This post is dedicated for @mccall-me-maurice (Mack) @meqkoi (Mel) because, as Iām sure most of the fandom has noticed, theyāve gone dark.
Iām not sure if theyāll ever see the posts weāre making, or if theyāre in the mental space to reply/respond.
I want to start by saying that losing you both, however long you may be gone, be it a day or forever, is devastating to all of us. Youāve both contributed so much to the fandom, as well as showing amazing kindness to those of us who have gone through something or just needed a friend to talk to.
Personally, logging on to tumblr everyday and seeing that either of you have posted, or replies to a comment I made, or answered an ask, or anything, always makes me smile. You both have truly been the highlights of my day ever since I joined the lotf fandom. On my rough days, rereading your fanfics and commenting on your art can make whatever pain I might be feeling ease, even if only slightly.
Mel, your Butterfly AU is always amazing when you update it, making me confused and even more inthralled with every chapter. Your art + character asks for the lotf boys is always hilarious and makes me so so happy. Your art especially is beautiful and wonderfully detailed. I especially love the way you draw Jack and Simon. You may not think your art is good, and it may not bring you feelings of joy- but it certainly makes me happier every single time you post.
Mack, you must know how much I love and value your art, be it fanfiction or character art. Every single au youāve ever written is beautiful, every single oneshot and every single drawing youāve ever done has made me feel so happy.
Interacting with your OCās has been fun, however short that time was, if you never come back. Interacting with jack and Ralph on your jalph blog ( @jalph-speaks ), with Maurice and Sam on your mauram blog ( @adventures-of-maurice ), with you in comment section of posts, of fanfics on Ao3, through tags (because I was too scared to actually talk to you because ohmygodtheyresocool when I first joined the fandom) of reblogged posts, through Instagram and tumblr and every other little interaction even if itās just one like. I want you to know that I love you so so much and every single interaction has made me so happy. You are truly such an inspiration to me, and I think I speak for the entire fandom, you inspired me to start posting fanfiction and were so so kind.
There is no pressure to start posting again, or to ever come back. I just want both you to know that your art is enough and it is beautiful. It has made such an impact on all of us, itās made me so much happier in life.
Again, I donāt know if this will ever reach either of you, if youāll ever come back to see it, if you even have the desire to come back, but I wanted to make this post anyway because if it does I want you both to know that every single thing I said is true. @forever-until-the-end-of-time @spontaneousamber @ralphswilltolive @afrasia-art @that-one-pighead-demon and @clara-is-an-artist have all made posts and/or reblogged the posts weāve made in support of you both. @forever-until-the-end-of-time has made this post proposing the idea of having a day to celebrate the two of you like we did with @chasing-the-western-sun and I would be honored to participate in this, anything to help you both realize that you mean so much to each and every one of us.
Iād also like to mention @chasing-the-western-sun again, as theyāve gone through something similar ā feeling like their art isnāt good enough, etc. I want you to know that you were the first person in the fandom that I interacted with, and your kindness helped me gain the confidence to start writing for the fandom, branch out and talk with more people.
I love you all, and seeing that youāve been in pain or have had self-doubt as artists/writers has caused me pain. I never want any of you to feel that self doubt, even though I know it is something that happens to everyone, I just want you, Mel and Mack, to know weāll miss you dearly.
Ily both with all my heart, and I hope that I wonāt lose some of the closest friends Iāve ever had, but I understand if this is what you need for your own mental stability.