Phantasmagoria

Soft gore

[cybernetixxx]

I just wish so much a had a person in front of whom I could open up with my personality and not be judged. Like I don't even do anything wrong, it's enough for people that I like what they don't like or that I have different opinions about something and they become judgemental and hateful. I cannot ask questions without them being mad at me. For what? I literally don't do anything wrong, I just do things differently than you. Why you gotta be hateful?

[cybernetixxx]

I get frequent stomachaches recently, especially during work and even if I don't eat anything for a long time (so it's not food causing it). Idk if it's from the medicine I take or from the stress.

[cybernetixxx]

I used to feel sorry for shy men who have difficulties talking to women but I've met too many incels now to feel the same about them. They will tell you that you should reach out but if you do and they don't like something about you, they treat you like shit. That's usually the pattern I noticed in the past and based on that my advice to girls is not to waste any time on them.

[cybernetixxx]

Typ bajeruje naiwne ZAJĘTE małolatki. Nie wiem na jakiej podstawie on wierzy, że to skończy się dobrze

[cybernetixxx]

They don't know that I know and try to act so innocent haha

[cybernetixxx]

A photoshoot in Chernobyl with gothic make-up and babushka scarf mood

[cybernetixxx]

The people from work starting some drama again and include the new itern in it which is just awful. I don't want to have the acidic atmosphere there because of them. On the one hand she should've been more assertive, on the other, peer pressure does a thing and she's still very young. I still felt like a kid when a was her age and had no idea what I gotta do, who to listen to and how to say no. So idk what to think about it.

[pretty-opium666]

[cybernetixxx]

My manager picked up a phone call during work call and told us it's from hospital.

We was very supportive when my mom was in the hospital and offered me to take some time off if needed so my stupid ass assumed I should also offer to help with his tasks if he needs to.

I texted him, wishing his hospitalized relative good luck and offering help.

But it turns out I overassumed his situation and that was a call to schedule some appointment for somebody, and nobody is hospitalized 😭

I'm DYING of embarrassed now. I'm so ashamed! People complain that I'm quiet but when I don't shut up things like this happen. Gosh I wanna hide somewhere and never come out

[bluebloatedcorpse]

How come everything I am is considered ugly. I try not to bend to beauty standards because I do truly believe there is more beauty in letting yourself be unique than fitting in a box, but those people tend to be beautiful already. You can get piercings and do weird makeup and have bright, fun hair if you’re pretty. It’s different if you’re ugly. You’re just seen as a clown. I feel like people scoff at me. If feels different when you’re ugly. I feel like I’m just making a fool out of myself. I’m probably making myself even uglier, but this is what I like. I don’t want to be something I’m not, but I guess that means I’m just destined to be ugly. I look mentally ill. I look disturbed. I look creepy. I look gross. Even my physical body is considered unsightly. My features will be called ugly for years to come. It’s just what’s normal. I wish I could be prettier. People would like me then. Maybe if I was prettier somebody would come up to me and ask me to be their friend. I’m pretty so I seem cool and interesting and nice. Because I’m ugly I just seem weird. Nobody wants to be my friend. Nobody likes me.

[cybernetixxx]

When you look freaky but you're hot people call you manic pixie

When you look freaky but you're ugly people call you ugly feminist or woke clown

If I can't be pretty I just wanna look dead so people are at least scared of me, instead of just disgusted. I don't careee

[cybernetixxx]

Hyping this song lately

Also the lyrics are so amazing, so horrorlike

[cybernetixxx]

Two new fun facts I discovered about this song:

1. It's literally about Dziady (Slavic Halloween), my favourite holiday: "этот вечер — бесов день" (this evening is the demon's day), and бес (bies) is a Slavic origin word for demon

2. It was inspired by a Ukrainian folk song "Ой, у вишневому садочку"

And it makes it even more amazing

[cybernetixxx]

Hyping this song lately

Also the lyrics are so amazing, so horrorlike

[cybernetixxx]

I hate working with parents, I can't help it. My work requires me to cooperate with my colleague who is a mother and every Friday she leaves in the middle of the day for some activity with her kid. She comes back at the end of my working hours and I need to wait for her to do her part which sometimes requires staying overtime. On fucking Friday! Parents are so irrespectful of others' time. They think that if you're not a parent you don't have anything to do in your free time. I think I won't agree to prolong this contract, I can't stand working with her any longer.

[cybernetixxx]

The uncomfortable memory of the past hit me again. It was when I was in my uni and we had a group discussion in Russian after watching a short video. I thought this exercise was to improve your speaking skills so I decided to answer one of the questions in a thought provoking way. It was an express your opinion: agree or disagree, type of question. If I said I agree then I wouldn't say anything more. So I decided to say that I disagree and why (I didn't really care tbh, I just wanted to practice my speaking really). It wasn't anything controversial, anything political, but everybody reacted like I offended somebody, including the lecturer and he even corrected me that I should agree. Like what the hell, what was the point of this question then, to say one word? Things like this really discouraged me from practicing in the future because why speak when I will be silenced for that? People made it an awkward moment for no reason. That's how much they hate when somebody is standing out from the group.

[cybernetixxx]

Какая Пошлая Молли, если Дом Периньон целый цензурированный? Чувак, этого слушать невозможно!

[cybernetixxx]

The amount of bad and "break up" advices people give online to couples struggling with really minor issues that could be resolved with just a 15 minutes conversation makes me believe they are just lonely and miserable people who wish the same for others and hate seeing them being happy. That's why I would never ask for relationship advice online. I can already see all the toxic community of losers trying to brainwash me.

[cybernetixxx]

I hate having to shave my 😺 because there's literally no good way to do it. You have to choose between:

A literal torture which gives you max 1 week result

Classic shaving in a very uncomfortable position, but which is at least painless but the result lasts for max 2 days

Something that doesn't even work at all (And I mean those stupid ass creams, isn't it all one big scam?)

Usually I don't even bother but currently it's bikini season and I feel like it's impossible to wear a bikini without your 😺 shaved, unless you have shorts-like bikini bottom. Whoever invented the shaved 😺 as a desired thing belongs to hell.