ghosts

18+

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tfw you relapse

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tfw you relapse again

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tfw you relapsed again three weeks ago

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tfw you relapsed three days ago

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tfw you relapsed two days ago

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tfw you relapse

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tfw you relapse again

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tfw you relapsed again three weeks ago

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tfw you relapsed three days ago

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i can change, i can change, i can change,

if it helps you fall in love

in love

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it’s so unfair that he gets to live his life and be happy and successful after completely derailing mine. i hate how often i think about him, and that he probably hasn’t thought about me or what he did to me in years.

he should be the one who needs therapy, who had to spend years working to get somewhat over it. he was the perpetrator, i shouldn’t have to suffer the consequences for the rest of my fucking life, HE SHOULD.

i want to forget about him, i am so sick of him haunting me

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if we’re measuring my mental health by how many times in one day i listen to the sunset tree, it’s not gonna be good

[queercannibal]

relationships are all about compromise

you accept that ur bf has 17 dogs and he accepts that ur a cannibalistic serial killer

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like, fair

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hand in unlovable hand

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i can’t believe i used to let j talk to me the way he did. i just accidentally stumbled across one of our old fights and i just... why did i do that? i let him hurt me over and over again and kept throwing myself at his feet, begging him to just love me.

i don’t know if he ever did. going back through it, it didn’t seem like it. i remember feeling like i would flip my world over for him, follow him anywhere. granted, we were 18, but still.

i was so blind to how controlling he was, how cold and closed off he was toward me. he was emotionally controlling, if that makes any sense.

i can’t believe i let myself get so caught up in him for so long.

[bedlund]

misha collins inventor of gay cas wasn’t too pleased to hear about this

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tfw you relapse

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tfw you relapse again

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tfw you relapsed again three weeks ago

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hurting my own feelings on purpose because why the fuck not

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should i be passive aggressive until he realizes or talk about it like an adult?

ugh

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i’m so fucking angry and i can’t calm down and i can’t get it out

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my therapist just casually dropped the line “well that’s from the ptsd” like when did you give me a new diagnosis, how did i not notice

[ivythefangrill]

will this ever end

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no

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i just want to be happy with my body. i have spent two thirds of my life hating it and trying to make it smaller, and i am just so tired. i’ve tried getting better, tried to recover and i don’t know what to do anymore

i just want to be able to wear shorts without crying.

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tfw you relapse

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tfw you relapse again