August.zip

hello, my name is August, this is my blog, where I post DID related things or just rambles. diagnosis date 23/4/2024.

[august-zip]

Okay, let's do this one more time.

Im August.zip ! Or August. Im 3 years on HRT testosterone! I was diagnosed with DID in 2024 and I have 31 (?) parts. With the most common parts being me, Vayu. August-Phoenix, August, Siren (another August), and Viserion.

I'm 20! (Ew, old) and it sucks. Because of my DID as well as a few other things i can't work. I have breakdowns in the mcdonalds deep freezer if I do :'D. I need a bit more therapy before I can go back to work and achieve my goal of full time work, but for now I'm a benefit boy and I get government money. Yippee (sarcastic, but I love free money nonetheless)

Uh, I like art! Really like art. Specifically drawing dragons, Wings of Fire related dragons. Which brings me to that, books! I love reading. And lastly I'm your average gamer. Minecraft, The Last of Us, and sometimes roblox.

Yep I think that's me! Wait did I mention i like art?

Totally not my art page

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Throwing a post out,

DID and OSDD are not the presence of more altered state of identity. Its having less than one.

To further deepen this. We're all parts not our own whole selves, like a glass cup that has broken and shattered, all those pieces make up the whole even if its broken :P

If you shatter a plate, you don't have more than one plate. You have little pieces of one plate. Each piece = less than one plate.

[anti-endo-aoba]

this is poser behaviour btw

hating ableists and people who further contribute to oppression is about as punk as it gets, policing labels is not

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Resigned from mc Donald's, long needed over a year now. One thing my councelor said not long after we first started therapy was that I likely wouldn't cope at work due to the stress and my dissociation and amnesia. Well, whoopty fucking do was she right.

It took me a long while to realize I was having breakdowns in the deep freezer at work and calling in sick before a shift because of the physical anxiety I was getting.

It took six months of thinking I was fine to sitting down with my manager and him telling me my amh had been shit the last six months. I love work, I love to do work, but unfortunately I have to step back for my mental health.

It sucks, but it's time to focus on healing and then later on the work will return.

Might make a post on how exactly this shit affected my work and affected my shifts.

[dogpuppy]

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Me: calls in sick for work the night before because I passed out at a petrol station Thursday night and fucked my neck.

The manager on shift: proceeds to not do anything regarding letting others know I'm sick.

I got a call from the store manager this morning asking why I wasn't at work, dude. Really?

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How did you get DID diagnosis and be cleared for medical transition? I do not have DID, but getting cleared for medical transition took months of therapy to prove, and having been abused as a child meant that the therapist was always looking for ways in which I could have a mental disorder that could make me THINK I'm trans when I'm actually not, including looking for DID symptoms. So I assume that if I had been unlucky enough to develop DID then the therapist would not have allowed me to transition. IDK if you started transitioning before the diagnosis or after, but did you have to go through extra steps to prove the second one you got help for?

-💿

I started testosterone when I was 17 which was before I got my diagnosis so I have no idea sorry. BUT before I started T I got an assessment for it and got a letter that I had to give to my doctor that pretty much said

"yeah August understands the risks, he's mentally able to make this decision"

Sorry I was not much help with this, but I wish you the best anon

- Aarvos

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I am a part, that's Vayu. But I've stepped into the role of August for so long that I feel as if I'm more August than August himself. I have been a more active part compared to August over the years.

All my memories just feel distorted and out of place. I would have thought I would be a little bit used to it by now which looking back on that it's just what a joke. I don't think you CAN get used to it.

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So here's a life update and why I haven't been active pretty much at all!

I might be failing my classes due to dissociation between parts. I thought I was over this one, things had gotten better.

I am now buying my own groceries!

Me and a friend had a falling out over two new friends.

One of said new friends decides to go to mine and my dad's house at like 2am knowing we both weren't there to party.

Said 'friend' gets banned from my house.

Me and old friend start talking again and I lie flat to his face about hanging out with remaining new friend.

My FUCKING PHONE broke

Work is killing me with morning shifts. Because of my night terrors I get very little sleep. I am in no fucking way a morning person so stuff you maccas for making me start at 8am.

In therapy we are beginning to work on when different parts present and possibly a why!

✨I fucking hate my life currently✨

[its--terminal]

What's crazy about self diagnosis is that .... Those with licensure aren't allowed to diagnose themselves and you think you're more special than 8+ years of education?

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Preach

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ARMAGEDDON BABYYYYY

Made a last minute decision of a cosplay. My Wings of Fire OC Skyline

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what modes of minecraft do you play? I play on hypixel the most, especially bedwars :) I used to play some SMPs with my friends too

I mainly play bedrock as my laptop can't handle Java very well (its older than me) whenever I get Xbox gamepass again I play with mates

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Well. I guess I'm saying goodbye to my last great grandparent. He's on his way out the poor guy.

- R

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Update. I proposed to my girlfriend (now fiance) and she said yes!

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Oh yeah folks.

Today is the day!

I'm going to propose to my girlfriend in a hour or two!!!

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Updated intro post

Hi! My name is August. I am a 20 year old transgender man now 3 years on testosterone!!!.

I use strictly he/him pronouns. But those who don't remember, or don't know my pronouns they/them is perfectly fine (I do it too)

I was clinically diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder in 2024 And am in current therapy for my DID.

I am a huge fan of minecraft, and I have been playing it for over ten years now! My hobbies consist of gaming, reading (specifically Wings of Fire) drawing, and cooking food.

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Well. Camping did NOT go as planned!

Windy af, from 1am till 3am i was lying there as the tent was getting smashed around, I put my noise canceling headphones on and connected them to my phone because it was making me hella restless.

And suddenly the back side of the fucking tent comes in!

So my mum and step dad are now up and we get told to grab our shit (i grabbed my small bag which had my phone and my switch) and we just collapsed the rest of the tent. Its like 3:30 getting close to 4am now and the whole of my family is up trying to get this tent down in the fucking wind.

At this point me and my little sister are now sitting in the back of the car watching my fucking aunt crawl through this collapsed tent trying to grab a pillow for my mum.

Now its 8am and im waiting to go back out... and to see if the tent, my trench coat and my other bag is still there :P

THAT BAG HAS MY DRUGS (testosterone) I NEED IT - Viserion