Starting a new chapter
Trigger warning: Weight, weight loss, mental health.
I'm sitting here in complete silence, feeling a heaviness in my heart. Yesterday was the first time in a really long time that I realized how much weight I've gained and how horrible my health really is.
The last five years has been the most beautiful years of my life. Becoming a mother has been the most magical thing that has ever happened to me. I've grown in ways I never could imagine and my mental health has been so much better.
However, I've gone from weighting about 50 kilos my entire adult life, to suddenly weighing 74 kilos. Even writing that number hurts. The reasons for my weight gain is varied and complicated, some reasons within my control and others out of my control. The most important thing is that change is within my control - and it's the only important thing right now.
I have a deep and intense desire to change. I want to feel beautiful, comfortable and proud of myself - I want to be able to run just to feel the joy of my heart beating and I want to feel strong again.
I guess this is just lots of ramblings to say that I'm currently on a journey towards someone I'm proud of - and if you're on a similar journey, please tell me so we can follow and support each other.
