@bullseyelover, real name madison currier, is an antisemitic nazi and manipulative abuser. ALL THE EVIDENCE CAN BE FOUND HERE. they pretended to be my friend for the last 4 months, dming me constantly and using me to do things for them. i put up with their abuse because i have BPD and was afraid they would abandon our "friendship", which is probably why they sought me out in the first place. they never saw me as a person, only an object.
a couple weeks ago i received a horrific anonymous antisemitic hate message. bullseyelover, or madison, tried to manipulate me into thinking it was someone else but i eventually found out it was them who had sent it. ever since that day they have been relentlessly attacking me on all of their social media, "investigating" my jewishness, spreading lies and fake screenshots, having people harass me constantly, everything they could possibly think of to silence me. and as many times as i've begged them to make a truce they won't. they are that full of hatred and still don't see me as a person, just an object in their way.
MADISON CURRIER IS A NAZI. @bullseyelover IS A NAZI.
please, please, please report all of their accounts. they have been slandering my name with their lies to discredit me across their twitter, instagram, tiktok, and tumblr. i intend to prosecute them for defamation and forgery soon but in the meantime PLEASE HELP ME DEFEND MYSELF AGAINST THIS DISGUSTING ABUSE OF POWER.
once again all of the evidence is posted on my twitter, and if they get that taken down i will repost it all here.
i love this scene and how the contrast between the two plays out, i love drawing emotion and interaction and it's just beautifully done here so yeah...
Evaluator: Dr. Caroline Perez, Ph.D., Forensic Psychology
Date of Report: 04/18/2017
Classification: CONFIDENTIAL — INTERNAL USE ONLY
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SUBJECT SUMMARY
Benjamin Poindexter is a thirty-year-old Jewish Caucasian male, currently under review following concerns regarding conduct, emotional stability, and suitability for continued service within the Bureau. Subject’s personal history is marked by early childhood trauma, disrupted attachments, and longstanding difficulties with authority and social integration. His adult record, while notable for commendations in field performance, is complicated by behavioral irregularities that warrant closer psychological scrutiny.
SUBJECT BACKGROUND
Benjamin Poindexter was placed into state custody at the age of nine following the deaths of both parents in 1995. He was subsequently transferred to the Lyndhurst Boys’ Home, where records document an early pattern of social withdrawal, oppositional behavior, and episodic aggression. His disciplinary file includes incidents of property destruction, retaliatory violence toward peers, and rigid adherence to routines. Staff noted unusual precision in tasks requiring coordination or focus, as well as difficulty tolerating perceived disorder in shared spaces.
In adolescence, subject displayed what staff described as “mechanical politeness” toward adults, though emotional reciprocity appeared limited. He excelled in athletics, particularly baseball, where he demonstrated remarkable consistency of aim and control. Reports indicate that athletic performance functioned as both a coping mechanism and an outlet for obsessive-compulsive traits: repeated practice, fixation on “perfect games,” and distress when unable to maintain flawless performance.
Following high school, subject enlisted in the United States Army, completing tours in Iraq between 2005–2008. Command reports describe him as “precise, efficient, and reliable under pressure,” though occasional concerns were raised regarding rigidity, difficulty adapting to orders outside standard operating procedure, and episodic irritability following traumatic exposure. Service records highlight multiple deployments in Iraq, commendations for marksmanship, and rapid advancement to First Lieutenant. However, accompanying notes reference “rigid black-and-white thinking” and “difficulty with interpersonal trust.” Psychological screenings post-deployment document exposure to combat-related trauma consistent with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, including intrusive recollections, hypervigilance, and sleep disturbance. Subject was honorably discharged and later recruited into the FBI for advanced marksmanship and tactical roles.
Subject was later recruited into the FBI, where his high performance in tactical operations and advanced training in counter-sniper strategy drew attention. During Bureau tenure, subject has been noted for both exemplary field accuracy and concerning interpersonal detachment. He presents as highly controlled in appearance and speech but exhibits patterns of internal volatility, including rapid mood shifts, intense preoccupation with perceived slights, and compulsive behavioral routines (re-checking locks, strict spatial alignment of objects, repetitive counting sequences). While recognized for exceptional precision and situational control, multiple colleagues described him as “hard to read,” “overly formal,” and “isolated.” A recurring theme in peer statements is his inability to distinguish professional distance from personal detachment, creating difficulty in forming sustained workplace bonds.
Psychological intake further indicates persistent intrusive recollections of combat, hypervigilance in crowded environments, and intermittent insomnia. Subject reports reliance on pharmacological intervention. Subject is currently prescribed Escitalopram (Lexapro) for mood stabilization, Sertraline (Zoloft) for anxiety regulation, and non-benzodiazepine sleep aids (Zolpidem, as needed) for chronic insomnia. Compliance is consistent, though subject has expressed frustration regarding side effects, including emotional blunting.
Clinical observations suggest diagnostic impressions of Borderline Personality Disorder, evidenced by unstable self-concept, chronic feelings of emptiness, and reliance on external “anchors” for stability. Features of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder are also present, manifesting in ritualized order, compulsion for precision, and intolerance of disruption. Symptoms of PTSD remain active. Evaluator notes also indicate an underlying struggle with sexual identity; subject identifies as homosexual but demonstrates discomfort discussing intimate relationships, appearing conflicted between desire for attachment and fear of exposure or rejection. Clinical impression suggests difficulties in identity integration, intimacy, and trust, compounded by borderline personality organization and obsessive-compulsive symptomatology. Subject demonstrates fear of abandonment, oscillating between idealization and devaluation of others, paired with rigid moral frameworks that appear self-derived rather than socially normative.
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BEHAVIORAL OBSERVATIONS
During clinical interviews, subject presents as neatly groomed and rigidly composed. Posture is consistently upright, shoulders squared, with a controlled stillness that suggests deliberate effort to contain movement. Despite this apparent restraint, subject’s motor activity reveals constant undercurrent agitation. Fingers tap rhythmically against his thigh, knuckles flex and crack, and he occasionally rolls a small object (coin, pen, paperclip) between his fingers when available. These behaviors are subtle stimming patterns, seemingly employed to manage internal tension.
Eye contact is one of the most striking features of his presentation. When engaged in conversation, subject locks his gaze with the evaluator’s for prolonged periods, unblinking and unnervingly steady. This creates an impression of intensity that borders on intimidation, though subject appears unaware of the effect. Notably, when asked questions regarding emotional experiences or personal vulnerability, eye contact is abruptly broken. Subject will glance away, often downward and to the left, accompanied by a brief tightening of the jaw. This shift is a reliable indicator of either concealment or emotional discomfort. In moments of disclosure that skirt truth, the duration of eye contact shortens, suggesting that honesty correlates with intensity, while falsehood or vulnerability compels retreat.
Subject demonstrates high cognitive control over verbal output. Responses are measured, often brief, and carefully structured to minimize ambiguity. There is evidence of conscious impression management. He attempts to appear cooperative, stable, and capable of functioning within institutional parameters. However, beneath this presentation, micro-expressions suggest irritation with the evaluation process itself. His voice remains monotone under scrutiny, yet when discussing tactical operations or marksmanship, his speech becomes animated, cadence quickens, and affect briefly surfaces as genuine enthusiasm.
Evaluator notes manipulative undertones. Subject appears to intuitively adjust demeanor based on perceived expectations. Adopting politeness when challenged, humor when deflecting, and silence when withholding. This fluidity suggests both high situational awareness and deliberate calibration of self-presentation. At times, his attempts to demonstrate “normality” verge on overcompensation, rendering the performance uncanny, too precise, too rehearsed.
Physiological signs during session include frequent adjustments of cuffs, collar, or sleeves, interpreted as both self-soothing behavior and need for physical control. Subject exhibits heightened startle reflex to unexpected noises, consistent with hypervigilance. His body remains oriented toward the exit at all times. When seated, feet remain flat and ready for movement, never crossing legs, reinforcing a persistent readiness posture.
Emotional expression is constricted. Laughter appears practiced, often without congruent facial involvement. Smiles do not reach the eyes. Affect is otherwise blunted, with the exception of rare flashes of irritation when discussing past authority figures, or rare glimmers of warmth when referencing past mentors or guiding figures. These attachments appear central to his sense of orientation, functioning as stabilizing forces in his otherwise unstable interpersonal world.
The overall impression is of a subject attempting to tightly regulate both environment and self-presentation, yet whose compulsive mannerisms and inconsistencies betray underlying psychological instability. His constant movement, fixation on gaze, and tactical manipulation of social dynamics point to both defensive rigidity and rehearsed attempts to mask deeper volatility.
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DIAGNOSTIC IMPRESSIONS
Subject’s presentation is consistent with a constellation of psychiatric concerns spanning multiple diagnostic categories. While he retains outward functionality and demonstrates exceptional occupational performance, his psychological profile reveals significant underlying pathology that compromises long-term stability and interpersonal adaptability.
1. Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD):
Subject exhibits a longstanding pattern of unstable self-concept, oscillating between overconfident certainty in his professional role and deep-seated insecurity regarding his intrinsic worth. He demonstrates an intense need for external anchors (mentors, authority figures, intimate partners) to maintain psychological equilibrium. When deprived of these stabilizing influences, subject experiences rapid decompensation: heightened irritability, impulsivity, and internal chaos. His attachments are often idealized, bordering on obsessive, with an expectation that the figure provide absolute guidance or constancy. Disruptions to these bonds trigger disproportionate emotional responses, including anger, despair, or withdrawal. Chronic emptiness and fear of abandonment are consistent themes.
2. Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD):
Obsessive features are pronounced, particularly regarding order, precision, and control of environment. Subject demonstrates intolerance of ambiguity or disorder; minor disruptions (e.g., a crooked picture frame, misplaced object) provoke disproportionate distress. Compulsive routines serve as self-regulation strategies: ritualized hand movements, repeated checking of personal equipment, and insistence on symmetry. These compulsions reinforce a sense of safety and predictability. However, their rigidity contributes to interpersonal strain, as subject imposes the same standards of order on others.
3. Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) – Childhood and Adult Origins:
Subject’s trauma symptoms originate both in early childhood experiences and later life events. Exposure to parental abuse, neglect, and the violent deaths of both parents during formative years contributed to early-onset PTSD. Childhood PTSD is evidenced by hypervigilance, intrusive recollections, persistent startle responses, and emotional numbing observable in early behavioral records. These symptoms established a foundation of chronic anxiety, difficulty trusting others, and overreliance on self-imposed structure as coping mechanisms.
Combat and occupational trauma during military and FBI service have compounded these preexisting vulnerabilities. Subject exhibits persistent intrusive memories of combat scenarios, hypervigilance in potentially threatening environments, exaggerated startle reflexes, and chronic sleep disruption. Nightmares are recurrent, and subject relies on non-benzodiazepine sleep aids for partial symptom management. Trauma-related hyperarousal and avoidance behaviors are intensified by the overlay of childhood PTSD, creating a lifelong pattern of defensive vigilance and emotional constriction.
Evaluator notes that the subject’s obsession with precision extends beyond pathology into adaptive functioning. His marksmanship, tactical planning, and situational awareness benefit from these traits. Nevertheless, the same perfectionism fosters a brittle psyche: success is mandatory, and failure, no matter how minor, generates disproportionate self-criticism.
While subject identifies as homosexual, he exhibits discomfort integrating this identity into broader self-concept. He discusses relationships rarely and with guarded language, suggesting fear of judgment or rejection. He presents as capable of deep attachment but simultaneously conflicted, oscillating between desire for intimacy and fear of exposure. This struggle may compound his borderline features, reinforcing themes of secrecy, longing, and shame.
Subject does not exhibit traditional empathy as commonly defined, but rather operates within a rigid internalized code. Loyalty, truthfulness, and precision are elevated to moral absolutes. Deviations from this framework (e.g., dishonesty, incompetence, disorder) evoke disproportionate hostility. This code provides structure, but its rigidity undermines adaptability in social and institutional contexts.
Overall, subject meets diagnostic criteria for Borderline Personality Disorder, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, and PTSD with both childhood and adult origins, with additional complicating factors of sexual identity conflict and perfectionistic obsessive traits. Medication (Escitalopram, Sertraline, Zolpidem) provides partial symptom mitigation; however, subject demonstrates limited insight into the maladaptive elements of his psychological profile. Prognosis for long-term stability is cautious, contingent on sustained support structures and continued pharmacological management.
I both love and hate drawing such clothes, because in the final result it looks cool, but while you are drawing all this you can go crazy (and I don’t want to yet)
