𝕓𝕖 𝕤𝕠𝕗𝕥.

[cvsima]

i’ll be on to do replies on cosima + write new threads on ronan probably tomorrow after school i have SO MUCH to do tonight + it’s killing my muse but i’ll be back tomorrow or maybe late tonight when my shits done <3

[cvsima]

𝖘𝖒𝖘 –– cosima & honey.

HONEY: lmao so you hooked up with another girl and somehow you still thought you were straight ? i'm CACKLING you are a fucking joke.

HONEY: i don't think you really understand. you used me for your little bicurious science experiment and then disregarded me because you were too busy kissing ass. and now heaven forbid i want you to hear about how you hurt me ! you can't even allow me the right to tell you how i felt.

HONEY: i see you've got on your clown costume again. i stg you are the most annoying person i know.

HONEY: you weren't protecting you, you were protecting your career ! you weren't in denial or unsure cosima . i'm so SICK and tired of you acting like we shared a little peck on the cheek !

COSIMA: that's.... a gross mentality, honey. i was literally nineteen and going through a million life changes. i had no IDEA what i was feeling on top of literally entering into a giant industry that shames people for being anything but straight.

COSIMA: you were the first girl i ever did anything with and obviously i knew that i liked it and liked you but i didn't know what to do with that, i didn't know what it meant. i didn't know what my brother would think, what my fans would think. and then my management team told me it's a big no-go, to not even think about it. what am i supposed to do?

COSIMA: i get that it was selfish. i do. but i was also young and spent my whole life trying to get where i was. sorry i didn't throw that all away for you. you were ready to commit, i wasn't. that's the truth but that doesn't make it an experiment. if that had happened today, i'd be ready to commit even if it wasn't out in the open. i literally wasn't emotionally ready to take that step yet.

COSIMA: i know that i hurt you. i get it. i'm not trying to act like i'm innocent. but i was completely honest with you because i WASN'T sure what i was feeling and i knew i wasn't ready. that's a natural part of sexuality so don't try to shame me for that.

COSIMA: you can tell me how you feel. how i hurt you. but you're not going to tear me down over text because you THINK you know how i felt. you THINK you know why i did what i did. clearly, you don't. so get your head on straight and come talk to me with some actual fucking sense. please.

[cvsima]

𝖘𝖒𝖘 –– cosima & honey.

HONEY: sorry for what? dipping out when i told you that i liked you? or trying to start a casual conversation with me as if nothing happened?

HONEY: uhhh i’m pretty sure you made your own contribution too when you stopped treating me like a friend.

HONEY: are you fucking with me right now?

HONEY: then show me. don’t text me out of the blue just because you saw me and felt guilty.

COSIMA: dipping out? you knew... i wasn't out. i didn't even know i was bi! YOU couldn't be friends with me anymore and i respected that because i knew it was my fault. i knew i wasn't ready.

COSIMA: and i am fully and completely acknowledging that something happened.

COSIMA: stopped treating you like a friend? you couldn't understand that i couldn't be public with whatever we were and immediately got into a new relationship how is that... even my fault

COSIMA: you just said you were glad i didn't come up to you! i saw you and i wanted to fucking talk! jesus, honey!

[cvsima]

𝖘𝖒𝖘 –– cosima & honey.

HONEY: hey.

HONEY: i’m glad you didn’t come up to me. i really wouldn’t have been expecting that. not sure how i would have reacted tbh

HONEY: .....

HONEY: thinking about me for what? i’m pretty sure we kind of established that we only speak to each other on birthdays.

HONEY: i’m fine, c. is that all?

COSIMA : i'm sorry. i shouldn't have said anything.

COSIMA : you established that. not me.

COSIMA : i just miss you. i always think about it. about how things should've ended differently. that's all.

[cvsima]

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖕 –– open.

[cvsima]

––– feat.  :  singularitics‌.

BEAU  :  drake  and  j  cole  bought  a  bunch  of  their  own  albums  at  a  best  buy  in  nyc BEAU  :  be  your  own  biggest  supporter  !! BEAU  :  you  can  always  hand  them  out  to  strangers  on  the  street

COSIMA  :  so  i’m  like  the  drake  +  j  cole  of  an  la  target COSIMA  :  hello  this  is  my  band  vortex  pls  take  an  album  they’re  $12  at  target  ur  welcome  !!!

[cvsima]

𝖘𝖒𝖘 –– cosima & honey.

COSIMA : hi.

COSIMA : i saw you at cr today and i was going to come talk

COSIMA : but i chickened out because you leaving me on read is less embarrassing than being denied in person

COSIMA : i've just been thinking about you a lot and wanted to know how you were. that's all.

[cvsima]

––– feat.  :  ofchristopher‌.

𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄, 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐃𝐄𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐘 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓  , christopher  feels  a  𝐁𝐔𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐃𝐄  at  cosima’s  words  .  he’s  immensely  proud  of  his  sister’s  growth  —  she’s  done  it  all  on  her  own  ,  no  matter  what  she  says  .  he may  have  lent  a  helping  hand  ,  back  when  cosima  was  a  teenager  but  this  ?  her  and  her  band’s  overwhelming  success  ?  he’s  had  nothing  to  do  with  that  —  it’s  been  𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐑  .  “  i’m  proud  of  you  ,  ‘seems  , ”  christopher  says  truthfully  ,  “  and  i’m  sure  your  second  album  will  be  an  even  bigger  hit  than  your  first  . ”  as  busy  as  christopher  is  today  (  and  it  seems  like  he’s  𝐀𝐋𝐖𝐀𝐘𝐒  busy  )  he’s  glad  to  take  a  break  to  spend  at  least  half  an  hour  with  his  baby  sister  .  “  𝐇𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐂  ,  ”  he  answers  her  question  ,  shrugging  ,  twirling  his  fork  in  his  pesto  pasta  .  “  had  a  meeting  with  the  social  media  team  earlier  and  it  felt  like  i was  in  a  different  world  .  i  have  𝐍𝐎 𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐀  what  …  tiktok  is  . ”

 DESPITE  THE  FACT  THAT  christopher  doesn’t  take  any  credit  for  cosima’s  success  ,  so  CONSISTENTLY  notes  that  HE’S  the  reason  she’s  successful  and  would  ALWAYS  find  that  to  be  true  .  “  thanks  ,  toph.  ”  cosima  never  had  the  support  of  their  parents  ,  but  ALWAYS  wanted  someone  to  be  proud  of  her  successes  ,  and  at  an  early  age  that  person  was  christopher  .  he  did  EVERYTHING  for  her  and  if  she  could  make  in  proud  in  return  ,  she  would  be  happy  .  “  your  job  is  ALWAYS  hectic  .  you  give  ME  a  lot  of  credit  but  i  have  no  idea  how  you  do  all  of  ...  THIS  .  ”  she  gestures  and  then  she  LAUGHS  ,  pulling  her  phone  from  her  purse  and  clicking  on  the  tiktok  app  .  she  didn’t  POST  ,  but  it  was  a  decent  enough  alternative  for  vine  .  “  you  remember  when  i  told  you  about  VINE  ?  well  ,  it’s  kinda  like  that  ––  it’s  an  app  with  short  VIDEOS  .  ”  she  explains  simply  ,  letting  a  new  on  the  for  you  page  play  through  for  him  .  “  it’s  dumb  but  some  of  them  are  funny.  ”  the  LEAST  she  could  do  for  her  big  brother  was  explain  SOCIAL  MEDIA  .  “  you’re  like  an  old  man  ,  toph  ,  you  gotta  get  with  the  times  !  "

[cvsima]

–––  feat.  :  nathansffs‌.

“i think i have a right to be a little dramatic if i must say.” nathan shrugged, surely he did miss hanging out with her, like A LOT. but he knew it was for the best, not wanting to interfere with her career and all. looking over to her as she sat onto the floor he laughed at her statement, “listen, i’m not even that big. i can hide behind a tree and BOOM, i’m invisible. so anyway, back to my first plan. you run, distract the guards, and i go in find the aliens and there, we can adopt it.”

 “  just  say  you  miss  me  and  move  on  ,  SAP  .  ”  she  TEASES  ,  though  she  DID  understand  the  dramatics  .  she  missed  him  too  ,  despite  the  decisions  that  had  been  made  between  them.  “  you’re  not  even  that  ––  you  are  well  over  an  entire  FOOT  bigger  then  me  ,  sasquatch  .  i’m  offended  that  you  think  YOU  should  be  the  one  to  find  our  alien  child  ,  but  FINE  .  you  run  in  and  scare  all  the  aliens  with  you  giant  structure  and  when  it  fails  ,  I’LL  go  in  and  find  the  aliens  and  THEN  we’ll  adopt  one.  ”

[cvsima]

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖕 –– open.

[cvsima]

––– feat.  :  svtherlcnds‌.

𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐲     :     so  you’re  saying  is  you  want  your  signed  copy  shipped  in  a  box  stuffed  with  chest  hair  for  safe  keeping 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐲     :     am  i  right  or  am  i  right  ?

COSIMA  :  you’re  only  right  if  you  have  a  big  ‘ol  death  wish  because  i  will  literally  murder  you   COSIMA  :  also  where  would  you  get  that  much  chest  hair  just  wondering

[cvsima]

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖕 –– open.

[cvsima]

––– feat.  :  naveentrembley‌.

NAVI : does this look like the face of someone being sarcastic?  NAVI : ofc, ofc why would i even question that !?

COSIMA  :  yes COSIMA  :  exactly  !  i  don’t  know  why  you  would  !

[cvsima]

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖕 –– open.

[cvsima]

–––  feat.  :  rainymcrnings‌.

ARCHER: i cannot be trusted with money anymore 

ARCHER: its pretty easy to pick out because its wicker and expensive as heck and i let the nice lady at target talk me into buying it 

ARCHER: i once got super drunk and bought a mascot costume off of amazon, and it wasn’t even close to halloween

COSIMA  :  you  could  get  like  a  financial  advisor  person  to  help  you  or  maybe  ...  don’t go  to  target  :/ COSIMA  :  does  it  looks  nice  at  ur  house  at  least  ?  do  u  love  ur  new  patio  set  ? COSIMA  :  well  !!!  you  just  prepared  yourself  early  !

[cvsima]

––– feat.  :  ariavgs‌.

aria took a short time to consider the offer  — yes she was hungry , & no , she didn’t want to deny the food . but aria was also extremely picky with what she puts inside her body , she didn’t care about what alcohol could do to her , or even drugs sometimes , yet there was certain types of food she just couldn’t eat  .  ❝  i mean how can i refuse an offer like that , right ? are you taking a break right now ? ❞   she finally said , offering a small smile to the blonde .  ❝  why do you have extra food anyway ? you said it’s a crime to waste it after all … ❞   she didn’t really care about the waste of food , actually .  ❝  so what you’ve got ? ❞ 

“  yeah  ,  i  was  here  writing  earlier  and  working  on  some  sounds  and  then  visited  my  brother  but  then  i  got  hungry  so  i  went  to  get  some  food  ,  and  now  i  have  too  MUCH  food  and  i  could’ve  gone  home  but  now  i’m  back  here  and  ––  you  know  the  rest.  ”  she  laughs  softly  ,  giving  the  bag  a  soft  wiggle  .  “  so  ––  it’s  a  long  story  but  i  think  i  accidentally  used  my  ...  fame  ,  i  guess.  i  wouldn’t  really  call  it  fame  but  ,  anyway  ,  they  accidentally  gave  me  the  wrong  order  and  it  wasn’t  a  huge  deal  but  they  got  like  ,  weird  and  insisted  i  take  extras  and  a  new  order  on  top  of  the  wrong  one  ,  so  ,  now  i  have  about  everything  on  their  menu  and  i  am  but  ONE  cosima  chase.  ”  she  speaks  ,  shrugging  her  shoulders  .  “  it’s  chinese  takeout  which  ,  yes  i  do  know  is  bad  for  you  ,  but  i  have  also  considered  that  it’s  delicious  and  from  the  best  place  in  la  .  you  know  ,  in  my  unprofessional  opinion.  ”

[cvsima]

––– feat.  :  stxrryems‌.

on her lunch break and never one to waste precious steps, emma had been walking around the cadence halls for nearly half an hour now. she was seldom disturbed on her walks, besides for the occasional wave from a friendly passerby, and the silence was enough to have her daydreaming. she was jarred, quickly and startlingly, from her thoughts of springtime and incessant mental loop of nightmarish one-hit-wonder ‘mmmbop’. although she jumped, she should have been thanking cosima. “no,” emma replied timidly, gaining a foolish grin at the prospect of eating food other than microwaved ramen. “condition implies that eating with you would be a bad thing. i’d be thrilled to have an excuse not to eat in the studio. i’ve been taking pictures of a new band’s recording process all day. a bit of a nightmare, really. they keep yelling at the producer for not making them sound like nickelback. i didn’t know anyone WANTED to sound like nickelback these days. to each his own, i suppose,” she mused, fumbling through the bag. “what’ve you got today?”

 at  the  first  response  ,  cosima’s  expression  shifts  to  a  frown  .  shes’s  sure  emma  has  a  good  reason  ––  maybe  she’s  busy  ,  but  as  cosima  goes  through  all  the  reasons  emma  may  have  denied  her  request  ,  the  other  adds  on  and  her  facial  expression  returns  to  a  smile  ,  relaxing  from  her  sudden  ANXIOUS  state  ,  despite  the  fact  that  she  was  SURE  the  other  would  have  a  good  reason  .  “  well  ,  maybe  not  a  bad  thing  ,  but  i  didn’t  know  if  you  were  busy  !  ”  she  counters  ,  a  smile  on  her  face  as  she  heads  somewhere  AWAY  from  the  studios  to  sit  and  eat  with  her  friend  .  “  ....nickleback.  of  all  bands  they  want  to  sound  like.  nickleback  ?  ”  she  laughs  out  a  LAUGH  ,  shaking  her  head.  “  i’m  calling  the  girls  right  now  and  telling  them  that  we’re  changing  our  sound  to  mimic  nickelback  and  only  THEN  will  we  be  a  true  band.  ”  she’s  laughing  again  ,  shaking  her  head.  “  chinese  takeout.  sesame  chicken,  orange  chicken.  about  fifty-two  million  egg  rolls.  maybe  soup  ?  i  honestly  don’t  know.  they  just  starting  putting  a  bunch  of  things  in  bags  and  apologizing  for  messing  up  my  order.  it  wasn’t  even  a  big  deal  !  ”  she  sighs  ,  a  soft  smile  on  her  face.  “  you’re  more  then  welcome  to  anything  in  the  boxes.  ”

[cvsima]

––– feat.  :  naveentrembley‌.

naveen is… not procrastinating, but recharging his brain. perhaps it’s in the form of watching netflix on his phone but that was his prerogative. things were a touch tense in the studio over creative differences, so he’s happy to take a breather. when cosima walks in, he pushes his headphones down around his neck and smiles. “ h e y,” he offers a lazy wave. “ oh, no actually. ” he takes the bag, stomach suddenly grumbling. “ that’s a condition i’m HAPPY to meet. ” naveen pauses, an eyebrow quirking. “ did you accidentally get extra or were you looking for someone to cheer up today ? ” 

 “  PERFECT  .  i  was  HOPING  that’s  what  you’d  say  .  ”  cosima  ,  proclaims  ,  happily  letting  naveen  help  himself  to  the  extra  food  in  the  bag  .  she  was  naturally  happy  ,  naturally  kind  ,  but  in  this  case  ,  he  just  happened  to  be  in  the  right  place  at  the  right  time  for  cosima’s  good  deed  of  the  day  to  be  inflicted  on  him  .  “  i  did  actually  accidentally  get  extra  !  i  actually  feel  a  little  bad.  ”  she  starts  to  explain  ,  sitting  next  to  naveen  .  “  i  ordered  mine  and  it  came  out  wrong  ––  but  i  wasn’t  trying  to  complain  !  i  was  going  to  just  take  it  but  they  insisted  that  they  fix  it  ,  but  it  didn’t  seem  like  they  were  that  friendly  until  they  really  paid  attention  to  me  .  i  think  this  was  the  first  time  i  think  they  did  it  because  they  knew  who  i  was  .  which  ,  not  necessary  ,  but  i  gave  them  a  big  tip  so  hopefully  my  moral  compass  is  okay.  ”  she’s  RAMBLING  ,  but  that  wasn’t  uncommon.  “  did  you  need  cheering  up  ,  though  ?  is  everything  okay  ?  ”

[cvsima]

𝖘𝖒𝖘 –– cosima & cyrus.

CYRUS: ...ok which shirt is it bc if it's That Shirt it might take a while

CYRUS: u know which I mean the one where I'm the fucking : / face on it and also blinking ITS EMBARRASSING

CYRUS: buuuuut uhhhh ya ig I can get u a new one ://// ig ://////

COSIMA: YES ITS THAT SHIRT CYRUS ITS MY FAVORITE SHIRT THAT I OWN

COSIMA: i am Not going to deny other merch but it is My Favorite shirt to wear and my heart is so broken i can't even sEW IT because it didn't rip on the hem

COSIMA: i love you i will give apple pay you money right now

[cvsima]

𝖘𝖓𝖆𝖕 –– open.

[cvsima]

––– feat.  :  wellsfm‌.

𝖜𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖘   :   your   ability   to   express   such   profound   disappointment   through   emoji   never   ceases   to   amaze   me 𝖜𝖊𝖑𝖑𝖘   :   this   isn’t   an   opportunity   for   the   peanut   gallery   to   plan   detective   ,   do   they   have   any   or   not   ,   sherlock   ?

COSIMA  :  when  you’re  worthy  ,  wells  ,  i’ll  teach  you  the  art  of  expressing  yourself  through  one  single  slanted  face COSIMA  :  hm  ,  idk  but  you  know  what  they  do  have  ?  my  album  .

[cvsima]

––– feat.  :  alehqs‌.

“well that hardly seems fair.” ale didn’t look up from the contract she was working on, her pink highlighter gliding across the white sheet. “im doing you a favor by making sure your food doesn’t go to waste and i have to keep you company?” she replaced the cap on her highlighter with a sharp click before turning to finally look at cosima, a small smile on her face to let the other girl know she was just teasing. “but im nothing if not philanthropic. i’ll sit with you i guess.” 

 her  eyes  squint  ,  trying  to  grasp  ale’s  tone  .  “  technically  ,  i’m  giving  you  free  food  .  i  could  just  leave  it  in  the  staff  fridge  and  i’m  sure  someone  will  steal  it  .  but  instead  ,  i’m  giving  it  to  you  and  you’re  giving  me  lunch  company  !  it’s  a  win  all  around  and  YOU’RE  complaining  about  it.  ”  she  catches  on  quickly  to  the  teasing  ,  through  in  her  own  tease  right  back  at  her  ,  getting  all  the  food  open  on  the  table  and  passing  a  paper  plate  towards  ale  ,  making  sure  to  keep  it  away  from  her  contract  despite  the  lack  of  food  on  it  just  yet  .  “  you  can  take  whatever  you  want  .  chinese  takeout  is  always  ...  way  too  much  ,  so  just  take  a  little  of  anything.  ”  she  smiles  ,  sitting  down  at  the  table  with  her  own  plate  .  “  how’s  work  going  today  ?  ”