🏳️‍🌈 Crow's Nest

| •DID (Diagnosed 10/21/21) • | Traumagenic System | He/They | 27 | 18 Alters | Autistic

[crows-nest-system]

Sometimes you've got to start small and simple with altars. This is for Nyx. It'll gradually grow over time

[radical-boy-kisser]

Shout out to all the alters who don't like using/don't use signoffs after their messages. I am one of you.

[iota-andromedae]

religious person with dissociative identity disorder call that a belief system

[number1-syscourse-blog]

Calling alters "alters, parts, headmates, peices": 🚫🚫🚫🚫

Calling alters: "those bitchass motherfuckers" ✅️✅️✅️

[69constellationsinatrenchcoat-d]

Reminder

DID isn't just having fun people in your head

Along with shifts in personality, it's often times:

amnesia: 'waking up' with no memory of what's going on

travelling and having no idea where you are or how you got there

dizziness

confusion

spacing out

headaches

feeling broken & worthless

fear

not knowing why or how you're wearing what you're wearing

nausea

pain

anxiety

finding things amongst your belongings you don't remember acquiring

time loss

depression

suicidal ideation & action

spikes in inexplicable emotion, especially anger, fear, and shame

body and voice dysphoria

depersonalization & derealisation

loss of control

hearing voices

finding injuries you don't remember getting

self harm

not recognising friends/family/colleagues

forgetting important events (birthdays, parties, graduations etc)

mood shifts with seemingly no trigger

finding notes in similar handwriting but something about it is slightly off

flashbacks: somatic flashbacks, nightmares, split second flashbacks to 'little things' but not getting more detail

bed wetting

age regression

inadvertently lying, or being questioned if you have

feeling like your body isn't yours

knowing something is wrong, but not what

wondering why your body doesn't align with your perceived sex (for alters whose gender/sex don't align with the body)

watching your body do things and having no control over it (feeling like a puppet or like playing a video-game in 3rd person)

mass fluctuations in libido: fluctuations from hypersexual to zero sexual desire

not being sure if things really happened, or whether you imagined/thought about them

identity confusion

+ many more

I have two book recommendations DID experiences: "All Of Me" by Kim Noble, and "The Girl in The Green Dress" by Jeni Haynes. Please check trigger warnings.

[thefoolsystem]

Explanations:

1) beliefs:

I hate having to pretend that I changed my mind/still believe something another alter told someone when I never believed in it at all

2) goals:

We’ve got a lot of artists, but we also have a writer. Sometimes they want us to write 500 words or sth a day. I don’t want to. Stuff like that

3) skill:

This is self explanatory, but it’s hard to work on projects (e.g. a webcomic) when my art style changes— it makes keeping a consistent schedule impossible

honorable mention: relationships

it's annoying to have to hang out with someone I dislike just because someone else made plans because they like them

[waffle-cult]

Trying to explain why you're talking and acting different without revealing being a system:

–John

[crows-nest-system]

Our partner of 5 years proposed today, we said yes!! ❤️🏳️‍🌈❤️

[reminders-for-systems]

Shout-out to the intimidating alters. Shout-out to Protectors who are often rude or aggressive as part of their function. Shout-out to Gatekeepers who are often cold or uncaring as part of their function. Shout-out to the Caretakers who are often overly bearing or demanding as part of their function. Shout-out to the Persecutors who are often hostile or distrustful of others as part of their function.

[august-zip]

Remember systems

The next time that somebody tells you "your brain wouldn't form that part!"

Oh Yes It Would.

You can't choose who or what forms. And that's okay <3

- Riley

[crows-nest-system]

Finally have a therapist who specializes in DID and is really amazing to work with. She always asks who's fronting and uses our individual names. She's the first therapist to treat us as individuals and respect our decision to not integrate.

[reimeichan]

Stages of DID recovery

Stage 1: my brain is so quiet. I feel nothing. hear nothing. remember nothing. it's just... nothing.

Stage 2: HOLY FUCK THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE HERE SHUT SHUT UP SHUT UP STOP THINKING THERE'S TOO MUCH THINKING

Stage 3: we're now in sync, everything is in peace, we understand each other, sometimes we need to talk but it's fine it's not as chaotic-

Stage 4: HOLY FUCK I'M FEELING AND THINKING EVERYTHING FROM EVERYONE THERE IS NOTHING STOPPING THESE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS FROM EXISTING THIS IS TOO MUCH SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UPPPPP

Stage 5: actually this is normal and fine. we're good.

[ooppo]

[crows-nest-system]

Just got diagnosed with Bipolar when I was under the impression I just had a weird unique case of ADHD from everyone 🙃

[crows-nest-system]

Working somewhere that Hosts pride events and celebrates Queer employees so openly is such a breath of fresh air. It's nice that the topic of being gay or trans at work isn't scary or risky.

[crows-nest-system]

Happy Disability Pride to the people who haven't gotten an official diagnosis or documentation due to financial reasons or whatever else may have prevented you from being able to get diagnosed.

This month is for you too

You are part of this community. You matter just at much, you're valid.

[bebsi-cola]

disabled people deserve more than the bare minimum to live tbh. and i don't mean in the "oh we have extra costs that makes being disabled more expensive" - which is true, but i'm counting those in the budget to live. disabled people also deserve enough money to buy treats, nice clothes, fund their hobbies, take a trip away, and so on. being disabled shouldn't force you into a life of frugality and poverty

[mosscaller]

For Disability Pride Month this is your reminder to include all Mental Illnesses in your advocacy.

That means BPD, NPD, HPD, ASPD, AvPD and other Personality Disorders.

That means DID, PDID, UDD, & OSDD.

That means Schizophrenia and other Psychotic Disorders.