Sequoia🐝

And then I was 22, and then I was 23, and then I was 24 They/he

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Fuck.

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Here’s this.

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How do you reach out to others for help when you have no one else but your partner left? And unfortunately they aren’t enough to help anymore. Im literally so fucking alone it’s terrifying and I have no one left to help me anymore. Which fair I shouldn’t need help anymore. But I do. And I’m sorry

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Went home from work early today due to having food poisoning. On the way out my boss calls out to me saying “hey free teeth whitening at least!”

And me being far too nauseous to laugh in the moment just had to hit him with the “🥹👍”combo

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Literally nothing makes anything better anymore. I don’t like anything at all anymore and it’s scary to think I’m there again

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Tv girl makes me wish tumblr was more active still. Old 2014/2016 tumblr would’ve been fun with Tv girl aesthetic posts 💀

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Is there a hallmark card for “sorry I stopped taking my antidepressants when I switched doctors and now haven’t spoken to you in over two years I’m trying to get back on but therapy is literally inaccessible” or so you think that’s Some thing I’d have to make myself?

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Hi uh normally when I’m sad asf I choose a social media app to scroll until my mind goes numb again but uh not a single app is making my brain stfu rn so I guess that’s how today is going to be >:’)

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Wish I got therapy out of the way before I was an adult. Wtf do you mean I can’t have therapy after work or on the weekends???😭 I work two jobs and I’m in school am I just supposed to take a full day off to go to therapy????!?

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I use sugar daddy sites like that shit is bumble bff and with bumble bff I’ve accidentally/sortakindaonpurpose/butaccidentally ghosted everyone in this town. Whoops 🤷🏽

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Working two jobs 6 days a week for months straight now and I suddenly came to the realization that I’m not doing any better than the other people my age who work less than I do. I’ll cry about that later then get high and go back to work again anyways.

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Too scared to ever transition because the thought that I could hate my body worse after all the fight would just be way too much for me to handle. I greatly fear I’ll never be happy and always trapped in my body.

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Makes me literally physically sick and nauseous to know that I cannot possibly get a chance to fall in love with and love everyone and anyone at all times. I just really love people in general and it hurts my heart that I can’t treat everyone so lovingly. Idk

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Hey internet why does my body constantly feel like a horribly piloted flesh mech suit?

Internet: anxiety

Me: 🫠 yeah sounds about right

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So glad to be one of those people that any strong emotion I feel my body accompanies it with extreme nausea.

Loving this song by The Smiths rn but I’m violently nauseous because I love it so much so it’s just me vibing and dry heaving at the same time 🐛

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Also I miss my fucking cool hair. My hairdresser got a new job and I’m happy for him because it pays better. But I had to go to someone else and she fucked up my hair so bad my boss started comparing me to 80’s glam rock bands and every stage of growing it out so far still looks like shit🥹 i would include a picture but I hate it so much I haven’t been able to feel like I look nice in weeks