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A space where I could show my self without hesitation

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Future.

Ocean.

Ende.

Lagu.

Senandung.

Bahagia.

Bangga.

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Over, start and over again.

Hey..

You are not as much here anymore. But you’re still there.

But do you know, just like he didn’t say anything when he started it, he didn’t say anything when he ended it. I am the one who didn’t have any clue of it.

When I thought that we still had it, he acted like we had nothing anymore. He never told me that he wanted it to end.

It really broke my heart when I heard him saying that we have nothing anymore. That he didn’t want to fight anymore. There’s nothing left to fight for because I didn’t feel the same way he did.

BS, I found that he has someone else to cheer for. He’s now preparing something special for her. I am totally heartbroken. I should stop, shouldn’t I BS?

I have to.

But BS, it’s not going to be easy. I see him everyday. It’ll be heartbrokening, tiring.

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Better today

It is not as bad as it was yesterday.

There’s much less tears than there was yesterday.

Much more calmer.

Though you’re still there.

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All your attention brings me to tears. I am overwhelmed. All I’ve been longing for is coming true. Though we still have a very long way to go, and I do not know where this will lead us to, but at this very moment, I am happy.

I keep saying not to expect to much. It will hurt again if it does not happen.

On my way back to the last place, few days before going home, 22 Sep 2017

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It's a lie..

A super duper big huge one.

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After the trip

I miss you, so much that I am stupid.

Thanks to my stupidity, we are still nowhere now.

16.sep.2017

Globalfront 8th floor, while making the slides

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That's okay. That's okay. Different world. Different circle. That's okay. That's okay. Different frequency. Don't be sad. It's okay. Couple months left. Hanging there!

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Only a couple of hours with you yet the impact has been days long. Only few hours with you cruely destroys my months get along. Only few words have been spoken, once or twice glances exchanged, rare look. But still you completely win me with only a hook.

April 21, 2017

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At least it's better than yesterday Oct62016

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You are here, yet so far away. Ichikawa-shi, Sep 11 2016

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Start a new fresh.

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Doctor, I have a question. Thinking is done in the head. But when I think about someone, why does my heart hurt instead of my head?

GJS - Beautiful Mind 28.07.2016 1.18AM

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Life without you, is it possible?

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A happy dream has a power to make your whole day misserable #ISawYouInMyDreamLastNightAgain #StopComingToMyDream

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Hey, I miss you. I do. I always do. 😫 Subway, Pulang kampus. 11.15 PM

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Again, it was nice to see you in my dream last night. But the misery after is still lingering untill now..