking said person

dont trust anyone anymore

not with anything actually important

and i just feel like the biggest fuck up ever, because who can't trust people? anyone?

and now i feel like a bitch for venting because i was taught growing up to just suck up the pain, and dont bother anyone

because my own parents didnt want to know if i was hurting

i mean, is that fucked up or what?

god i hate myself

i havent hated myself this much ever

not since i was 7 and looked a little too good for my old neighbour

and got blamed by my parents

when he tried to pull me into his house

because i just need to cover up, right?

cover everything!

my body, my emotions, my feelings, my scars, my thoughts, my everything

because no one cares

at all

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please no one respond to this in any way shape or form

i hate myself

i have for a while

i have scars that can tell you the same thing

every night i cry myself to sleep

i dont know what i can do to stop myself from hurting

ive debated leaving... but then i'd be the asshole daughter who fucked up her family

ive debated running away, but i'd just get caught and send back to hell

everyone i know talks about their perfect lives and perfect everything, and i'm just wishing someone will notice me

notice im hurting

and care

genuinely care

not in the "i can fix you" sense

or "i can cheer you up" sense

but in the "i hear you and notice you're hurting and just want you to know i'm here for you, actually here. i dont care how fucked up you think you are, i love you for you and will be here until you're ready to move on"

and i know none of you can be that for me

not now not ever

but i just need to say it

i have a plan for when i'm 18

i'll go to college, or at least go far away from home

make it impossible for anyone in my family to contact me

delete myself from their radar, basically

reach out to hotlines

live my life

and die naturally

free of shame and pain and hurting

find someone who actually cares for me

get myself all the medications i need

and live guilt free

knowing i didn't do anything that can't be undone and that will fuck up everything

knowing i didn't do what i've attempted to do in the past...

god

i'm sorry, i don't know why i made this post

i just can't journal anymore without my parents reading it and getting me "help"

so yeah

now you know..

please never mention this....

[crims0nr0s3]

Are you a drawer.........?

bEcAuSe I tHiNk I cOuLd PuLl YoU

MWHAHHAHHAHAHAH

(DONT STEAL THAT EITHER HONESTLY TAKING ALL THE CREDIT

You ought to be dissapointed young lady)

-🍠

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAAAAA FUNNIEST THING IVE EVER HEARDDDDDDDDDDDd

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god i genuinely need help

how do i reply to someone without being a bitch?

like, okay, hes nice and all

but hes been asking me out for a whole year

and he asked me (texted) to the movies (3 days from now) and said it would be just us two

a date

but ive sworn off men for time being (theyre absolute asses)

and he knows how i feel about it

and he knows i dont see him that way

but i feel so bad bc i dont wanna be a bitch to him when i say no

but how can i not be a bitch about it????

[crims0nr0s3]

do you have discord ? i want to watch party musicals with poet and some other people.

-meow anon

yes i dooo

its like...

valarie_l or something

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Hihihiii :]

OMGOODNESS

hiiiii <33

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istg everyone around me in this stupid country is getting a girlfriend (/partner...but still)

i just want some fucker to date meeeeee T^T

the fuckkk

its so easy getting a man

why not a woman?

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Hey girlie pop

hey pookie bear

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i yearn to be yearned for like orpheus yearns for eurydice <33

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....

Once i sent you a morse code ask

It failed

yeah i lowk dont know morse code the best rn, so... i was also too bored to figure it out

mb

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@poet-queen12 this you?

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(deep inhale through nose)

ROAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRR

growl!

bark bark!

wooooooooooooooooooooooof...

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guys istg i need to stop saying yall

i say it like all fuckin day

texans have polluted my vocabulary

[fridayjackal]

sorry y’all I was talking too much and turned everyone redneck.

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YEEHOE PARDNER!

[silly-camera-official]

I sincerely hope I had something to do with this

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you are the most texan person i know, cowboy crab. how could you possibly not?

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OoOoOOOoOOOoOOOOoOoOOooOOOo (imagine voice cracks here)

ANNA PLEASE YOU'LL ONLY MAKE IT WORSE!

THERE IS SO MUCH FEAR!