So many thoughts i just can't understand

Just texting about my thoughts feelings etc. For those who feel the same.I like Metal, Ska, Punk, Rock.

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Every fcking time

I just forget about her i don't care at all, but it is just awfull if you meet someone very nice but then the punch in the face a few days after the girl is just like fuck you 'cause I found someone better and i'm soooo in love go fuck yourself fuck your tweets fuck everyone and everything about you. Then karma is like hey you had a good time now im gonna split your ass twice and let your dog fucking bite you so that it's hard to write here so fuck you karma you are a bitch. I'm so pissed of in this moment anything would make me feel better not even playing crysis. I'm out have a bad day everyone you can all go fuck yourself into the night. See ya

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Help every day makes a smile in the face

I just worked foe my best friend. She asked me to help her with garden work so i decided to help 'cause i don't know what else to do. It was a good distraction. I listened to music when i did it. It just felt so good to help and not to think about the girl. Still i think just doesn't like me at all. I think ir was just sex for her. But from the things i heard about her, she is a very nice person. And from what i heard of her in a relation ship and i imagine we would be perfect together cause she is the same like me but she doesn't see it. I tried so hard but i can't help it cause she still thinks of her ex bf und about having sex with super hot guys with sixpack gooood i hate it when people just think like that. Thats for it today. Help others and it will make you smile 'cause you know you did something good even if they are not grateful. Have a good day! 😆

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Thinking about humen

I just watched the descent. It is 03:53. I realized that humen are better alone, fighting for themselfs not for other. Humen are fcking egoistic. If you work alone you'll not be bound to others who can stop you in everything you want to do. If it's school life or anything else what is important for the future. Still i can't forget about that girl i'm always thinking of. But i don't know why. She is attractive. But there is more than that. It's nit like i wanna fck her all time i see her. I want to kiss her, hug her, waste time with her. And that's what i mean with stoping your future i can't get her out of my head. It stops me of doing anything else. The only distraction is meeting friends, smoking, play basketball, listen to ska, metal, punk. So much that i want to distract me of thinking about her. I can't concentrate of all the other things. I only want to know whats going on in her head. But she won't tell me. I guess forgetting her is the best but it's much harder to say than to do. So i'm lying here making me so helpless. The only thing that could help me is death or knowing about what she thinks. I guess for her there are no feelings towards me. I can't give up even if i want to. Back to the movie. Everyone who like horrormovies the descent is so good. There were shocking moments that will tear your head aparte. Thats it for this night. 5th of october.

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Why?

I don’t know what to do. But there is no one who can help me. All say it’s gonna be okay but i can’t believe them. It never was. So what am I gonna do about it. It’s so complicated. I like her very much. But I don’t know why. Nobody understands me or will understand me. I want to date her or just meet her, but she doesn’t want to. Every time i try she blocks it. She is saying no time and when i ask when she got time she replies with i don’t know. God i hate it. I don’t know what to believe and what to do. I always think i should stop thinking about it but i can’t.