Cuts up, cuts out

20-something butch dad

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incredible new shirt I've been stalking online for months and finally caught the last one at a huge discount, fits to come

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longsleeve and ultra thin undershirt I also got from the same sale

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thank you based madoka

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baby is strafing today

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When I see parents with babies around Gub's age who are visibly coping much worse than K and I it makes me so irrationally anxious, my gut response is like "holy shit parenting is a nightmare" as if I'm secretly suffering as much as they are and haven't realized it or for some reason I should be. I have to consciously refocus and remember that I am simply not having their experience, I've been a dad for 10 months and have been really loving it actually.

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They talk about never being able to get work done unless someone is babysitting or paying for daycare and never doing anything fun for themselves and being constantly overwhelmed and in the trenches and it makes me second guess my own feelings about it and freak out a little bit about what a huge mistake I've apparently made as I'm sitting there living through parenthood myself and having a pretty great time. That just isn't how it is for me. K and I do fun stuff. We've only had an actual date out by ourselves once but mostly we just bring Gub with us to all the places we went before he was born (except movie theaters). I know we have a perfect unicorn angel baby that makes everything very easy for us but there is absolutely a certain amount of voluntary suffering in choosing to never do anything fun since your baby was born, you just gotta take 'em places and deal with some inconveniences along the way. Do NOT just put being a person on pause, man, you aren't on newborn house arrest anymore.

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Honestly even as a newborn we took him places. He would sleep intermittently and shit himself and spit up constantly and need to be rocked nonstop and you know what? We just fucking took him places anyway. We would go to coffee shops and change him and hold burp cloths under his mouth and take turns rocking him and had a very nice time at the coffee shops. When he was two months old we flew with him to another state to visit family friends and see all our favorite places from when we lived there and he slept, nursed, spit up, and shit himself on the flight and in the airport and we changed his diaper in an airplane bathroom and changed his outfit and changed our shirts and we were tired but that's it, we were just tired. We landed and drove him around in a bucket seat and went to restaurants and rocked him and strapped him onto our chests and walked around sweating and getting spit up on in bookstores and art museums and it was tiring and we had a fantastic time while also being tired. This is when he was easily ten times more difficult than he is now and we just muscled through it and decided not to get upset about how exhausting it was and just enjoy ourselves while also being tired. It's so much easier now than it was then. Life isn't the same as it was before he was born and it's fine, I'm happy and doing things I did before just differently or not literally every second I feel like doing them. I am absolutely not saying that our experience is typical but some people seem so broken by having a baby in ways that I don't understand. To a certain extent you have to choose not to suffer.

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When I see parents with babies around Gub's age who are visibly coping much worse than K and I it makes me so irrationally anxious, my gut response is like "holy shit parenting is a nightmare" as if I'm secretly suffering as much as they are and haven't realized it or for some reason I should be. I have to consciously refocus and remember that I am simply not having their experience, I've been a dad for 10 months and have been really loving it actually.

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They talk about never being able to get work done unless someone is babysitting or paying for daycare and never doing anything fun for themselves and being constantly overwhelmed and in the trenches and it makes me second guess my own feelings about it and freak out a little bit about what a huge mistake I've apparently made as I'm sitting there living through parenthood myself and having a pretty great time. That just isn't how it is for me. K and I do fun stuff. We've only had an actual date out by ourselves once but mostly we just bring Gub with us to all the places we went before he was born (except movie theaters). I know we have a perfect unicorn angel baby that makes everything very easy for us but there is absolutely a certain amount of voluntary suffering in choosing to never do anything fun since your baby was born, you just gotta take 'em places and deal with some inconveniences along the way. Do NOT just put being a person on pause, man, you aren't on newborn house arrest anymore.

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When I see parents with babies around Gub's age who are visibly coping much worse than K and I it makes me so irrationally anxious, my gut response is like "holy shit parenting is a nightmare" as if I'm secretly suffering as much as they are and haven't realized it or for some reason I should be. I have to consciously refocus and remember that I am simply not having their experience, I've been a dad for 10 months and have been really loving it actually.

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they did decide to say that in ways that were unkind toward people with smaller dicks

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incredible new shirt I've been stalking online for months and finally caught the last one at a huge discount, fits to come

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i want to learn to draw but i don't want to get too invested in my first drawing. so this triangle will be my official first drawing (since deciding to learn to draw)

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this is actually a really really good start because once you get really good at triangles you can actually perfecrly draw a 3D model of anything

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Some dumb cunt is always trying to add bell peppers to perfectly good food.

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cooking bell peppers and pissing myself off at what a dogshit vegetable they are

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I like finding out about an interest/hobby and skipping straight to the exit level stuff.

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Amazing view of foreskin and low hanging balls for licking and tuging on

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pills that make you cut monkey hair

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:)

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tricking my infant son into biting a lemon #radfem