Thick Thighs, Thin Patience

Minnesotan meteorologist. 30 something. Dog mom, toddler mom, wife. I used to be a lot of things, trying to navigate the next chapter. Blank blogs get blocked.

[cumulusthighs]

I’d love to go back to bed, but apparently my back says that’s not an option. I’ve been in so much pain lately and I finally saw my surgeon this week. I’m doing a round of steroids to see if it helps calm things down and I’m getting an mri next week to see how much worse things have gotten. Probably going to look into doing a nerve ablation or something. The next surgery step would be fusion and I really don’t wanna do that.

I didn’t get much done yesterday. But I did get my hair done for the first time since March. I’m hoping to keep working on sorting things in the basement into consign/donate/toss piles. I got 4 boxes of Nolan clothes sorted yesterday and am planning on taking them to once upon a child. I have therapy at noon, which is kind of a day killer but whatever.

[cringecorp]

they say you can't pour from an empty cup but i've been doing it my whole life and aside from all of these mysterious ailments it's working out great for me

[butterflypeaflowertea]

it’s so nice being fond of people on here :-) like yeah maybe we only know each other in a very limited way but i care abt you guys & hearing abt your lives makes me happy & i like listening to the things u have to say & i really truly wish the best for you all!!! sending my love from a couple states, countries, oceans away

[konoko]

i go on tumblr, talk to myself, then leave

[ghost-faces-deactivated20250916]

do you like my repetitive and outdated music taste

[pyritecoin-deactivated20241130]

"oh you still use tumblr? can I see?" no. that's where I keep my demons

[cumulusthighs]

Still not dead.

I did take that FMLA. I’m off until the last week of October. With the government shutdown ongoing, I’m technically on furlough because they can’t charge any leave. I feel slightly guilty about this because this means there’s a very high chance that I will still get paid for this time when this type of FMLA is typically unpaid. But also- fuck ‘em. I’m getting into my second week of not working and it doesn’t feel weird?? Idk what that means. I’ve been able to go to a few yoga classes, walk Nolan to/from school a couple days, make actual dinners, and spend time with friends. We leave for Napa a week from today. We were trying to make reservations and book things the other day but even that felt overwhelming. I know it’s a ways out but I’ve started looking at the weather and it looks like it’ll be on the cooler side and possibly rainy for a good chunk of it. Trying not to spiral because I know it’ll shift, but the ensembles are like mmmmm wanna bet?

We’re having issues with Nolan’s daycare again. He’s still not 100% potty trained and has been moved into the preschool classroom. He’s still refusing/not interested in pooping on the potty, so he’s having a lot of accidents and the teacher is getting annoyed. Again, he’s 3 and it’s not even a little bit weird for him to not be there yet. He’s not even the only kid in class with this issue. They also brought up the biting, despite the fact that he’s biting less than once a week. I once again straight up asked if they were asking us to find a new center and they pretty much said yes. I don’t understand how they’re not able to handle this totally normal behavior. The center director pointed out that every time Nolan has an accident, it takes one teacher away from the other kids for 5-10 minutes and that’s ’not fair’ and they don’t have a changing table in that room, so it’s extra hard. Failing to see how this is my problem. I am also frustrated that he isn’t bothered by pooping his pants and we have tried all kinds of sticker charts/treats/schedules and we have maybe a 40% success rate. They didn’t offer any solutions, much like a year ago with the biting. Just a ‘yeah, it’s hard…’ Okay, what would you like me to do about it? How can we work together on him to fix this? So, we did end up touring the other center in our town and got much better vibes. We were honest and said ‘look, he’s got a history of being a biter and he’s still having accidents 1-2 times a day’ and the other center director didn’t even blink. But it’s a smaller center (no big indoor play space) and it’s too far from the house to walk to. I also worry this big of a change will only make things worse. He’s been going to his current daycare since he was 4 months old. He’s had more or less the same kids with him through this time. Why should we have to uproot him because they refuse to accommodate something that is truly not that big of a deal? I asked about moving him back to the early preschool room he was in for about a month back in late summer since they have a changing table, and she said they’d have to move another kid back to toddler because ratios. There’s also been a decent amount of staff turnover, so I think there’s probably more issues than we realize.

Annnnnyway. Yeah.

[cumulusthighs]

I managed to get out of my first three mids, which is better than having to do all seven of them, but fuck me I can’t keep doing this…

[cumulusthighs]

Nolan has decided he’s just not going to even try to make it to the potty anymore (4-5+ accidents a day for the past two days). He then fights us whenever we try to take him to the bathroom or get him cleaned up.

My boss told me that my name has come up from “more than one person” concerning my contributions to bad morale/toxic workplace/bullying, then proceeded to bring past shit up (I’m talking 1-2 years ago) because I assume he wanted me to ‘confess’ to my role in them. I truly have no idea what he’s talking about. This was 30 seconds after telling me that I’m getting a peer award for leadership and that he’s been impressed with my growth in that area. So, got to cry at work again after making it almost a whole month.

I haven’t had the energy to make dinner or eat much of anything for the past few days. Despite this, the kitchen is somehow a disaster.

The neighbor kid mowed our lawn on Wednesday (very shittily) and it already needs to be cut again. We paid him to do it this week and last week because I’m sick of being the only one to do it because of how schedules work out.

I hate my body again lately. I hate all my clothes and am so uncomfortable in everything.

My therapist found out she has cancer in multiple organs/systems a few weeks ago. She’s already had two bone surgeries and 7 rounds of chemo. It’s hard to talk about how shitty my things are because (as always) it could be so much worse and it just doesn’t feel right.

*screaming into the void*

[butchfagminotaur]

we need a slur for people who proudly use chatgpt tbh

[butchfagminotaur]

see the thing is a good insult term needs to be short and snappy three syllables MAX know?

[butchfagminotaur]

NOW WE’RE COOKIN’ WITH GAS!!!

[cumulusthighs]

Survived another trip to Atlanta to see the in laws. Only almost started shit (politically motivated) three times.

[politijohn]

[cumulusthighs]

I see one of my selfies is making the rounds again… holy notifications.

[cumulusthighs]

Nolan's latest bedtime stall tactic... he takes his jammies and pull-up off and then pees in his bed. He's done it twice this week. WHY 🫠🫠🫠

[cumulusthighs]

Today’s vibes

[cumulusthighs]

I have been soooo not interested/able to do anything outside of forecasting at work and now this morning I have a meeting with some EMs/Hennepin county officials that I have not done a damn thing to prepare for 🙃🙃🙃

[cumulusthighs]

First overnight weekend date in waaaay too long.