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[inthetags]

tumblr of color, reblog and put in the tags the whitest thing you’re into.

[boigameista]

i dont think i posted these but here i made a little frog pattern to make tiny frog toys with my grandma

this is the first lil guy I made while still learning how i should sew it

[boigameista]

AAA ok so a lot of people have been asking for the pattern to this, tho I’ve been using just these two little papers to do the cut outs lol

i tried my best to translate it into digital so that people get a bit more accurate look at them. Tho bear with me I’ve never done an actual pattern design sheet before!

so basically my hope is that anyone could print these out to any size of their choosing and get the same result, but ive never tried anything larger than approx. 3 inches with these sooo idk if you try it tag me!

the goal is to sew the backs together to the lines at the tip of the head to the middle of the butt. then leaving a space along the belly piece near the butt end and sewing from one side of the butt including all the legs and the “mouth” to the other side with its legs to get back to the butt. if that makes sense

i usually pause sewing up the body once the head is fully sewn together,, usually after ive sewn both arms and ill yank it inside out where ill start sewing on the little poofball eyes so i know theyre in a good place, then resuming the body, and then pulling the whole thing inside out and pushing out the tips of the limbs with a skinny blunt object like a dull pencil until i can see the stitches. if you attempt this piece definitely make sure you stitch up the arm and leg crevices very well!!!!

then just stuff the lad and sew up his back end and its done :)

one suggestion for fabric is always try to use a stretchy soft fleecy fabric with these because its much easier if mistakes are made during sewing and to hold the ROUND shape better

Overall its a very good use of scraps if you’ve accumulated a lot and don’t know what to do with them 👍👍

[atomicelixir]

So I made a frog (huge)

[boigameista]

I literally can’t I’m losing my mind over the sheer girth of this frog.

Absolutely incredible.

11/10 and godspeed.

[memories]

#drv3 and Other Things That Ruined My Life: An Autobiography by indiehorrorkidcore

[inthetags]

reblog and put in the tags how you come out to people

[niambi]

I’m????

[alarajrogers]

Oh my God this actually explains so much.

So there’s a known thing in the study of human psychology/sociology/what-have-you where men are known to, on average, rely entirely on their female romantic partner for emotional support. Bonding with other men is done at a more superficial level involving fun group activities and conversations about general subjects but rarely involves actually leaning on other men or being really honest about emotional problems. Men use alcohol to be able to lower their inhibitions enough to expose themselves emotionally to other men, but if you can’t get emotional support unless you’re drunk, you have a problem.

So men need to have a woman in their lives to have anyone they can share their emotional needs and vulnerabilities with. However, since women are not socialized to fear sharing these things, women’s friendships with other women are heavily based on emotional support. If you can’t lean on her when you’re weak, she’s not your friend. To women, what friendship is is someone who listens to all your problems and keeps you company.

So this disconnect men are suffering from is that they think that only a person who is having sex with you will share their emotions and expect support. That’s what a romantic partner does. But women think that’s what a friend does. So women do it for their romantic partners and their friends and expect a male friend to do it for them the same as a female friend would. This fools the male friend into thinking there must be something romantic there when there is not.

This here is an example of patriarchy hurting everyone. Women have a much healthier approach to emotional support – they don’t die when widowed at nearly the rate that widowers die and they don’t suffer emotionally from divorce nearly as much even though they suffer much more financially, and this is because women don’t put all their emotional needs on one person. Women have a support network of other women. But men are trained to never share their emotions except with their wife or girlfriend, because that isn’t manly. So when she dies or leaves them, they have no one to turn to to help with the grief, causing higher rates of death, depression, alcoholism and general awfulness upon losing a romantic partner. 

So men suffer terribly from being trained in this way. But women suffer in that they can’t reach out to male friends for basic friendship. I am not sure any man can comprehend how heartbreaking it is to realize that a guy you thought was your friend was really just trying to get into your pants. Friendship is real. It’s emotional, it’s important to us. We lean on our friends. Knowing that your friend was secretly seething with resentment when you were opening up to him and sharing your problems because he felt like he shouldn’t have to do that kind of emotional work for anyone not having sex with him, and he felt used by you for that reason, is horrible. And the fact that men can’t share emotional needs with other men means that lots of men who can’t get a girlfriend end up turning into horrible misogynistic people who think the world owes them the love of a woman, like it’s a commodity… because no one will die without sex. Masturbation exists. But people will die or suffer deep emotional trauma from having no one they can lean on emotionally. And men who are suffering deep emotional trauma, and have been trained to channel their personal trauma into rage because they can’t share it, become mass shooters, or rapists, or simply horrible misogynists.

The only way to fix this is to teach boys it’s okay to love your friends. It’s okay to share your needs and your problems with your friends. It’s okay to lean on your friends, to hug your friends, to be weak with your friends. Only if this is okay for boys to do with their male friends can this problem be resolved… so men, this one’s on you. Women can’t fix this for you; you don’t listen to us about matters of what it means to be a man. Fix your own shit and teach your brothers and sons and friends that this is okay, or everyone suffers.

[dollbeshop]

The next time a guy says, “What? You don't want to be my friend?” I’ll text him this and then ask if he really wants to be friends or just have another potential girlfriend.

[sounddesignerjeans-deactivated2]

y’all I am living for these analyses where the new way to fight the patriarchy is to teach men to love each other and themselves

[astronomically-androngynous]

Im a communication student and can confirm the above is absolutely 100% accurate and it’s called agentic vs communal friendship theorized by Steven McCornack

[meitanteiconductorsan]

This is absolutely un-not-reblogable.

[what-even-is-thiss]

What and who is included in the lgbt/queer/gay(general) communities aren’t always super clear cut actually and like... that’s fine.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Like a cishet man that likes doing drag likely doesn’t consider himself queer and neither would any of his queer/lgbt friends but he might still be super active in the community and mostly hang out with gay guys and bring his girlfriend to pride and maybe even perform at pride. And maybe the queer community is where he feels most at home because he’s kind of feminine, and doing drag is a big part of his life.

Irl probably almost nobody would kick this guy out. A lot of internet discourse would. But that kind of makes no sense.

I grew up in the theatre community, and after I learned what being gay was I discovered that gay people were everywhere in theatre. But so were straight people that just kind of fell outside of societal norms a bit. Straight people that often just felt more comfortable around gay people because they could just be themselves.

And yeah that’s an obvious example of people that aren’t queer hanging out in queer spaces but there’s also a ton of gray area. Straight polyamorous people for example. People that identify as cis that “crossdress” or even do some things that might be considered to be part of “transitioning”. Or some intersex people that don’t id with the lgbt community. Or people that id as non binary but not as trans.

At some point you need to stop trying to figure out who definitively belongs in the club because like... there is no club. Irl queer spaces tend to cover huge swaths of people. There’s a lot of gray area. And also you’ll also tend to find a lot of cishet gender conforming people in these spaces too. Because their significant other or a family member or a good friend is lgbt+ or because they’re poly or because they just feel more comfortable around queer people or they just feel like fighting for gay rights is something that they’re supposed to be doing. And if they’re respectful and the space isn’t explicitly “no cishet right now” then like, them being there isn’t that much of an issue usually.

All of this internet discourse that tries to exclude or bully people just isn’t grounded in reality.

[thisorthatbi]

are you a ‘lmao’ bi or a keysmash bi?

[kurtsvonneslut]

you know your zodiac sign, now find out which sign is your mortal enemy

[moo-nstone]

ICONIC WOMEN AS THE EXPRESSION OF VENUS

“Menelaus, if you are really going to kill her, then my blessing go with you, but you must do it now, before her looks so twist the strings of your heart that they turn your mind; for her eyes are like armies, and where her glances fall, there cities burn, until the dust of their ashes is blown by her sighs. I know her, Menelaus, and so do you. And all those who know her suffer.” — Neil Curry, Euripides: Helen, the Trojan Women, the Bacchae

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VENUS IN THE 1ST HOUSE: HELEN OF TROY

— LOVE IS MAGNETIC. one look at her and you wonder how far would you go for her (the answer: far. as in, starting a war for her kind of far). if you’re lucky enough, she’ll look back at you, too. you feel like you’ve known her all your life – five minutes and she makes you feel like her best friend, ten and you’re too far gone already. you contemplate running away with her, to keep her for yourself; but she wasn’t made to be kept hidden away, she’s made for all the adoration the world has to offer. her smile is her strength, the way it’s so wide and oozes charm. everyone gets sucked right in into her soft and flirty nature. she portrays herself with such elegance and confidence, you wouldn’t believe it if you saw the scared, insecure girl hiding underneath, all her fears and terrors, the validation she never received as a child. but she’s too strong to let others see it. 

VENUS IN THE 2ND HOUSE: APHRODITE

— LOVE IS CONNIVING. she’s so used to being underestimated. you look at her and you see the face of innocence, of love, beauty and naïvety; before you know it, she has her claws deep in you, seducing you into doing whatever she wants with the same eyes that elicit so much innocence. you give her everything that she wants because she just looks so goddamn happy when she gets it – she looks so good when she’s being spoiled, being given everything that she deserves. her voice is her strength, as dangerous yet vulnerable as a siren, her eyes sparkly and mischievous. she longs for admiration and devotion, loyalty and to claim you as hers… but beware, because she’ll never let you clip her wings and her freedom. you are an addition to her life, not a necessity; all she needs is herself. 

VENUS IN THE 3RD HOUSE: ELIZABETH BENNET (from pride and prejudice)

— LOVE IS STIMULATING. she’s cunning; too cunning, perhaps; with the way her eyes light up before saying something particularly teasing, and you have to wonder if she finds pleasure in your torture, because most times, she leaves you there, speechless and fumbling for words – something, anything that won’t make you sound like such an idiot. but she just laughs, aware of the effect she has on you. her sharp tongue is her strength, and so are her hands, her touch gentle and healing, a contrast between the storm of her personality. she gets everything just by saying the right thing; and that’s where her danger lies, in the mind games she’s able to play without you even noticing. her mind is something otherwordly, her curiosity and imagination, her talent for creating art with her words, her fascination with all that mentally stimulates her. her joyful nature and ability to analyze everything that was left unsaid, making you feel seen in parts of you not even you had noticed about yourself. 

VENUS IN THE 4TH HOUSE: AMY WINEHOUSE

— LOVE IS HOME. through her complex inner world and deep emotions, you’re not sure you’ve ever met someone who can feel like chaos and peace at the same time. she makes you feel nurtured with just the way her eyes crinkle up into a smile, and you’re fascinated with the way she views the world so differently from everyone else. she’s a walking paradox, with as many sharp edges as softness. she inspires love and trust within all those around her, giving them the hope of a better tomorrow even if she sometimes feels unsure as to if that tomorrow truly exists. but she doesn’t know the meaning of the word giving up, however; her inner courage to face the world is her strength and she’s not easily defeated by troubled waters. nostalgia can take over her at times, and so can her overprotectiveness and insecurities… but she’ll rise up stronger than ever when she realizes her worth, and you can only hope you get to make her feel as safe as she does to you. 

VENUS IN THE 5TH HOUSE: MEGAN FOX

— LOVE IS PLAYFUL. the more you chase her, the more she seems to run away from you; you’re terrified of all others who also fight for her affection, for you know she could slip from your fingers at any moment now. still you chase her, like a goddam fool (but we’re all fools in love), and she’s like a siren as she lures you into her games, trying to see what you’re made of, if you could be the one to finally gain a hold of her attention. she makes the most mundane, dull activities feel like a joy, and you’re torn between constant pleasure and pain as you let her unfold you in every possible way. she’s so much, with her talent for getting all eyes on her and her dramatism, but you can be sure that, if she deems you worthy enough to commit to, her loyalty and devotion are unending, her love lifelong. her love for romance has you going on dates that you’ve only ever dreamed of before, and you just know that her charm is her strength. 

VENUS IN THE 6TH HOUSE: MERYL STREEP (yes the milf) 

— LOVE IS MATURE. under her sarcastic and uncaring demeanor is someone who shows their affection through the most unconventional ways that only a few are capable of understanding – the small gestures she makes, her consistency, the way she’ll go above and beyond to make someone feel safe but will threaten to kill them if they do so much as acknowledge it out loud. she can be so supportive of others, and the way she earns the trust and respect of all those around her is her strength, the way everyone knows everything will be okay as soon as she enters the room. she’s observant of details that others wouldn’t even think of noticing, and she has a way of understanding your deepest needs and cravings. she can make you feel known and touched and loved in a way you never even thought possible, making you addicted to the kind of attention no one but her is capable of providing. 

VENUS IN THE 7TH HOUSE: MALÈNA (monica bellucci)

— LOVE IS OVERWHELMING. she’s so used to have everyone falling at her feet, but do they love her or the image they have of her? how could they know her, when sometimes she isn’t even sure that she knows herself? the way she so easily commands respect and admiration is her strength, and you wonder if she ever feels exhausted from being so desired. because truthfully, all she longs for is for someone to be interested not in her looks but in her soul, her capability of loving so hard and profoundly, the way she brings harmony and peace to where once was chaos, her need to explore and to spread positivity and her talents… the way she can be so romantic and with a soul so deep, yearning to unveil all the mysteries to the universe. sometimes, you’re sure that just loving her is the key to all those mysteries. 

VENUS IN THE 8TH HOUSE: MEDUSA

— LOVE IS DEADLY. eyes that can both kill and give life; either way, this is a love that you’ll not escape whole from. when she’s done with you, you’ll feel as if she took a part of your soul with her, and you can’t tell where she ends and where you start. a love that merges two souls together. her eyes are her strength, deep and penetrating. she’s attracted to your darkness, to unveiling the mystery that you are and to solve you like a puzzle as she finds all the secrets you vowed not to tell another living soul. she wants to know every little thing about you. she craves intimacy, and only when you get past her secretive and intimidating front will you get access to her unending kindness and caring for those she loves. she’s so loyal and devoted, but if you ever try to take advantage of that you’ll burn. trust is everything for her. 

VENUS IN THE 9TH HOUSE: MARILYN MONROE 

— LOVE IS AN ADVENTURE. her nature is just so honest and unapologetic, so vibrant and alive, you can’t help throwing yourself headfirst into whatever adventure she has her mind on next; and she’s worse than you on that – her impulsivity has her wearing her heart on her sleeve, living life so intensely as if she’s afraid that it’ll slip right from her hands. her hips and tighs are her strength, and the way she brings fun into every corner of your life. because what is life about if not learning, traveling, exploring new things and expanding our horizons? you’d be a fool to think she has any limits; she’s made of freedom and independence, of her many interests and spontaneity. she loves life and you love her, as you dream of exploring the world by her side, of knowing not only her physical but her mind and soul. 

VENUS IN THE 10TH HOUSE: CLEOPATRA

— LOVE IS POWER. she will find out your biggest fantasy and be what you want; until she has taken everything from you that she so desires, leaving you wondering if you’ve ever truly met her or just one of the facets she shows to the world. she feels otherworldly, portrays herself with such cold air, and you long to be the one to finally feel her warmth, to finally swim past the surface and drown in her depths. but her standards are so high, are you up for the challenge? love with her is filled with power-play, she longs for someone powerful while commanding power herself, someone who can be on her level (few are capable of that). her charm is her strength, the way everyone falls so easily for her words and the image she presents, so confident and provocative; little do they know the overwhelming emotions that hide underneath the coldness. the way she can love so deeply, but will she ever allow herself to?

VENUS IN THE 11TH HOUSE: DAENERYS STORMBORN OF HOUSE TARGARYEN

— LOVE IS FIERY. you fall in love with the way she speaks of saving the world (and you don’t doubt that she will), the light in her eyes even as she holds the weight of the world in her shoulders. you can’t tame her, she’s a bird in the wild whose wings fly too high, so independent and unapologetic. her dreams are her strength, and the way she won’t stop until she makes them a reality – it’s like all the passion in the world has gathered in her heart. she embodies freedom. she has this thing where she can make anyone in the world feel like her best friend, as she unites everyone under the same cause that she believes so deeply in, and you’re so entranced with the love she inspires. you can’t help wanting to fight for her, wanting to help achieve all her dreams as you fall in love with her mind, her interest and her beliefs, too deep in the volcano that she is. 

VENUS IN THE 12TH HOUSE: JULIET (from romeo and juliet)

— LOVE IS FORBIDDEN. from the first moment you met her, it feels like your life suddenly became a movie; like nothing was worth living through or mentioning before your eyes first laid on hers. her love feels star-crossed, as if you’ve waited lifetimes to meet her, with all her complexities and rich inner world that so few get to be a part of. she oozes mystery and secrecy; you long to be the first to discover all her secrets, the chaos that is her life. and she loves hard – so hard, in a way you never even thought possible, and her ability to drown in the depths of her emotions is both her strength and her undoing, for the world is so good in her eyes that she often gets taken advantage of. she’s gotten so hurt in the past, barely healed from all the scars. but you’d be a fool to play with her love, the way she isn’t afraid to give her all. and that takes so much courage. 

[rattaemin-deactivated20221018]

THIS FELT SO FUCKIN POETIC. Venus in 8th house literally so god damn true but at the same time, YOU BOOSTED MY EGO TOO MUCH, LIKE COME HERE GIRL RIGHT NOW, ILL BE YOUR MEDUSA

[podcake]

i made an incredibly specific bingo chart about early 2000’s girl media and how almost anyone who has watched it in the past is some degree of gay. fyi, i land on all of these squares but especially edgy bitch. ♡

[lolp154-deactivated20210704]

cotton candy or popcorn? carousel or ferris wheel? long nights or early mornings? loud music or soft tunes? stargazing or movie night? picnic at the beach or adventure in the forest? pumpkin patch or apple picking? sunflowers or brown leaves? coats or jackets? 

[a-fools-feels]

people as underrated things

embroidered curtains: morning routines, trying to be neat and tidy but failing, thin white shirts left on the floor, crunchy apples on long walks, pressing flowers in book and forgetting about them, lots of spices and herbs.

chipped teacups: messy hair, walking barefoot through the forest, charming smiles, old family recipes and plants all over the house. graceful dancing and jumping on beds.

worn-out notebooks: paint-stained fingers, candy lover, leaving prints on mud, singing softly in the morning, drawing on mirrors, keeping secrets and dancing with trees, picking berries from dewy bushes.

mismatched socks: creative spirit, holding hands at night, whispering sweet words to small creatures in the woods, piles of books spread all over the room, cozy overalls and warm jumpers, taking a long walk and looking for faes after the sun sets.

odd button: pockets full of wonders, kitchen covered in flour, falling in love with nature, the smell of wildflowers, honey and cinnamon, wax seals and mischievous eyes, playing hide and seek during rainstorms.

flower garlands: playful breeze in the afternoon, sunlight shining through the trees, skipping happily over puddles, mugs and plates abandoned on a desk, oversized jackets and colourful marbles, writing poetry on napkins.

[eldritch-ab0minati0n]

I made one of these things

[ayatstudies-deactivated20211215]

types of academics: tag yourself

nocturnal: messy notes, never sleeps, wakes up after noon, sarcastic, coffee addiction, turns everything in late, sweats, netflix, needs a lot of naps, deep cleans their room maybe once every 2 months, messy buns, says they’ll be productive but never is until it’s past 2 am

“perfect”: balances work, social life, and health, never sleeps past midnight, aces everything, pretty notes, coffeeshops and libraries, cardigans, makes their bed every morning, mom friend, skincare routine, organized playlists, neat handwriting, autumn, coffee with cream and sugar

extroverted: loud but beautiful laugh, twirly handwriting, polaroids, colorful pens, skirts, wants to/does dye their hair, goes to parties but leaves early, summer, travels a lot, teacher’s pet, throws sleepover study nights, paints nails while reading for homework, leather jackets

chaotic: amazing music taste, probably good with technology, doesn’t bond with professors, has few close friends but lots of acquaintances, parties a lot, never focused (but when they are they’re really productive), really bad at reading people, cram sessions, bad sleep schedule

independent: has only one friend per class, gets everything done on time, prefers office hours over asking questions in class, rain, print-out lecture notes, one yellow highlighter, beautiful smile, the color green, painter, likes studying outside, sensitive to high-energy people, striped sweaters

[earthyaries]

What empty houses mean in your natal chart 🍀🍀

** Even without planets, the sign that is in an empty house will strongly influence it; this may vary the affects. Aspects to the rulers of a house or sign will also influence the affects.

&& Every person experiences every house. There is a sign in every house that influences it, even if there are no planets in the house. Transits are also passing through our charts at all times. So there will be themes of every house present within our lives, but “empty” houses will not be ones MAIN focus in this lifetime.

Empty 1st house: Ease with expression. Not much to express. Early childhood does not have too strong of a hold on later life. Growth comes naturally & over time; forced self growth is rare. Fairly consistent people. Maturation is neither stunted nor rushed. Takes on the characteristics of others. Possible people-pleaser. Seeks the validation & approval of others. The focus is not on individualism in this lifetime.

Empty 2nd house: Always has money when needed. Doesn’t have much more than they need. Less is more. Receives good gifts/material benefits. Lives comfortably. Doesn’t have an excess of stuff, but doesn’t go without. Financial stability & long lasting materials (car, house, etc. stay in decent condition for the most part). Possible small inheritance. The focus is not on material possessions in this lifetime.

Empty 3rd house: May be an only child, or is the child that does not take on the main responsibilities (out of their siblings). Comfortable with their self expression or inner-child. Communicates well, not necessarily known for their words or “takes”. Pretty easy-going. Not much childhood healing needs to be partaken in (I have noticed that there is a subtle confidence when this house is empty). The focus is not on vocalization in this lifetime.

Empty 4th house: Indicates a typical upbringing or household. Neutral feelings towards their mother & childhood, not bad but not great. Not too much of a struggle here, especially not as they grow older; however, there is a sense of longing for a different kind of family. Latches on to friends or partners, or hobbies. The focus is not on early life or family in this lifetime.

Empty 5th house: Creative. Not a lot of focus going into being a creative. Ease with children. Possible desire to not have children. Pleasure-seeking. Good self-control. Emotionally intelligent. Connection with the arts. Charismatic; not extremely flirtatious. The focus is not on children or fun in this lifetime.

Empty 6th house: Not a workaholic. Doesn’t have too much trouble finding work. May get sick every once in a while, but overall healthy. Any mental illness is easier maintained & worked through. Maybe not admired by the masses, but respected by colleagues, bosses, customers, etc. The focus is not on health or work-related recognition in this lifetime.

Empty 7th house: Independent. May not plan on getting married. If married / in a devoted relationship, it is not more important or time consuming than other areas of life. May marry & divorce. Attracts people easily. Easier time moving on from breakup/divorce/split. The focus is not on relationships/partners in this lifetime.

Empty 8th house: Little complications surrounding inheritance. Transformations typically come naturally & with ease. Comfortable with taboos. Sex & intimacy are not at the forefront of life, but they do have a place. Comfortable with sexuality. Deals with death in a healthier way than most. The focus is not on death or “rebirth” in this lifetime.

Empty 9th house: Naturally intelligent. Loves to learn about the world around them; does not identify strongly with institutional learning. Little to no desire to attend a college, especially a local college. May be in favor of a tutor or mentor. Barely studies. Has a keen interest in different cultures & perspectives. Likes to travel; wants a stable home. The focus is not on higher education in this lifetime.

Empty 10th house: Easily accomplishes goals. Natural talent/s involved in career path; less likely to be a “learned” skill. Career is not the main priority/sense of belonging in this life. Public image is adjustable. Look for the planet ruler of the sign of your 10H & find which house that planet is in for more info. The focus is not on legacy or status in this lifetime.

Empty 11th house: Small inner circles. Finds friends through hobbies/work/etc. Casual acquaintances. Ease with friendships. Friendships are taken lightly. Unlikely to have hard fallouts; unlikely to have a strong best friend figure. The focus is not on companionships in this lifetime.

Empty 12th house: Ease with letting go/cutting off. Healthy transformation. Realistic. Learns from the past. New start. Neutral karma. Healthy relationship with substance. Attracts people with mental illness/substance problems. Healer. Mentor. Spiritual; skeptical. The focus is not on healing past karma in this lifetime.

[schinako]

Rabbits and triangles🐇

[firesigns-archived-deactivated2]

if ur hot, u should rb this and tell me ur opinion on dark chocolate