the occasional flame

  Deep inside these burning buildings, voices die to be heard.

[cruzwleo]

indigo was a bit taken away when leo had said his name. honestly he didnt think that really many people at all knew who he was or his name. however he nodded his head when the boy asked if he was indigo. “yeah- that is me.” he said softly as he wondered what the boy could have wanted from him.  indigo had loved helping his fellow peers. he hated his own reputation that he had gotten from time to time. people had ignored him because they thought he was the weird jesus kid, but that wasnt all completely true. “yeah whatever you need.”

‘‘okay.’‘ he said while waiting for words to sink in, it wasn’t very common to find someone say ‘yes’ without even knowing what he was going to ask. but he didn’t want to question it, he wouldn’t risk to drive him away. ‘‘so, you know what happened at the party, right? the missing four? especially shae? he and i... we got into argument and i punched him. then he went missing.’‘ remembering the stuff that happened that day made him sigh. ‘‘my parents weren’t exactly the happiest when police showed up at our door. so they kind of wanted me to bring my friends to dinner. they really don’t believe i have friends and live a normal high school life.’‘ he repeated his parents’ words with their tone. ‘‘i would take saffie but i can’t handle my mom going crazy and be awkward about it. so i need a dude as my best friend.’‘ finishing his words he looked at indigo, this was a weird thing to ask and he wasn’t sure if indigo would accept it. 

[cruzwleo]

savannah was well aware that people did usually judge a book by it’s cover. it was human nature. and from what people knew of her, she grew up in a beautiful house, was on the honor roll and did ballet, it wouldn’t surprise her for people to assume she was stuck up. “ohhh i see, because you’ve got better lines to use?” sav joked with him. “i’m not really.” that’s not to say that she never smoked, once in a great while she did, somehow it helped relieve stress, it was like taking in a deep breath. “i always have one of those because i need it to prepare pointe shoes when they’re brand new so that i don’t end up on my ass in the studio.”

‘‘yeah definitely, i got loads of them.’‘ his words were full of lies but that was the point, after his last attempt on flirting with someone gone very wrong, he stopped doing it. at least he didn’t do it willingly and he was open about how he sucked at flirting or relationships. that’s why he could easily joke on his skills. ‘‘no way.’’ that was a bit surprising as it would be the last thing that leo could think of. ‘’ i wouldn’t have guessed it.’‘ he held the lighter out to her back. ‘‘dumb question but how do you prepare them exactly?’‘

[cruzwleo]

Matt clapped the other on the back.

“Well, we’re talking now, so that’s awesome. Nice to meet you, man.” he told the other. Matthew’s eyebrows rose as he realized his new acquaintance was into drawing too. Maybe he’d be a graffiti artist, or do landscapes, or- sketch random people? Peering at the drawing, Matt could see it was average. Still, he thought it was good.

“It’s pretty good, nice work. And hell yeah we are!”

‘‘thanks dude.’‘ leo smiled upon receiving the others’ compliment. he wasn’t used to someone praising his drawings so, even a little piece of nice feedback was appreciated. ‘‘i’m very bored though, i was stuck here the whole day. what do you do for fun? outdoors?’‘

[cruzwleo]

“Actually..” She turned around to take a good look at him, she had heard the comment and felt the need to know who was the eavesdropper. “I do care about. People are missing and well, we have to move on someday but now, it’s not the time.” Martina walked closer to him, her high heel boots making a sound while stepping on the floor. “But since you know so much, why won’t you give me ideas of what to do.”

‘‘right.’‘ he said with a simple nod, he didn’t want to continue as he didn’t really deserve to say anything about them, or the whole situation. ‘‘you sure you can have fun my way?’‘ he questioned with a little bit amusement.it was very difficult to imagine a bunch of rich kids do the things he did.

[cruzwleo]

“ My parents are travelling to spain, which means I’m gonna be home alone for at least a week.” Martina had a sweet smile on her lips. “So I was wondering if you could give me ideas of what to do.” She shrugged before saying. “I don’t think anyone is in a mood for parties.”

leo never really liked the girl, she was the things leo wouldn’t be able to become and she was living in a whole different world. he was sure that the feelings were mutual and she didn’t know him at all. overhearing the stuff she was talking to her friend, he rolled his eyes. ‘’like they care about what happened.’’ it was the truth, most of the students didn’t give a shit, all they think was the next parties, it was their cycle of life. stepping in and making a comment about it probably wasn’t the best idea but it was his habit, he couldn’t have stopped himself even if he tried to.

[cruzwleo]

“i wouldn’t do that if i were you.” the blonde said as he looked over at them. “it isn’t any of my business but the last kid that did that got put in detention.” indigo shrugged.  “the library is pretty  serious about their books.” he called over to the person who had them stacked up to stand on them. he shook his head before turning in his seat back at his books to see a familiar face.  “oh- please take a seat?”  he said in a questionable tone. “can i help you?” he asked then there was a tumble. “ugh. keep it down some of us are trying to study!” he said louder over his shoulder as he turned back to them. “i’m sorry what was it that you wanted?”

‘‘Yeah, hello. Indigo, right?’‘  leo knew that indigo was serious about his studying. or at least that was the first impression he got from him. and he seemed like a decent guy, being the new kid -he was here for months but he was still counted as ‘new’  and a kid that barely talks or asks help, it was best to just get help from the only person who knew what was he doing. ‘’I know we didn’t really talk that much and I don’t exactly have best reputation but I do need help with something. That includes a bit of... let’s say, persuasion. ’‘ 

[cruzwleo]

𝑪𝒓𝒖𝒛/𝑮𝒓𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝑭𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒚 𝑻𝒓𝒆𝒆

「 Deceased  」 ▬ Biological Mother: Nicole Cruz ⦅ FC: Caitlin Murphy Minoso ⦆ ▬ Biological Father:  Javier Cruz ⦅ FC: Joe Minoso ⦆ ･ Adoptive Mother: Audrey Green l AGE: 43     ⦅ FC: Rhona Mitra  ⦆ ･ Adoptive Father: Mike Green  l AGE: 47        ⦅ FC : Eric Dane  ⦆ ･ Younger Brother: Jacob Green l  AGE: 16      ⦅ FC: Liam James  ⦆

[cruzwleo]

every now and again, savannah just needed to get out of the house to clear her head. her routine had always been a pretty rigid one with waking up early, working out, going to school and then spending hours in the studio before heading home to do any homework or studying that needed to be done. it sometimes felt like one thing after another and although the female had no problem handling it it could build up and take up space in her head. which is why a night like this one was clearly needed. just a short escape. hearing a voice she glanced over her shoulder. “actually…i do,” grabbing her bag, the ballerina dug through it for the lighter. a lighter actually came in handy when she had to prepare her pointe shoes. the girl held it out to him, “i get it. you’re not hitting on me,” she chuckled.

leo was a bit surprised, he knew judging people beforehand wasn’t so right but he would never imagine savannah to be this chill. her words made him chuckle as well.‘’i'm not crossing out the possibility.’’ he said playfully. ‘’just saying wouldn’t do it that way.’’ he reached out and took the lighter from her. taking the cigarette behind his ear and lighting it he returned his attention to her. ‘’you didn’t strike me as a smoker?’’ 

[cruzwleo]

Matt jumped slightly as he suddenly heard someone next to him ask what he was drawing. He turned the page so the other guy could see.

“It’s just a doodle because I was sick of figuring out equations. I’m Matt, by the way. Don’t think we’ve ever talked much.”

leo carefully looked at the drawings, if there was something that he would really pay attention to, it would be people’s arts. as someone that liked drawing,he wanted to believe that he had a taste in art, to a point. even if matt’s doodling wasn’t something serious, leo could see he had his own style. ‘’i’m Leo and we didn’t. that’s probably on me, i barely talk.’’ he reached out for his own notebook which had a sketch of a random person on the upper side. ‘’those are good, I like your style.’’ his sketch wasn’t so bad, but he wouldn’t be so proud of it either. he turned it for him to see it. ‘’we are making the best out of classes. ’’

[cruzwleo]

The fact that Mars’s parents were making him take the bus while his car was in the shop had really been a cruel and unusual punishment. One he really didn’t think he deserved, but alas the other option was walking the three miles home. An option that didn’t seem that bad if it weren’t for having to take physical education for his last class of the day leaving him way too tired to make the trip. “I swear to god if that sweaty kid from the debate team is in my seat on the bus again I’m going to move into the gym. I think I could manage it for a week until my cars fixed, because this shit is getting ridiculous. He’s in debate! What is there even to sweat about?” 

the guy was right about everything, leo’s only option was taking the bus everyday and it became a torture for him that he got used to after awhile. so it was pointless for him to keep grumbling about it. he didn’t know why mars was taking the bus, as leo never saw him doing it before. but he could understand his struggle. nevertheless, it wasn’t the main point. he thought mars was talking to someone else, until there was an awkward silence on the air. that kept growing second by second. finally he looked at mars, to his surprise, he was indeed talking to him. ‘’uh...’’ he murmured briefly. ‘’well, he is thick in the head, i bet it takes his whole energy. ’’ 

[cruzwleo]

Matt frowned as he stared at his Algebra II worksheet for the twelfth time. If a stare could make numbers appear, he would’ve been done long ago. Sighing, he decided a break was in order. Digging out his sketchbook from his backpack, he started doodling random squiggles in a snake-like pattern.

leo was tapping his pencil against the table, this was one of his habits and it indicated that he was bored as hell. when it came to a point where he couldn’t stand it, tilting his head to the ceiling, he let out a heavy sigh. realizing he wasn’t the only one he fixated his eyes on matt- the weird and probably the only guy he would be able to talk to. ‘’what are you drawing?’’

[cruzwleo]

the harbour was always a nice place to hang out and at this time of night it was especially quiet. savannah had spent a long afternoon in the studio and after going home, showering and changing, she decided to head down to her favorite little dock. that’s where she was seated now. the ballerina sat on the edge, rolled the bottoms of her yoga pants up and dipped her aching feet in the water. it was nice just hearing the small waves lap around her legs, leaning back on her palms she just enjoyed the fresh air. 

@paradisestarters·

leo needed silence, he wasn’t tired of his family or something, he did appreciate them for the things they did but they tended to be too vocal for his liking. Sometimes he would barely stand to it, and this was one of those days. so he went for a stroll, which always helped him to think and it became his favorite thing to do because it allowed him to explore the town. It was a small town indeed, but it had its own beauty and it was way better than the city. when he arrived at the harbour he decided to take a break for smoking. the view was amazing and the place was quiet, he was certain that he was the only one there. Yet, this idea disappeared instantly, he saw someone sitting on the dock. This didn’t bother him at all, it seemed like the girl was there to enjoy the silence as well. He took one of his cigarettes out and reached out to his lighter. at least reached out to the place where it would be. ‘’fuck.’’ his attempt to leave the house quickly had made him forget to get it, which would never happen normally. he rolled his eyes in disappointment and sighed. there was no other option so, maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to ask the girl. putting the cigarette behind his ear, he made his way to the girl. ‘’hey.’’ as he saw her face, he recognized her. she was in one of his classes but they never really talked. ‘’do you have a lighter?’’ He narrowed his eyes, thinking how it sounded cheesy. ‘’this is not an attempt to- i mean, i really don’t have it.’’ he patted his pockets to show her he was telling the truth.

[cruzwleo]

( benjamin wadsworth + cismale + he/him ) oh them? yeah thats LEONARDO CRUZ. the SEVENTEEN year old JUNIOR. what do you mean, you don’t know them? They’re LOYAL, DETERMINED, INSENSITIVE and HOT-HEADED and some even think of RYO CIGARETTES, FILLED NOTEBOOKS WITH DRAWINGS, A PEN TAPPING AGAINST A TABLE when they hear their name. ( canan, 22, gmt, she/her )

hi guys! i’m Canan (it probably sounds weird in english, it’s a turkish name) and i can’t wait to rp with you all! I haven’t been rping since ages so i feel like i forgot both english and how to rp lol. I’m sorry for any mistakes & I’d appreciate corrections. 

History;;  ↳  Basically adored his parents but they passed away because of a fire when he was young. After that life was all about foster care, however he was quite a trouble maker, he had anger issues and he was very destructive. Thats the main reason why he couldn’t stay in just one foster home.  ↳  His anger was a side effect of a kid who wanted a family, who wanted to belong somewhere truly. His encounters with people were always disappointing, and his choice of family was always wrong.  ↳ Which led him to a terrible experience. He met with a group of people who are nothing but trouble. He didn’t see it that way at first and it came to a point where he would do anything for them. Deep down he knew he didn’t belong there too, but he chose to ignore that feeling. Not for long though, he realized they were using him and he meant nothing for them. ↳ The point of break was two things. A drama which included, unfortunately, a love triangle between him and other two members of the group and the fact that he hurt someone so bad for the group. ↳ He couldn't believe the thing he did, because no matter how hard he tried, he wasn't like them. Once he realized he became the thing he hated most, a bully, that was it. He wanted out. ↳  And for the first time in his life, luck smiled upon him. He was adopted. He had no clue why, but it happened. His family were living in a small town named Paradise Hills, and that was going to be his new home. ↳ There, no one would know what he did, his old friends wouldn’t know where he was, it was like a new page. So keeping his fear of past, he was going to try his best for this new life. Yet, old habits were hard to change. Personality;; —  Very, very withdrawn. He hardly spoke to people since the start of school. wants to change this though. — would punch you in the face if you call him leonardo —  He hates being near to fire & kind of afraid of it. (Fires more like a bonfire or bigger ones.) —  Anger issues.  —  Shit at comforting people. —  A weirdo most of the times. —  very complicated when it comes to relationships with people. Sometimes he doesn’t give a shit, sometimes he cares too much.  —  Gotta quote these lyrics;  ‘’ No longer recognize the place that I call home, no longer recognize this face as my own, somewhere this fate I lost control. ‘‘

[lyricthoughts]

No longer recognize the place that I call home, no longer recognize this face as my own, somewhere this fate I lost control

Rise Against // I Don’t Want To Be Here Anymore (via lyricthoughts)