raen borne

an amnesiac who lives more for the present than the past. she bears the astrologin crystal.

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“Do you know where Alpha is? I’d like to meet him.”

“I can’t say. He’s out traveling with a friend--by luck I’ll come across the both of them in Eorzea.”

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“Oh man….But, Alpha huh…Heh, I hope we can be friends..”

“I’m certain he wouldn’t mind. Alpha is a sweetheart.”

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by @juvenile-reactor!!!

I was so happy to have received this! And even more ecstatic that I could request it as a patreon reward

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sentofight‌:

KEYSMASHING “I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!!! I WILL FIGHT EVERYTHING FOR YOU, CHOCOBO-SAN! CHIWACHIWA! I WILL NAME YOU CHIWACHIWA!”

“Sorry to burst your bubble, but the young fellow already has a name and it’s Alpha.”

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Some leisure time at the beach with desired and undesired company

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Using gifs, and without using titles, list your top ten favorite games of all time.

They don’t have to be in any particular order.

Tag however many people you like.

Repost! Do not reblog!

Tagged by: @broadswordandpistol

Tagging: Whoever wants to do it! I don’t follow a lot of people on this account

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A glamour fitting for the Au Ra.

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LV 70 Red Mage Glamour

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LV 70 Astrologin glamour

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Reblog if your muse has scars.

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Adelaide grasps his hand and shakes on it, “I’m pleased to hear that you’re up for the challenge.” releasing his hand, the blonde looks towards the direction Cirina had instructed her to head towards. Though Hien and Gotetsu had wanted to join her, it wasn’t possible for either of them to accompany the astrologin in the trials. Neither was Asbel, as his own responsibilities had risen and the two had to momentarily go their separate ways.

Pairing up with someone she knew was capable was a relief to the blonde. It made Adelaide wonder, however; was having the knight around create this sort of uneasiness? Never had she felt concerned about entering a dungeon alone. “We’re to leave as soon as possible, so whenever you’re good and ready.”

“I’ll be sure to keep you steady on your feet once we begin.”

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knightsxheart:

Asbel’s smile widened when she returned his gesture. Somehow it felt like a huge weight had been lifted from him. Ever since finding out Lord Haurchefant had died protecting the Warrior of Light, he couldn’t bring himself to accept it; couldn’t understand why. Meeting her like this, seeing the kind of person she was, he was starting to see it: the person he’d heard so much about, that had earned the highest respect from his Lord.

“He did say that, didn’t he?” Asbel had all but forgotten and the memory elicits a chuckle. “He used to complain about it all the time, everyone would laugh and say that it was so like him. But even so, he always took his duties seriously, he wanted the best for everyone, even in a place like Camp Dragonhead.”  

“I- Me? Would that really be okay?” Surprise overtakes his expression. The thought had crossed his mind, had stirred within him since feeling the full weight of her weapon in battle. He didn’t delude himself in thinking he could carry it for her, but if there was some way he could help… even if it wasn’t much.

“I’d be honoured to travel with you, if you’d have me. I know I’m not very strong yet, but I want to do my best to help others, and I’d like to help you as well. It can’t hurt to have another set of hands around.”

Hearing Asbel’s memory of the late Lord had the astrologin chuckling at the thought. If she were honest as well, the blonde couldn’t understand why Haurchefant had so blindly trusted her--never mind she helped him out before. It was part of her duty, never an obligation to the Au Ra. “I’m happy to hear of such fond stories of the late Knight, I assume he was different around his men compared to being in my company.”

“--But yes, though Haurchefant may find it to be unfair I believe he’d be quite relieved if someone he trusted accompanied me on my journey.” a perilous one, but Asbel is not weak. “You’ll grow in many ways as we move forth; be sure to keep an open mind and heart.”

“And remember him as the Lord you know Haurchefant as. It is the least you can do for the deceased.”

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based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

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“I guess,” Asbel conceded, still it didn’t seem like the kind of thing that would feel very nice. At least not from people that actually knew you. “Still, I’d rather call you by your name if that’s okay. Miss Adelaide… I don’t think I even introduced myself properly before. Forgive me. I’m Asbel Lhant, it was a honour to duel with you.” He offers a short bow, the proper end to a knights’ duel as he’d been taught. 

“Where? I don’t really know; to be honest, I hadn’t really given it much thought. I know there’s still a lot to do here in Ishgard, but I can’t help but feel restless, like there is somewhere I could put my skills to better use. I don’t want to see other people suffer like the people of Ishgard have. And… I want to become stronger. I doubt I’d be able to beat you one day, but I’d at least like to be able to hold my own. I’m never going to get there unless I get some more experience and see more of the world.”  

“Thank you, Asbel. The honor is mine.” the blonde returns a small eastern bow; an unexplained habit of hers. She had only seen others who share the same scales as she and the Domans return similar gestures.

“Hmm... Yes, I see. Figuring out where to begin is the toughest part of every journey...” it made Adelaide a bit curious of her own starting point, but momentarily she should remain focused on the knight. It was a silly idea, but the blonde decided to extend an invitation to Asbel regardless. “If you are that unsure, perhaps you would be willing to join me in mine?” 

“That reminds me, I believe in the past Haurchefant had desired to join me in my travels, however his responsibilities kept him from doing so.” her words followed with a small gentle smile; it was quite interesting how disheartened the knight was every time the opportunity eludes him. “Since you are not of status, I suppose such a thing would be more possible for you, Asbel.”

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“You have a commission for me? Depending on what the request is, it can done in a few hours to a week. More, depending on the quantity and quality desired.”

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Aye, playing with lighting in gpose really pays off. I’m very happy with how this icon turned out