Fever Dreams

All things Lirenel, an RP character, as well as a place for my mad ravings and the pains in my heart.

[juliendouvier]

[thecuriousmach]

@coyotecrow

[coyotecrow]

Nice find!

[crowsknight]

Love this.

[senkashadows]

[helloaschefire]

@coyotecrow

[crowsknight]

They come to my house every day, the crows. Looking for tribute. And I give it.

[memoryslandscape-deactivated202]

Give me the names for things, just give me their real names, Not what we call them, but what They call themselves when no one’s listening–

Charles Wright, from “The Writing Life” in Appalachia (Farrar, Straus, and Giroux, 1998); Worth a reblog for new followers

[crowsknight]

Fun run at the Castle.

[crowsknight]

Something my sister said to me yesterday: "They shouldn't be doctors if they can't be people."

[crowsknight]

I have seen this in Diablo Immortal for about a week after the last big update. Finally, it's gone. But it was so WEIRD. Then I saw it on the shop page just last week. My first thought: Well, somebody somewhere forgot to click a box.

[crowsknight]

Thank you to everyone who got me to 100 likes! I suspect that's small potatoes to frequent users. I am very infrequent. But thanks!

[crowsknight]

I was thinking about these aluminum cups we had when I was a kid and found this picture on ebay, I think it was. We used to fill them with lemonade or soda and freeze them. We'd grab them out of the freezer and our fingers would stick (because our fingers were always damp-lol-), like they'd stick to the old aluminum ice cube trays with the handles that you'd pull up and the cubes would pop out, like a jack in the box. We'd just wet the cup and our hands under the faucet, then wrap the cup in a towel, grab a spoon, and have instant homemade "Italian ice". I miss being a child as I was in the sixties. Sitting on the back steps, digging the ice out of the cup. Soda was best because the carbonation presented fracture points throughout the frozen beverage and allowed for easier digging. Halycon days, those. The future wide open and full of promise.

[crowsknight]

i'm having a rough day, well a rough moment. You're not here and I miss you so f'in hard. It's like... there's nothing like it.

C had to put her cat down on Saturday. Poor Tia. It was hard. It brings back all the memories of loss. Mike last year. Mom, Dad, you, Deanna, Mike, my sister in law. Otis, Cynder, Stof/Dufas (all my gone kitties really). YOU Was at the ER yesterday with the youngest. She's fine. Well, she's not, but she will be. All tests came back negative for anything serious. Might be gall bladder stuff. Livable. Terrifying. My sister texted and made me laugh which was amazing. I have to tell her that. Was talking to C the whole time, too. When she found out where I was, she was really supportive. I have great people around me. I just MISS YOU.

I miss you so much and I'm trying really hard to do all the writing that would make you proud of me. You used to know all the stuff. Like where to keep it (here, there, everywhere!) how to crosspost sh*t. So much.

Grammarly keeps trying to get me to spell check this. I don't care. You would understand it. I'm still here. I wish you were. Crossposted this in your journal. I'm not sure why. It's like talking to you. I talk to you on Discord, too. It's like spamming the afterlife. Heh. I like that. More spam to come, Jaxie. Save me a seat at the banquet.

[redneckthorn]

patheos.com

[crowsknight]

This one, too. For Jaxie.

[redneckthorn]

Wise Old Crow and Ribbons of Thought

Hmm.  Sounds a lot like @coyotecrow

[crowsknight]

Thinking of Jax.

[crowsknight]

Brother

you can't go yet I still need you I know you need so much more than me and here and life as it is or has become your heart is so tired your body too and God, but You miss her it's hard I miss my her too so much and Mom and Dad and Dee and Oreo and Cynder But you can't go God said so

[crowsknight]

Waiting

Waiting Waiting for appointments Waiting for news Tired, so tired of cold weather blues I couldn't handle the thought of waiting hand and foot on someone so loved, so tired, so sick of this life and her place in it that she thought I wanted out didn't want to be about after all she had done for me didn't love her anymore, didn't see just because she couldn't walk, couldn't clean and couldn't cook, As if any of that every mattered I just wanted to hear her laughter And after she was gone he got a new one As if she could be replaced and all the cleaning I did wasn't good enough for the new one the one he loved when he should have been loving her how I hated the new one, even hated him wished I wasn't guilty wished I'd waited for her stayed by her side, went to say goodbye or "I'll be there for you, waiting" rather than beg God for release to see her out of pain and free Guilt I carried for years and years Until someone else was waiting Waiting for me to let it go

4/29/24

[midwinterhunt]

hot artists don't gatekeep

I've been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard

Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.

Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.

Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.

Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.

SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.

SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.

Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.

Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of "how to draw" videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can't make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.

Line of Action. More drawing references, this one also has a focus on expressions, hands/feet, animals, landscapes. Free.

Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.

Height Weight Chart. You ever see an OC listed as having a certain weight but then they look Wildly different than the number suggests? Well here's a site to avoid that! It shows real people at different weights and heights to give you a better idea of what these abstract numbers all look like. Free to use.

[narrettwist]

Homie gonna share this

[crowsknight]

This is wonderful! Thank you.

[crowsknight]

There are days, when the snow dusts the ground and I look outside that I think I would love to share with you all that you are missing. But then I think, you're not here, you're there and I'm the one missing... Missing you, missing our friendship, missing your laugh, your face, your words, your talent. But I'm working and trying to make it all fit.

[shotbyhazelg]

The most valuable chart…

[deductionfreak]

[patemalah21]

Please Reblog If . . .

[helloaschefire]

Please reblog if you are over 25 years old. I need to convince myself that I'm not just communicating with 13 year olds. Not that they aren't nice mind you, but sometimes I feel like the only old person on tumblr.

[crowsknight]

We are one-fifth of the way to 25 years after you. I am reblogging, but my heart is broken still. I saw him yesterday. I know he misses you more than I do, if that's possible.