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And somehow along the way everyone else’s needs became the priority, and I was expected to understand.

#relationships #want to be loved #family relations #broken family #people pleaser #youngest child #neverenough #trauma #childhood #lonely

whendidmythoughtsgocrazy

And if I'm meant to be alone, please take away my desire to be loved.

k.b. // unknown

remanence-of-love

I’ve never had a boyfriend. I’ve been focused on surviving my whole life that having a relationship wasn’t a priority.

But now I’m at an age where I could have had one by now. I’m finally at a point where I feel like it’s my choice to be single. And I’m happy about that.

somewordsarebiggerthanothers

lostmf

By @archivedsmile

I think there have been times when being needed felt safer than finding out whether you were wanted.

#lonely #neverenough #want to be loved #trust #relationships #not enough #never enough #alone

thehopefulquotes

“I over-analyze situations because I’m scared of what will happen if I’m not prepared for it.”

— Turcois Ominek

I was talking to my friend the other week and I had this realization about how I was left to survive on my own and be self-sustaining from a young age. I was nine when my brother was sick then I was 10 when my sister was sick and tried to kill herself and that didn’t stop for another decade. I had to become the independent good grade can do it herself child. And I don’t think my parents ever realized why. And now that I’m older, it breaks my own heart to think of the pain that I had to go through and just keep my chin up. I was young. I was impressionable I needed someone to protect me. Why did no one protect me? Why did no one check in on me? Why did no one ask me if I was OK?

#glass child #living with cptsd #cptsd vent #neglect #trauma #childhood trauma #just cptsd things