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Independent, selective, low activity fandomless original character with multiple verses available. Mature content potentially contained within, therefore, must be 21 or older to view/interact. Penned by Stark, 30+. EST. Established September 2025. Sideblog. Follows from @chosenoftheconcretefist

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Also find me at: @dcvotionconsumes // @morningthroughshadows // @scarsearned // @hcavyisthehead // @hcnestwork // @quietlcfe // @drxnkingwithskeletons (some of these are works in progress)

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rpm3mes

Tell my muse "You're enough." For their reaction!

#[[ bumps and spots throughout the match ]] ; memes

raesource

ship headcanon questions

make sure to include the pairing(s) you are wanting these questions to be answered for . these should work for poly ships as well as monogamous . feel free to edit these as you see fit .

💕 How did they both realize “oh wait, this is actually love”?

🌹 Who fell harder & who fell first?

🫂 What’s their favorite way to hold each other when words aren’t enough?

🔥 What’s the pettiest thing they’ve ever argued about?

💋 Who says “I love you” first & how?

🌙 Who’s the little spoon & who pretends they hate it but secretly loves it?

💍 Would they ever get married? What would the proposal look like?

🧸 Who still has the very first gift the other ever gave them?

😈 Who is more likely to start chaos “for the vine” & who films it?

🎶 What’s their song - the one that makes them both tear up / grin like idiots?

☕ Who’s the morning person & how do they lure the night owl out of bed?

🛡️ Who jumps in front of danger for the other without thinking?

😳 What’s the most embarrassing thing they’ve walked in on the other doing?

💔 What’s the one fight that almost ended them?

🩹 How do they comfort each other after nightmares?

👀 Who gets jealous more easily & how obvious are they about it?

🍳 Who cooks & who sets off the smoke alarm trying to help?

🧳 If they had to run away together tomorrow, where would they go?

😏 Who is bolder in public (hand-holding, kisses, etc.)?

🌧️ Who steals whose hoodies when it rains?

🎂 How do they celebrate each other’s birthdays?

🖤 What’s the darkest “we’ll never tell anyone” thing they’ve done together?

💌 Who leaves little love notes & where do they hide them?

🛌 Who hogs the blanket & who ends up freezing dramatically?

😴 Who falls asleep first & who watches them with heart-eyes?

🚪 Who’s more likely to say “we’re not leaving this room today”?

🌸 What nickname do they have for each other that would mortify them if others heard?

🎤 Who sings in the shower & who secretly records it for blackmail?

💞 How do they act when one of them is sick?

🩸 Who would literally kill for the other & who would help hide the body?

🌅 Do they go on sunrise / stargazing dates? Which one do they love more?

😤 Who apologizes first after a fight, even if they weren’t wrong?

🧩 What tiny habit of the other do they find unbearably adorable?

🎪 Who plans elaborate surprise dates & who just wants to stay in?

👑 In their relationship, who’s the king / queen & who’s the knight / advisor?

🌪️ What’s the most chaotic thing they’ve done together on pure impulse?

💤 Who has the weirdest sleep-talking lines that the other quotes constantly?

🧡 What color reminds each of them of the other?

🕰️ If they could go back in time, what moment would they relive together?

😶 Who’s terrified of saying “meet my parents” & why?

🍷 Who gets tipsy first & starts spilling embarrassing love confessions?

🌿 Do they want kids/pets/plants together? What do they name them?

🪞 Who takes longer getting ready & who hypes the other up in the mirror?

💥 What’s the biggest risk one of them took for the other that the partner didn’t find out about until much later?

🧣 Who steals the other’s scarf / gloves “on accident” every winter?

🌌 What’s their “we made it through hell” memory they’ll tell their grandkids?

😘 Who kisses the other first thing in the morning, morning breath & all?

🩰 Slow dancing in the kitchen at 3 a.m. - who starts it?

⚓ If one of them had to leave forever, what would they leave behind for the other?

💫 Ten years from now, what random Tuesday are they spending together?

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ciivll6

may this kind of love find me.

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@tealeavesandthorns

#harvey & maria #tealeavesandthorns

crimsolyn

I think the purest form of love is just wanting someone to notice life with you. "taste this. look at that. hear this song." again and again. until you can't imagine noticing life without them.

#tealeavesandthorns #[[ the job is to protect the business ]] ; relationships #harvey & maria

mournfulroses

J. M. Grosvalet, from her book titled "Sugar Spells," originally published in 2025

#[[ life on the road isn't all that glamorous ]] ; aesthetics #(( harvey is a bit of a broken man ))

tealeavesandthorns

"Hmm, but you're not a young dumb kid anymore Harvey. You still could have told me and I wouldn't have told the kids. Just come and got you so you didn't have to drive back on your own, which I'm pretty sure was dangerous." Maria said narrowing her eyes at him as she hung up his coat.

She was about to chastise him again when he pulled her into a hug and she wrapped her arms around him sighing gently. She adored him, she wondered if he knew, if he knew that she really liked him. They'd sort of fallen into this strange relationship, for all intents and purposes they did all the things people in a relationship did, except the telling each other they loved each other, the kissing, the sleeping together. Everything else though, they did stuff together, even without the kids. Though, mostly with the kids. They looked after each other.

"I got you papa bear." Maria said quietly. She held him, best she could for a moment before she pulled back. "Now, when I said have you eaten, I wasn't asking for myself. Never mind if I want to eat, what do you want to eat? I can make you something? I can order something. I actually filled your fridge when I got here." She admitted, "You never should have given me that key."

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"It wasn't bad. I was as careful as I could be. I'm not on any medications or anything like that would have made it dangerous to drive." Not young, that was certain. Though, he wasn't entirely sure he could escape the qualifier of dumb at this point in his life. However, that was not an argument that he was about to have or ever really wanted to engage in when it came to Maria. Self depreciation could come later. Harvey closed his eyes and took a few relaxing breaths, taking in the soft scent of her shampoo and enjoying the closeness of her body. It was what was needed to remind him that he was home, that he could relax.

"It's nearly nine at night. I'm not asking you to cook. Ordering something is fine by me and honestly, I think I would eat whatever you put in front of me right now." He chuckled softly as she made the comment. "Nope. Definitely not a decision I could ever regret." The words were genuine, albeit it a little more loose and free in terms of affection. Exhaustion, pain, and a lot of alone time to think often was a deadly combination. The road was a trying place to be with a clear head and a need to distract oneself. "Order whatever you might want. I am going to try to clean up a bit. Okay?"

He definitely wouldn't be shaving any time soon. Showering would be hard enough. A change of clothes and a bit of a clean would at least go some distance to helping him free a little better. Maria being here certainly did the rest of the job. Harvey gave her a soft smile. "I'll go over everything once I'm changed up, and answer any questions." A small promise, hoping it might ease a bit of the burden that she was carrying. After making sure she was indeed okay with it all, he headed off to the bedroom to manage what he could. A fresh change of clothes and at least a brief clean had made him feel a bit better and he wandered back out. All while itching lightly at the top of the cast, trying to ignore the sutures there.

#tealeavesandthorns

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#[[ the job is to protect the business ]] ; relationships #tealeavesandthorns #harvey & maria

tealeavesandthorns

"You should have told me how bad it was." Maria said gesturing to his arm, because she'd known, she'd known he was injured but he wouldn't tell her how bad. She suspected though because she was good at figuring those things out. "I would have come and got you."

And she would have, she would have driven for him. Left Maddie with her dad just like she had done tonight. To come and take care of him because she knew he wouldn't take care of himself.

There was something else too, she'd missed him, really missed him. Missed him in a way that was certainly more than friends missing each other. They'd been inching closer to something but neither had taken the next step yet, she'd thought about telling him before he left for the road, thought about having the conversation but she couldn't face it if he said no, if he didn't feel the same.

She hated this uncertainty of it all, because a lot of the time she thought he felt the same but it was hard to say for sure.

"Have you eaten?" She asked as she moved towards him to help him take his coat off.

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Injures came with the territory. One thing or another. Making a living out of physically abusing ones body tended to lead to it. Unfortunately, there wasn't necessarily any retirement from the profession either. Money came in based on work and if there was no work, there was no money. It was why so many.of the older guys kept on showing up and doing things well past their prime, well beyond the age where they could safely do some of this shit. Life hard, die young. Harvey was used to the struggle, the pain, the mentality. Perhaps the pain not as much since he normally was too messed up half the time to truly experience it. Having driven back with the arm in a long cast, unable to really get comfortable and unable to nu.b that pain had been an entirely different exercise of his mental strength and resolve.

"Didn't want to bother you with it. It was fine, really. Reminded me of when I was a young, dumb kid driving from place to place to make a paycheck and get notice," he laughed, trying to play it off. Elbow locked at ninety degrees, the cast extended from his hand up to almost his mid bicep. The stitching was just above that, the jagged laceration extending up to his shoulder. Harvey allowed her to help him take off the coat, the gentle act welcomed, though not entirely thought about. "Besides, didn't need any of the kids worrying too much." A genuine statement and actually part of his reasoning.

"No, just wanted to get home so drove straight through." Food was probably a smart idea. "We can order a pizza or something if you want to eat." It seemed once again to dawn on him that she was here. Worried about him. Seeking to take care of him. An act that had been so neglected and ignored in the past. It caused a warmth to blossom in his chest. Exhaustion often allowed more emotion to come to the surface and him to not overthink too much. After a second, he found himself pulling her into a careful hug. "Thank you for being here." She didn't have to be and yet she had made herself available. It was something that no one else had done for him in quite awhile, thanks to his own decisions. Was he worth it? Probably not. The fact wasn't lost on him but he couldn't be bothered to do anything about it and brush her off. Then again, when it came to Maria, he hadn't found it in himself to do that in general. The kids loved her, she did well with them, and Harvey found a certain level of something that he hadn't experienced at all with her. Selfish. It was selfish but he couldn't bring himself to deny it too much.

#tealeavesandthorns

"Your alarm’s been going off for ten minutes." - @tealeavesandthorns

Though the haze of sleep, peaceful, uninterrupted, truly restful sleep, he heard the mumbled words. It brought Harvey closer to full consciousness, swimming to the surface, though that heavy blanket that wanted to keep him under. It had been years since he had slept in, missed an alarm, or wasn't already naturally up when it was time for his run. Four in the morning was too early for most people, but the routine had cemented itself so firmly in his life that he couldn't give it up. This morning might be one of the exceptions to that rule. No matter how hard he tried to not have any for the sake of not giving himself too much leniency. There were certain things that he could just not give up on.

As he came more to, he realized that there was a warm body pressed against his. Soft. Smaller. Warm. Another thing that hadn't been experienced in a number of years. Eyes opened, a bit bleary, to see Maria laying beside him, eyes still closed and trying to ignore the sound of the alarm going off. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad to grant himself that little extra bit today. He would feel like an ass if he were to leave the bed now, routine or not. Reaching out carefully, he managed to silence the sound and ensure it wouldn't go off again before wrapping her back up in his arms. A soft kiss was placed to her forehead as his eyes slipped closed once more. There would be time to worry and think about the development later, to overthink and come up with a million concerns. For now, he would enjoy what he had and allow her the much needed sleep. With Maria tucked into his side, it was hard to do any.of that at the moment anyway.

"Sorry," he mumbled out. "Go back to sleep." They had time to relax and still bask in the comfort and laziness that came after a night with someone that you genuinely cared about. Talking about all it meant could also come later.

#tealeavesandthorns

mournfulroses

Fyodor Dostoevsky, from a letter featured in Letters of Fyodor Michailovitch Dostoevsky to his Family & Friends

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@tealeavesandthorns

#tealeavesandthorns

cryptinspo

– 𝗠𝗢𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗔𝗙𝗧𝗘𝗥 𝗥𝗣 𝗦𝗧𝗔𝗥𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗦 ! ( an assortment of dialogue prompts for most dynamics in a morning after setting. )

𝗮𝘄𝗸𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗱 / 𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗲

"So... about last night."

"Do you remember anything, or should I start from the top?"

"We said it wouldn’t mean anything. Did that change?"

"You can sneak out, or we can talk like adults."

“Did we make a mistake?”

𝘀𝗼𝗳𝘁 / 𝗮𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗲

"I could get used to waking up next to you."

"You drooled on my arm, just FYI."

"I made coffee. Thought you’d want to talk before the world comes back in."

"Let’s stay like this a little longer."

"Your hair’s a mess. It’s cute."

𝗳𝘂𝗻𝗻𝘆 / 𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗮𝗿𝗿𝗮𝘀𝘀𝗲𝗱

"Okay, whose sock is this?"

"I thought that was a dream. It wasn’t, was it?"

"Is this the part where I apologize or make breakfast?"

"I swear I’ve never done that before."

"Please tell me I didn’t cry over pizza last night."

𝗿𝗲𝗴𝗿𝗲𝘁𝗳𝘂𝗹 / 𝗲𝗺𝗼𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝗮𝗹

"We shouldn't have done that."

"I still love them. I'm sorry."

"I wish it could be more than just this."

"You deserve better than a night I can't remember."

"I don’t know what happens next."

𝘀𝗹𝗲𝗲𝗽𝘆 / 𝗰𝗮𝘀𝘂𝗮𝗹

"Mmmph... Five more minutes."

"You’re hogging the blanket again."

"Coffee or cuddles first?"

"Your alarm’s been going off for ten minutes."

"Don’t talk yet. Just exist."

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you can do better than that, big monster like you. (Teasingly of course) @tealeavesandthorns

An amused look, completed with mockingly raised brows, appeared as his eyes locked on the woman, who was remaining at a safe distance. Maddie and Jess were clinging to an arm each, and Frankie was practically attached to his back with arms around his neck like a koala bear. The weather had been warmer than usual, meaning the kids were spending time outside to burn off the excess energy that always came with the weekends. Harvey had taken the time to set up one of those backyard pools that were nicer than the inflatable but still not quite the level of an actual, but it worked. The kids didn't complain and enjoyed the time that they got to spend in it. His own and Maddie. They had been in and out almost all morning, with no signs of slowing down as they reached the early afternoon. That was just fine by Harvey, who was thoroughly enjoying the time. He knew it also gave Marie a break. Even as she watched over them all carefully. A comment had jokingly slipped that he was going to need a big lunch from toting around all the extra weight that day, the kids giggling and attempting to bring him back into the water. The day he got too old or too sore and sorry for this wasn't the day that he wanted to see. Making him all the more mindful of the physical abuse he willingly put his body through at this point in his life, being far more selective about things than he had been in years past.

"That so?" He called out as he came to a stop. Eyes narrowed for a moment, playfully. Then he was mumbling softly to the kids, far away enough that she wouldn't entirely be able to hear. At least not make out everything that he was saying. Almost at once, all three dropped their hold on Harvey and made their way out of the pool. All three toted over to Maria, all smiling and begging for some pizza for lunch. All serving as a distraction. Harvey easily slipped outside the other side of the pool, unnoticed. With Maria entirely distracted by the excited pleas and requests, he was able to slip around towards the back of the chair that she was settled in. The giggle from Maddie probably gave it all away but that didn't mean that Maria could get away.

With a quick motion, Harvey had scooped her up out of her seat and was making his way towards the pools, with the tiny crew behind him laughing and cheering him on. Quickly, they were at his side rather than just following, eager to get back into the pool. Lunch would have to come soon enough.

"This better for you?" He laughed over the pleading that she was doing for him to not toss her right into the pool. The laughter filled the yard as the warm fall day passed by. The sort that would create lasting memories for everyone.

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It was exceeding rare that Harvey went on the road anymore. There was little need to outside of the occasional favor to a long-time friend or to fulfill some request made so genuinely that it couldn't be ignored. It had been the former that had pulled him out for nearly a whole week. As best ad he could avoid the weekends, he did. Losing time with his kids was not an option anymore. Again, as much as feasible possible.

The trip went as well as expected and didn't at the same time. The travel was smooth, far more smooth than he had remembered it prone to being. The setup? Nice and easy. The young kid he was working with? Knew his spots, didn't have an issue with Harvey calling the match, and was respectful of how things were supposed to go. Hell, even the camera equipment to capture the match for streaming was nice and properly rigged. A well run operation. Everything was in place. The best laid plans.

Despite the setup, despite the flow, all it took was one mistimed move, one slip, one miscalculation, and things went to hell. He had gone through the table wrong, trying to twist and compensate for the under rotation that the kid had done, attempting to keep them both as safe as possible and the younger kid from breaking his neck. It meant Harvey had a large gash to his triceps and a broken right arm as a result. Getting home hadn't been pleasant, going from flying to renting a car like he had years ago and driving. His dominant hand unusable. The kids were going to freak. And he knew that it might take a little work to calm Maria down as well.

He hadn't expected her to be at his place when he walked in. If he hadn't been as exhausted as he was, his mind might have gone into overdrive. She had a key, had been told she and Maddie were welcome to stay months ago. She just hadn't taken up the offer unless he had been there, not yet. He dropped his bag to the floor, finally relaxing more now that he was home.

"Didn't expect to see you until tomorrrow...." He mumbled. It wasn't a bad thing in the least. In fact, seeing her in his space settled something that had nagged at him for a few weeks now.

#tealeavesandthorns #((don't feel the need to match length. idea from the thought of him having to be on the road for the 1st time since they knew 1 another ))#(( and of course he comes home injured. he's getting to old for this stuff but he wont admit it ))

Series of ship headcanon questions - @tealeavesandthorns

😳 What’s the most embarrassing thing they’ve walked in on the other doing?

Over the years, with his profession, Harvey has walked in on and been walked in on during a number of different, embarrassing, and awkward situations. Between that and a lot of the shame/embarrassment beaten out of him thanks to life experiences, there is little that bothers him in terms of Maria walking in on him. Or walking in on, though that situation hasn't happened yet. For him, it was Maria walking in on him getting into some ring gear. While he was never a gym rat, he wasn't in the shape he was as a younger man, and the tights didn't fit all that well.

👀 Who gets jealous more easily & how obvious are they about it?

It may not qualify as traditional jealousy, but they both have insecurities that could come to the forefront. Harvey perhaps a little more so, as his view of himself is fairly dim and low. He's a great actor in the ring. Outside of it? It's obvious as the day is long. He either gets closer to Maria, some sort of touch initiated be it hand holding, hand on the small of her back, or an arm around her waist. Or he retreats just a bit. He gets a look on his face that says he is lost in his own head, and it is never more evident than in those moments.

🍳 Who cooks & who sets off the smoke alarm trying to help?

Neither of them set off the smoke alarm. Harvey is a more adpt cook than most would assume or give him credit for. It's one of those things that he put time and effort into, both for his own health and for the sake of taking care of his kids. He would be the one to offer to cook, and almost begrudgingly accept help. Not because he doesn't think he needs it and not because he doesn't trust Maria. It's because he wants to prove he is capable of caring for her.

😏 Who is bolder in public (hand-holding, kisses, etc.)?

Neither of them are particularly shy, but Harvey is far less restrained/more bold when it comes to public affection. The man has spent more of his life in front of a crowd. With a second chance at being happy with someone, there wouldn't be any shame or shyness about sharing affection. Respectfully, of course.

💌 Who leaves little love notes & where do they hide them?

Maria. It wouldn't have dawned on Harvey to do such a thing, despite the fact that he tries to be conscious of things like that, having felt he failed at them in his marriage. He tends to find them in different places, all unexpected. A bag he brings to a show, some sort of sweet she had dropped off at the school, hidden in a cabinet at his house that the kids can't get into. They always bring a smile and make him feel like he is actually worth something.

🛌 Who hogs the blanket & who ends up freezing dramatically?

Neither. Though, if anything, Maria can freeze because Harvey tosses the blankets. Harvey runs warm most of the time, so it's rare that he uses a lot of blankets. More often than not, he will remove blankets in his sleep. He is a cuddle/clinger in his sleep. Maria won't have to worry too much about having no blankets. Most of the time.

😴 Who falls asleep first & who watches them with heart-eyes?

Harvey's sleep schedule has always been rather erratic. Years on the road took their toll, and it was one of the few things that he couldn't wrangle back into his control once his life settled down. So, more often than not, Maria is the one to fall asleep first. Harvey is content laying there, watching her, and enjoying the closeness. Those quiet moments remind him that maybe the rest of his life doesn't have to hinge on all the screw ups he has made in the past.