I Am A Shonk In Hooman Skin Suit 🦈

Ello world :3 They/She 21 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈|| Trying to find myself This blog is when my brain goes talk talk but no where to put

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i feel like the joker bahaha, i am laughing to myself on the train about laughing to myself and ppl r looking at me which makes it funnier the world is so fucken weird like fuck also is very silly gosh i kinda feel embarrassed posting this but i also love how weird i am like i can experience all this weirdness through myself is cool

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wtf am i doing, what is going on?

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Dae is alos one of my best fwenss but it also means does anyone ever isnt tgat cool! Its dbt! Its 2 thingies same time! So smart

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Dae dae?

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I think i need me some dbt nom nom nom

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Merow

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TW: SH

I self harmed. I cut myself i wanted it to scar i am struggling i want to see the pain i want to feel care and love to myself i want others to know im trying its so hard to be hooman. I am lost trying to find our way. Please forgive me, please have patience with me, please dont judge me, please be kind, i am struggling. I think thats what i want external wound to say. Pls take care of ur self charlotte. Merow im sorry.

I want to share my experience with others my fwend recently told me they share and hope others will relate and feel comforted i hope my share is mutually beneficial as well.

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I think we r all cells uk, the earth is the body, and she is beautiful. Want to preserve for future cells

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Hey society im fucken autistic can you let me be? Im trans ok! Now you can understand will you be ok? No not enough why tf do i need to filter down my behaviors into neat little packets for society to have compassion and accept us. We r all hoomans man, just get over it.

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I ORDERED A COMPOUND MICROSCOPE and im so happppyy

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Luna: Charlotte what are you running away from? Me? Uncomfortableness?

Yes, i dint want to feel uncomfortable and icky, ive felt that way for so loooong its not fair

Celeste: There is no fair there’s stunning you, kind caring playful, you kil kitty

I know but it is so tuff and i have to go to wirk snd life abhhhhhh it feels a lil too much sometimes

Luna: ik dw we got you

Janet: but your litterly gonna die get fired and lose all your friends when you feel that way uk, it is not ok.

There

Celeste: there

Luna: there

Do not worry summer child, i will be there i will be there every second of every minute of every hour.

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the dubious philosophy of salmon

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😭 🐠 🐠

I want to take a trip here with someone.

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TW: Drugs

**nitress what ehay what what**

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Theres people in my life that are looking out for me, that is something i need to fully process. Like they care even with how i perceive my flaws. I guess i just always think im worse then they know? And if i am they really wouldnt be interested uk, not being enough.

But some people seem to care even after i share my flaws, they seem to care even more and it makes me scared, it makes me think to what extent would they care until what point and I exist at the point and my current point at the same time.

Maybe its the choices i make the ones i choose to listen to? I think everyone deserves love so what about the evil me? Does a pure evil me exist? Does everyone have a pure evil and good them thereby making good and evil non existent in a way?

I do make caring choices about others. I do think mean things sometimes, i do choose which person in my head i listen too which one is trying to protect and doubt me and which is tryingto help in a more helpful way lol. They all deserve love even the bad parts love rhem with kindness and try to help them but also understand that i am a collection of beings, a system if you will. I think many things, many possibilities enter my mind. And that can be helpful.

People care about me, they must see me, tbh i think they see apart of all of me, maybe not right a way maybe not everything but a small part of everything and they choose to still interact with me, i need to make this decision about myself. It is really difficult though, it is hard to be kind to myself ok ok enough rant might at more later

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I need to do more research about RSD