if i could begin to be
half of what you think of me
i could do about anything
i could even learn how to love.
- love like you from steven universe
(link to the lyrics because i know this font is unreadable. verses 1, 2, and 3 are in this)
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(shoutout to CeaselesWatch3r on twitter for the song)
We can fairly confidently say bf!Nom has complex PTSD ye?
Oh absolutely. You can tell from quite a few aspects
TW - End of this post discusses in character suicidal thoughts, if that content is something you do not wish to read about or see discussed please take caution and not read this post
How he handles war.
He lives in the Well Well Well because it's hidden underground, no matter what it will not change and he will not have to witness the place he lives be continuously destroyed as each battle comes to an end. Similarly, it's a form of escapism, the longer he lives and stays in the Well Well Well after each fight ends, the less he has to acknowledge the war torn state of the kingdom he loves, and he doesn't have to acknowledge it's been destroyed once more.
How he talks about people he cares about.
Everyone of course knows of his undying allegiance to BF 4C and BF Katie, even if it gets very rocky at times (cough.. mace.. cough,, bounty). Those are bonds he cannot hide and actively chooses not to hide as well. However, BF Nom is very careful about who he mentions caring about to different people. When he speaks with BF Katie, he rarely mentions the care he holds for the rest of his kingdom, especially BF Scott, BF Mae and BF Owain. It's interesting to me because for example BF Scott is very open about the fact that BF Nom is his best friend, this is the guy he's placed pretty much all his trust in. Hell they want to sail the world together if they survive this war, as Captain and First Mate. But BF Nom rarely acknowledges this especially when conversing with Red Kingdom. I think there's an innate fear to letting anyone from Red, even including BF Katie to an extent, know about his other allegiances and bonds within Blue Kingdom because it could put those specific people at risk if knowledge gets out. It's well known that BF Nom is the strongest knight of Blue in canon, this has been acknowledged by almost every member, therefore there are not many people who realistically could take him on in a fight, so the ideal way to take someone as strong as BF Nom down, is to target those he loves and cares about. With BF 4C and BF Katie both on Red Kingdom now, in BF Nom's mind, though they're still actively in war, they are safer from being targeted specifically to hurt him, he will not be the active cause of their potential deaths or harm because someone was trying to use them to hurt him. So the less people who know about his other allegiances and bonds, the less likely they will be used to hurt him like they may have done in previous battles. This might even apply more than usual when we take into account BF Nom's strongest bond since BF 4C and BF Katie defected to Red is now BF Scott, who although is one of the strongest mages in the kingdoms, at the end of the day he is still a mage, and BF Scott does not wear armour, he's made his strategy quite clear, invisibility and support making him very vulnerable to an attack from a knight or a backstab from a rogue. Therefore it is in BF Nom's best interest to ensure this bond is not taken advantage of by Red Kingdom.
How he talks about himself.
BF Nom often refers to himself and the concept of knighthood as a form of weaponry. He seems himself as a tool that should do what needs to be done to ensure the safety of the people he loves. In his mind he is less of a human and more of a weapon to be mastered and used in this war and it's a thought that's basically been drilled into him since he began this training at a very young age.
His character is suicidal.
By this I mean, he sees himself as a weapon so much that he's less human. Therefore he's willing to do anything to see those he loves protected, even at the cost of his life. Especially at the cost of his life in fact. We see he took a deal with the Creaking King with the idea that if he was stronger, he could ensure less of Blue Kingdom had to fight and they could be kept safe. He consistently puts himself in harms way and danger with no thoughts of self preservation. His entire life motto is practically about protecting everyone he loves, and in his mind he fails at this time and time again and his mental state is so far gone that he has decided his life is worth the sacrifice to avoid anymore bloodshed against those he has promised to save and protect.
Personally, I hope BF Nom survives today, if only to allow his character to come to the realisation that people care for him back, and he is allowed to be the one protected and that he has a human life and it's worth living for himself, not just for others. Every action BF Nom takes is both selfish and selfless, he's lived his entire life for other people, he never wanted to be a knight, but he went into the business because he could protect and help BF Katie achieve her dream of being a knight. He murdered all those knights to save BF 4C and took him back to Blue Kingdom in guilt, shame, and now fierce protection over someone who he deemed innocent and worthy to live. Yet his actions come off as selfish. Taking the resin and the deal with the King, not talking about his plans properly with others and acting on his own accord because he thinks it's the path that will leave the least bloodshed on the hands of those he cares about. Conceptually it's a selfless idea as he's actively putting himself at risk and in harms way to do it because he wants to save everyone, but it is fundamentally selfish as he removes the option to help HIM from everyone else. They lose their ability to choose because he has chosen for them.
anyway lol cant wait for bannerfall to definitely not end today haha
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AO3 have submitted a DMCA strike against the original site, locking the dataset. apparently, judging by the fic IDs being between smth like 1 and 63,200,000, if your fic was posted pre-Feb 2025 then it was scraped.
as a trans person from florida who had to put up with the near constant "lol let's just cut florida off" comments while desantis was going scorched earth on trans people last year i completely sympathize with trans people in the uk being annoyed by the "terf island" jokes. it's fucking shitty and does absolutely nothing to actually help trans people. stop it.
just for a moment consider how fucking scary it is to be a trans woman in the uk and seeing your supposed allies do nothing but make "terf island" jokes
Team Iron man fans saying that Steve was wrong for not telling Tony that Bucky killed his parents but honestly, seeing how Tony handled finding out about it, I wouldn't have told him either. Tony was already willing to throw bucky into prison or an institution IMAGINE what he would've done if he found out bucky killed his parents while they still had him in custody. Steve was doing what he always has done, protect Bucky.
People openly supporting the revenge killing of a man who had NO control over his life for the past 70 years and wasn't even conscious for the majority of it because of something he did WHILE BRAINWASHED is insane to me.
(also please don't attack me I'm just stating my opinion TwT)
A note about that last paragraph; in The Wakanda Files (a canonical, in-character from Shuri's POV, collection of information about the tech of the MCU), there is information about the brainwashing and it's theorised by Shuri that Bucky would've felt like he was in a dream while brainwashed.
She also says that it's incredible that he managed to remember anything at all with the damage done to his hippocampus (memory holder, also important for navigation) by the overuse of what is basically electro-shock therapy.
Too big photo for reference of what, exactly, this book says about the chair.
Imagine having so much damage done to the memory centre of your brain that even a genius says it's a wonder you can remember anything at all, and the dream-like state you were forced into also caused memory fluctuations so even the things you remember are probably spotty at best, and then Tiny Stank fans think you should die over things you shouldn't even remember, because you shouldn't remember anything.
HOLY SHIT GUYS, I WAS INSPIRED BY THIS POST TO TRY MAKE THE SONG AND YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE SCREAM I SCRUMPT WHEN I DRAGGED THE TRAINING AUDIO OVER THE BACKING TRACK AND IT LINED UP PERFECTLY
